>>82289382
I've been there already, anon. While this emptiness is still too heavy to deal with, I suggest you finding pleasure in little things, like eating, observing the light and shades. As generic as it may sound, I found that when in this hopeless state, holding onto the smallest thread of enjoyment that we can still sense helps a lot. Does this makes sense to you?
Sorry if I'm expressing myself badly, but I acknowledge your feelings and believe you are right: behind all artificial things created by humans there is nothing but lack of meaning, and this is even more accentuated in our modern life. But when this realization starts to crush us, taking our motivation and joy, it's natural to want to fight against it, and something tells me you too want to fight it. Questioning this meaningless life and searching for a meaning can be meaningful in itself.
Just be patient, anon. Recovery may be slow, but you'll gradually develop your own answer against the void, I'm sure of it.
