Thread 82300391

Do you feel comforted by conflict/disasters? I'm not the only one, right? Violence/fighting, catastrophic machinery failures, natural disasters etc, are the only things that make me feel relaxed.
It stems from my upbringing around a schizophrenic and a meth addict who relied on me to calm them down and keep the peace, and I got very good at it. Peacefulness keeps me on edge. When something goes horribly wrong at work for example, and everyone panics, I finally feel comfortable and focused, and I lead them to a solution.

Yes. At best it brings focus to my life, at worst it distracts me and others from the failure that is my life. Covid was some of the best times for me.

>>82300391 (OP)
I don't actively seek out gore, but I get what you're saying. Its kinda like when things get bad, the dam has finally broken and you don't need to be anxious having to wait for things to get bad anymore.
>>82300553
I thought covid was really fun, but more because I didn't have many responsibilities or expectations I had to meet. For a short time I truly felt free.

>>82300391 (OP)
I just watch horror movies for that

>>82300391 (OP)
Yeah waterside disasters like the baltimore bridge get me excited because thats my line of work

>>82300593
>Its kinda like when things get bad, the dam has finally broken and you don't need to be anxious having to wait for things to get bad anymore.
This is exactly it. I'm always waiting for something to go wrong, and when it does, I think "oh, thank god"

>>82300756
>"oh, thank god"
its like an orgasm in the depths of your soul.
then you have to deal with all the problems...

>>82300391 (OP)
I noticed that during serious local natural disasters + early stages of covid when everyone was freaking out, my stress levels were way down. Any time the routine gets shattered and the normal social hierarchies are disrupted. Maybe that's why /pol/ likes happenings so much.

>>82300391 (OP)
>>82300808
Yes. In my case it is because the normalfags are finally paying for what they do.

>>82300391 (OP)
Depends on the conflict. When I'm being terrorized by extra-state actors threatening my life there's no real solution per se.

only natural disasters

>>82300553
>>82300593
>>82300808
I miss COVID so bad because normies couldn't judge you as worthless for not working and seeing all these people that would normally look down upon me as a useless eater being the ones to freak out instead felt incredibly satisfying. I get excited any time there's news of an outbreak because part of me longs for another pandemic.
>Any time the routine gets shattered and the normal social hierarchies are disrupted. Maybe that's why /pol/ likes happenings so much.
Those times, like when Trump won the election, are when I feel the happiest in relation to the rest of culture. The default culture feels so stifling and unending, seeing it get disrupted leads to a sense of things becoming much more dynamic. I think a lot about how every generation in history always sees themselves as the last one and that everything after them will be decadence/savagery forever, like the doomsday predictions that have been made for thousands of years. I think apocalyptic narratives make people feel important and everyone secretly wants to see the status quo get torn down so they can have the vitality that comes with chaos and upheaval in their lives. I think everyone is much more horrified by the idea that nothing will ever end and things will continue as they have because it makes them feel like a footnote in history rather than a main character.

>>82301179
>feels so stifling and unending
This; the Stasi-like total control scheme is anathema to culture. Whether implemented by communists or technocrats, the result is always a desertification of the soul. The recent version being a dead hum of cold repetition and nostalgia.