>>82290880 (OP)
I spent the ages between diagnosis and adulthood basically just denying I had any problems and forcing myself to socialise. I lost my virginity at 14 by pretending to be a quirky loser instead of just a sperg (this was 2009 when you could get a scene or emo girl by acting a bit wacky). When I turned 16 I started drinking before socialising and learning what parts of me people liked (gently sardonic, faux-egotism, saying the most ridiculous shit with a totally straight face) and discarded the things people didn't like. Eventually I started sleeping around like crazy after being dumped by my girl and losing 80 pounds. After years of this I had a mental breakdown and I am 30 and have lost all desire for material wealth and struggle with not just drinking all day to escape my own brain. I had multiple mental breakdowns over not knowing which version of myself was the real me. Sometimes I am not sure if my memories are real or if I invented them the way I invented my personality.
Basically, fake it till you make it, but even then you might just make yourself miserable. Also, probably relevant, but apparently I have an IQ in the low 140s, but that never made my life better. When people think you are "smart" they start having ridiculous expectations.