Sorry for the late reply I forgot about to check back. But it's a fairly nothingburger response anyway
>>82287419
>I really don't know what to do at this point to fill the void that's been created from living like this
Good thing that I don't know either (I wouldn't be here otherwise).
Many of the changes needed are on a societal level. But on a personal level, it's more complicated. One way might be to find meaning in the act of creation rather than through consumption (through art or simply making things by hand). Another path could be with spiritual awakening, which often requires a more rooted, less consumer-driven lifestyle (something very hard to achieve within the relentless pace of selfish neocapitalism; would not recommend unless you live away from the city).
Living in the countryside in a close-knit community can also offer you deeper non-transactional relationships. It often comes from the fact that neighbors can't just disappear or be easily replaced, and you end up forming bonds simply by sharing everyday life with the same people over time.
But all of this is easier said than done. I for one have started practicing the art of not giving a fuck (also started writing)
>>82287509
You don't have to be a commie to hate capitalism (shocking I know). Capitalism is a fairly recent concept. You're not gonna VGH your way back without getting rid of it. For example, France was mostly feudal, with mercantilist elements before the French Revolution then went through a transitional period to capitalism, up until it was firmly established in the 1850s. Neocapitalism then started appearing with the Marshall Plan and was firmly established there when De Gaulle got booted out after the US backed colour revolution of may 68. Modern capitalism is libertarian liberalism, pushed in big parts by Trotskyists, who became neoconservatists (you're not a Trotskyist anon, are you???!!)