Thread 82309476

I dropped out from uni at 29 years old. Felt that nothing mattered, nothing was meaningful. Nothing was worth doing.

I'm 35 now, and I still feel the same. I have no idea why people pursue things or why. Schools prep you for your future career, but I don't even fuckin want a career. There's no job in the world I'd feel is worth doing. It's all just capitalism for the sake of capitalism. A net negative on society. Wasting your life away in some dark warehouse so you get to exist.
People say I'm damb for quitting uni.. but what choice did I really have?

Is it the no gf that makes me feel this way? My pain is constant and sharp. I fight with anxiety and neurosis every second of my life. My only hobby in life is trying to find conditions where I feel as little pain as possible. Anime, good food, games, air conditioning, walking in the woods talking to spiders, coming up with incel theories.
That's how I live man. I don't know how a warehouse job would make me feel any less pain.

>spend your entire life walking aimlessly in forests
>come back home, do nothing
>still feel that it's a better alternative than getting 3 degrees and a 6-figure job

I dunno why but I'm entirely immune to capitalism.

>>82309476 (OP)
rn im developing my professional stuff like resume and website since i wanna afford a sailboat and pay off my loans in four years but if it works out ill make it happen in six months if i make at least fifty thousand a year and make money investing

>>82309531
Boats are a pain, they need constant maintenance.

>>82309476 (OP)
I feel the same, I mostly hate being around people but I'm very lazy myself and I actually have no reason to get up in the morning or doing any activity really.
I tried to get into maintenance at factories but this shit is too hard and I also don't like it and I have literally no will to learn. Well to be fair I have no will to do any activity at all.
All I want is BEING ALONE but I fucking can't I have to get up everyday and get a gay ass job where people hate be because I'm asocial

i dont understand it either, i guess im just depressed, but i knew people who were kicked out at 16, were homeless and somehow grinded themselves through a degree while working minimum wage all the way up to being professionals with 6 figure salaries. i dont know how the fuck they did that, i would have just become a drug addict and that would be that. where does the drive come from? it feels like its all for nothing for like 5 years and then you have to get lucky to get an actual job.

>>82309661
>its all for nothing for like 5 years

For some people, passing the exams isn't the hard part.
It's that you have to turn off your brain for 5 years, live on a minimal budget, and not lose faith.
For me that's incredibly hard. The older you are, the worse it's going to get because you have fewer years to waste.
I'm 35, there's no way I'm going to go back to school

>>82309673
its funny because i remember being like 21 and feeling like i missed the window to go to school and itd be weird, then i did the same thing at 22 and 23 and 25... and now i still feel weird and its like WHAT ELSE AM I GOING TO DO? but i just keep mulling it over and do nothing. i fucking hate myself analysis paralysis ruined me

>>82309738
Same.
I dropped out when I was 22 because I was "too old".

-35 years old now

>>82309738
ive felt this too my dude
uni was just too much pressure

>>82309476 (OP)
>nothing was worth doing
>also I watch tranime
lol i bet you are sexless and have a miserable life.

>>82309476 (OP)
>uni at 29 years old
>warehouse job
w....was the uni thing being a janny cleaning the shit stains from toilets?