OP, every time you have such a thought, I want you to picture this word in your mind. Go to the bathroom mirror and repeat it to yourself out loud 100 times.
>>82315125
that annoying indomitable human spirit. there's a reason most suicide is done in a way where the person cant stop it. once you step off that building then that's it. you can't stop this death. you cant turn off gravity. it's out of your hands. panic at the last moment all you want, nothing will change