Thread 82303021

today's a really nice day and i was looking forward to going outside, but my appointment got cancelled. ill only get to enjoy it in my backyard when i finally get to have a cigarette

nobody cares pitysperg, you should slit your wrists . nobody wants a thing to do with you

you shouldn't smoke, nona
it's bad for you
at least replace it with a vape or something
but don't go overboard on the vape and just use it every once in a while like a cigarette, okay
I love you

>>82303050
isnt vaping worse than smoking? its got a lot more chemicals in it, i think.
i really appreciate the concern, tho. thank you

>>82303021 (OP)
don't smoke unless it looks cool

>>82303097
i think it looks cool. girls who smoke in anime like mamimi have always looked cool to me

>>82303074
the byproducts from burning tobacco (let alone the shit in a cigarette which is like a monster compared to traditional tobacco) are far worse than anything vaporized propylene glycol + flavorings + nicotine could produce
we're talking formaldehyde, arscenic, benzene, hundreds of carcinogens and whatever else they add to the cigarette to make it "fire safe" (some sort of vinyl)

>>82303163
ig youre right then, smoking is probably worse than vaping.
vapes are harder to buy tho, im pretty sure its illegal here. its also more expensive.
i dont smoke much so i should be ok for now

>>82303216
>>82303163
My experience: pipe tobacco > roll ups > cigs > vapes
Vapes have a harsh chemical taste and a very short lived buzz. Consistent use also hurts the middle of my chest. Disposable vapes might be worse than cigs.
Cigs are quick and effective, but are unhealthy.
Roll-ups don't have additives (because you can control what you buy) but are addictive like cigs
Pipe smoking is relatively non addictive and more relaxing. Can't be done at work which is bad.

>>82303254
vapes do have a really harsh chemical taste which is why i thought they were worse than cigs. they always hurt my mouth and lungs.
i would probably do rollups or pipe smoking but it seems to be more effort than its worth

its mid afternoon and i still havent gotten a cigarette. fml

>>82303021 (OP)
Instead of smoking cigarettes why don't you post a contact and resign yourself to being my lifelong pole smoker?

>>82303919
ew dude

>>82303936
It's a good life you can forget the stress and anxieties that life brings you, just focus on pleasuring my cock nightly. No more suffering, only my penis. Bliss.

>>82303936
tits or gtfo pls

cigarette time

>>82304679
Take it out of your mouth I have a perfectly good pole for you right here

What will your second half think of you reeking of tobbaco smoke, coughing and being out of breath all the time? Drop this addiction right now. Only be addicted to him. Sniff him or something. If I was him I would hold you down and cry saying how much I love you that I can't see you self-destruct this way.

>>82304888
hes not my second half. idek what his opinion on smoking is. its not an addiction, i only just picked it up, ive only been smoking for a week and a bit i think. i havent even finished a pack. hes also not even here for me to smell him, unfortunately

>>82304928
I can be there in a week just post contact and let's meet up, you can sniff my dirty old cock any time you get lonely hun.

>>82304928
So its his fault you started smoking? Why even bother with him if he's not your second half. Either go meet up with him and beg for a second chance, or block him and delete him from your life. Sorry for overreactiing, but I read your daily timetable last thread and somehow it was even worse than mine during my worst depression... you need to do SOMETHING with your life to not go insane. Not even necessarily productive, even just taking a walk through a forest will do.

>>82304953
its not his fault, ive just been depressed.
i like him a lot and want to be with him but its too early to do all that yet. if we do go anywhere id fly him out to be with me for a bit. but thats only if it goes anywhere. needs more time, idk what he looks like yet, i wanna get to know him more as well because im terrified of intimate things

ive been living like this for roughly the last 1.5-2 years (other than the smoking). its only getting to me now cause im fast approaching my 20s and i feel pretty pathetic

if we had forests near me id love to walk in them but im scared of them at the same time cause of the violent crime rates here and those are prime places for crime

i appreciate your concern tho, i really do. are you doing better now yourself, anon?

>>82305002
I'm 30 can u be my gf we can have an age crisis at the same time

cigs are disgusting anon, I'm hiding this thread to prevent the smoke smell from getting on me

>>82305032
i fully understand anon, im sorry for cig-posting

>>82303021 (OP)
How important is dick size to you? Be honest.

>>82305533
ive not been asked such disgusting questions in my threads until today, wtf happened

>>82305002
So... you have a relationship with him? Or at least a friendship? Then you should be talking every day, involve yourself in his life and hobbies.
>im fast approaching my 20s
You are so young... wasting some time, even years, is part of human life. Very few people have a straight road ahead all the time.
>if we had forests near me id love to walk in them
Are you american living in a suburban hell in some desert? If so, I pity you. I live in Poland and nature is everywhere, just a few minutes walk and you're in a forest where noone sees or hears you and you can chill out. Most crime happen in the cities, between people who know each other. The likelihood of you getting killed in a forest is unbelievably small. And if you do... then that solves your depression, right? Forests are exctiting, I'm much more anxious in the cities. Also there are fields and meadows and you can walk around those. Also, you can cycle, then few things or people can catch you.
>are you doing better now yourself, anon?
I think so, I basically force myself out of my shelf, I got a car from my mum and now I'm taking a course to become a construction worker and operate some machinery so hopefully I can get the car working and money to buy a cat and other silly little things. I'm 25 lvl but my life is basicalyl stunted by 8 years. EH, who cares. everyone has their own path.

