Thread 82283986

>Elementary School Crush has a husband, works as a Vet, and has a side gig as being a twitch moderator for one of the bigger name Minecraft Youtubers. It's been so long since I talked to her I feel nothing but being genuinely glad her life turned out alright
>Crush I stalked when I was 17, went to the psyche ward once more, then two more times as an adult, transitioned and detransition, her last BF died in a tragic car accident, isn't doing too well. I'd apologize to her if I saw her but frankly I'm so regretful of that time period and her life sucks so much I think we'd both be better if we never spoke again
>Crush I had when I was 19 currently works at Pixar. I fucked up trying to kiss her but we honestly stayed Friends for a good few years after with me only trying to flirt a few more times than I should have, but the friend group we we're in was so irreversibly cut down the middle I don't know how many people even reached out to the other side. But her current BF looks similar to me if I was Blonde and we probably laughed the most genuinely with each other out of everyone on the list, so I still hold a bit too much of a candle for her.
I am 25 now. There's been a few more girls interested in me over the years, but I don't know how to take it past low level flirting and frankly I feel so hopeless and isolated in my own mind I don't think I want one anymore. Looking back all my crushes were pretty shallow, just a pretty girl laughing at my jokes every time, and I didn't know any of these girls as much as I want to know now and I didn't have the people skills to think to ask.

>>82283986 (OP)
>Married a soldier, got preggo, turned her entire identity into soldier's wife, let herself go, think she got divorced though
>Suicide RIP
>Moved to Europe, got married, got divorced, seems happy
>Fell off the grid, maybe dead? Her socials have all been untouched for years.

>>82283986 (OP)
>side gig as a twitch moderator
grim

Had a crush on some girl who always read pretentious literature.
>was probably autistic
>mutist, adding to the appeal
>would freeze and fluoride stare at peers (including teachers) who said anything to her or asked her to do something

>allegedly threatened to boot up the school and never saw her again
All is well

>Crush I had in middle school and high school - a Jewish girl I saw on the swings in sixth grade. We became friends freshman year and walked to class together every day, which felt easy and genuine. In senior year, I tried to stay in touch before college, but she ghosted me, humiliated me, and turned our mutual friends against me. She replaced me with another guy as her walking buddy almost immediately. She's currently a fraternity whore at our state trademark college. I don't hold any romantic feelings for her now - she's changed, I've changed, and looking back, what I felt was more adolescent infatuation than anything real.

On the bright side, she taught me to never trust jews.

>>82284045
>but she ghosted me, humiliated me, and turned our mutual friends against me
There was most absolutely a reason for this. Lol

>>82284056
All I did was go ask her for snapchat before a schoolbreak.

>>82284073
ah. I asked her for her number then she gave me her snapchat. my bad.

i had 1 crush in elementary school and then she died in a car crash and i never had a crush again

>>82284092
lucky. If only that is what happened to mine.

>crush 1
>had a child and in a relationship with the father but strangely unmarried. the dad is an Asian guy. she seems happy.

>crush 2
>got into one relationship after me. broke up. doesn't seem to have had another relationship according to her socials. let her looks go but is in a good org job as a supervisor or smth.

>crush 3
>high achieving foid. kept moving countries for corporate job offers. I'm not surprised she was very sharp and competent. always gets into a managerial positions even though she's young. she has pictures with corporate psycho think tank events every other week

>crush 4
>might not count. fell for the streamer meme. she was a small streamer so I thought the interactions were real and I developed a parasocial relationship. I thought our little messages with each other was real lol. she eventually got big and started ignoring me and being cruel. women really do hate you when they think they can do better. still has a bunch of viewers but it's obvious that she just likes to string along people for support.

pic unrelated just a r9k classic

>>82283986 (OP)
>Elementary
Moved to Miami, was a model on Myspace or something
>Middle school
Got pregnant as a teen, had a baby, got dumped, became gay, walled before 30
>High school
Joined the Army, got deployed, became gay, adopted a child, got divorced
>25
Married a fat balding guy, had a baby with him, seems pretty happy
>28
Fucked off somewhere. We're on bad terms. Only crush I've ever had sex with
>34
Currently dating an autist and wants to friendzone me but I've decided to distance myself

I've never had a gf and every single one of these girls rejected me btw. Crush at 28 gave me a pity fuck

I dunno where any of them are or what they're doing. I can't even remember who they were

Here's a short rundown:

>High-school ex: Single mom, no career prospects. We dated fir like 2 weeks.
>College: Married with kids, no shot. I never told her how I feel.
>Post School: She left me for a job offer in Georgia. Still single today.
>Now: I am trying to convince myseld to ask her out.