Thread 82293929

I left here at 18, almost a decade ago. I tried my best to use my gifts the best I could. I wasn't a true robot. I was tall, decent looking, high IQ, but I came from a family that abused me daily until I joined the army at 23 after several attempts of jeapordizing my enlistment into the Army Reserves by sending my childhood ADHD and thearpy diagnosis to my recruiter. They knew I needed those benefits to be able to go to college

I wasn't allowed friends, music lessons, or anything substantial in my youth. In adolsence I was one of the few of my peers who wasn't allowed to get a job, get a driver's license (I live in shit hole rural Ohio) or have a phone (class of 2016)

My parents used the parental signature requirement on the FASFA to keep me out of college or trade programs as I couldn't afford higher education on 8 dollars an hour.

Every adult in my life failed me and I became a broken man. I could mention my degenerative disc disease that I got at 20 and lied at meps about, finally losing my virginity at 24 and getting cucked, having my acl/mcl/meniscus/ explode that cost me my job, and many more things.

I am staying on a friends coach, and I considered suicide after frying my gaming laptop, my best friend in this world, after a stupid accident doing a basic repaste when disconnecting the battery.

I don't have a degree, I don't have skills, I applied to work at Applebee's for 14 an hour and I don't want to do it.

I am lucky, I had some documented injuries in the army doing some high speed stuff, and 2 close friends I made in my unit committed suicide.

If this is it, pushing 30, and just wage slaving at apple bees, I don't want it. I had an asvab in the 90s. I could have been an officer, a doctor, or even something mid tier like a teacher.

I am in so much pain I can't focus and it feels like there has been a drill going through my head for the past few months and I can't study.

I think I need to throw in the towel, at least for now

>>82293929 (OP)
TLDR Retarded Idiot considering suicide, but also considering Neetbux

>>82293943
A bit reductive, my good faggot retard.
>>82293929 (OP)
I'm sorry man, have you considered just committing to a hospital/doctor/specialist speedrun and just trying to find someone who could help you? I know money is an issue too which is a bummer

F, OP. Sadly, though I was diagnosed depressed and anxious in my teens, I'm not even on disability; but after 16 years of 'bux appointments and harassment, they finally put me on the shelf for 'limited capability' three years ago, and finally left me the fuck alone. Telling them that I wish I were dead seems to help a lot. Just a shame that I will have to worry about getting through these assessments for the rest of my miserable life.
I'm also waiting years for a 'tism test and diagnosis that will probably never come, even though I obviously have it (30th percentile). I cannot deal with people, yet that's the only type of job that exists now in this cucked globalist outsourced world. I unironically would rather rot as a NEET, than feel even worse doing that, sperging out every day and getting fired. Staying at home actually makes me feel sane. Just a shame that I can never leave that state.
For all the talk of disability friendly employers, it's all a bunch of bullshit to avoid paying bennies to people who need it. Employers hate NDs.

>>82293929 (OP)
i wish i faked hearing and vision loss when i got out. the guy doing the hearing test was even nudging me to do that and i was too stupid and prideful to dive either one. with everything documented i only got 50% ($1,000/month). My plantar fasciitis is getting worse and it's affecting my ability to work so maybe i could tell them that and get it raised. also, i never documented it but i have really bad mood swings and a vet friend at work says there's no way to prove to them i don't have mood swings so i could tell them they are due to ptsd or something and get neetbux that way. god, if I had a liveable wage from just existing i would live a completely different life. i'd travel. i'd live.

>>82294977
also to tack on, i worked on jets while i was in so maybe i could fail an asthma test and say it's because of all the fumes and jet fuel and whatnot? i got out in February 2024.

>>82294977
Well, Op here again, I am 9 months into the VA claim process.
Yeah it sucks dude, but you could always claim depression, that would bump you up to a 90. I knew an airforce dude at college who did depression and sleep apnea and got some good spending money.

I took a sleep study and while i toss and turn for ages before i fall asleep, when I do, I rarely snore. Did not catch it on the sleep study.

I did suffer a concussion at a training event that has caused migranes and memory issues so I ended up claiming that.

>>82294977
I made this thread to talk about civilian Neet bucks. bc my case is "complex" it could take up to another year to resolve.

you did shoot yourself in the foot with the hearing loss claim. I don't know how many years you were in but you could maybe consider a stint in the guard and reserves to give you more opportunities to get medical evidence for disability

I can barely sit up for an hour at a time, some of my fingers don't even bend all the way, I can only walk for about 10 minutes and I'm hunched over the whole time, literally crippled from arthritis all over my entire body and racking up joint damage and I can't get on disability after a year and half so far. I want to kill myself. Once my family member who supports me dies, if I don't have some kind of income, I'm going to die homeless anyway. I'm also bipolar type 1 and psychotic as fuck although I have that under wraps mostly as long as I take my pills.

I hope you and everyone else who needs it doesn't have to go through this long of a process. I hate it. I'm worried sick every day about what I'm going to do about money once my family can't support me, and they barely can as is, I both feel like and absolutely am a burden on them and I hate it. If I could at least give them some money every month for helping me out for so long, I'd feel so much better. I'd give them all of my backpay if I could get it. I don't need anything other than a roof over my head, a computer, and this cool bed my family got me that goes up and down like a hospital bed for my back and hips and legs and shit.

Sorry for venting a bit hard OP. I feel for you too, I'm just at my own wits end. If I don't make it I hope you can in my stead.

>>82296096
i've had a really shitty life but my back injury has mostly "healed" (damage discs don't really heal but i don't really suffer or think about it in my day to day anymore)

If you were a veteran you could get 4k a month. I am assuming you are us. Worst case bro, just apply for section 8 housing, foodstamps, and neetbux. Ive looked more into it and SSD and SSDI seem to take like 1 or 2 years to process it. So don't wait. Also same for section 8, you may prefer it in your grandparents comfy house but getting the ball rolling on your own place so you can be prepared for when the inevitabel happens is the best move.