>>82305711
we have, well, something. im his phone wallpaper, theres that. we talk every day through text but its been so little lately, so i got super worried. idk much about the way he functions yet. im still figuring it out. gotta get more involved in his interests tho, hes taken interest in some things that i like which is sweet and already more effort than anyones ever put in for me

i dont feel young, and i feel like one day ill blink and ill be 25, probably still doing everything the same stuff. the last few years already feel blurred

i luckily dont live in the shithole that is the US. poland is a great place to live, youre pretty lucky. you also dont have to deal with the mass immigration going on. its probably why your country is still pretty safe compared to others.
i dont wanna be murdered, having my life taken by someone else like that would be awful. i want it done by my own hands if i were to die prematurely. biking is a good option, i just need to pay off my debts first to be able to get one

thats so good anon! having a car, even if it needs work, and doing a course is a really great start. and even if youre forcing yourself out now, itll get easier with time, i think. and having your own money will be really good. AND even if youre 25, who cares, its not anyone elses business what you do with your life

>>82305822
>im his phone wallpaper
Cuuuuute, demand his pic to put as your wallpaper!
>i feel like one day ill blink and ill be 25
haha... that's me, 25 lvl and neet of 4 years...
>you also dont have to deal with the mass immigration going on
I've been to the Ruhr area of Germany (Essen, Witten, Dortmund etc) and they also have amazing trees and parks and the migrants are okay. Don't become paranoid, very few people are criminals.
>i just need to pay off my debts
Debt?! I have like 100$ to my name but no debts ever. As a neet, the anxiety of debt would kill me... how do you cope?
>having your own money will be really good
Yeah I'm really hampered by its lack right now. I can't even buy winter boots for this winter... let alone afford a pet... and I want to give gift to my family, not just take...
But I remember working. It was an experience of constant stress, discomfort, and suicidal thoughts. I'll probably need some strong drugs like benzo to endure it when I find a job.

>>82305822
Can I be your worthless cuckold slave that cleans your pussy out but if thats too much I'll even pay you just to sleep at the foot of your bed once a month like a dog please I can't express how fucking lonely I an

>>82305883
i still havent gotten to see him, when hes finally willing to show me his face i kinda wanna ask if i can do that

weve both been neets for 4 years...

germany is also very beautiful, i wanna visit there one day. its got really nice architecture.
its hard not to be paranoid, theres lots of criminals where i live. ive been a witness to a lot of crime and ive been a victim of it, i think theres around 700 violent crimes in the area i live alone, theres 5000+ monthly in the entire state. im so terrified

i like to buy stuff when i feel sad, so i put it on afterpay, and i currently owe like $800. i have double that in savings from neetbuxx tho. im on disability which makes neeting easier. and im really on top of my finances so i dont need to have anxiety about it. i used to get really stressed with it but after learning some basic responsibility it got easier

winters still a bit off for you, hopefully youll manage to get some before then. youll be able to do everything you want eventually, like get a cat and give gifts to your family.
dont do bad things like that especially if you plan on operating heavy machinery for a living. just keep to yourself at the start so you can get comfortable working. itll get easier, i promise

>>82305961
>weve both been neets for 4 years...
How young did you start?! School kept me grounded in reality. But uni was too difficult, especially alone and with depression, so I dropped out, ghosted everyone and everything and that's when my new neet life begun.
>ive been a witness to a lot of crime and ive been a victim of it, i think theres around 700 violent crimes in the area i live alone, theres 5000+ monthly in the entire state. im so terrified
South Africa?! Then don't fly your beloved in, fly to him and live with him, in his basement if you must...
>i put it on afterpay, and i currently owe like $800
Those are predatory lenders.
>im on disability which makes neeting easier
You're so lucky! How did you get on it? Did your depression manifest when you were a kid and your parents took the effort to have you diagnosed? WHere I live, your illness has to begin before you're 18 to be eligible for neetbux. Very cruel law, because a lot of parents, my own included, are afraid of psychiatry and having their child assesed. They told me stuff like
>You don't need to see those doctors becuase you are not a crazy person, everyone has problems!
>dont do bad things like that
Oh, I won't do elicit drugs at work, I'll just start seeing a psychiatrist again and get meds from him.

>>82306507
ive been neeting since 16, i dropped out of school right before turning 16. what were you studying in uni?

im not in africa, africa would be way worse. its not all that bad if you know what places you should and shouldn't go, id keep him safe. tho id love to fly to him too, obviously

i only got on it because i have autism, which was diagnosed a bit after i dropped out, cause i fought for a diagnosis myself. my parents were the same, hated mental health stuff. it sucks tho, they likely didnt realise how badly they screwed you over in the end

good, do it the proper way. and save them for after work, be safe

also, thisll likely be my last reply for today, im getting tired. ill most likely be back tomorrow tho