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i went on tinder a few months back to get laid just so i could say i wasn't a virgin before i hit 20. matched with three girls, first two didnt respond back. third was fat, cute-ish face, and good personality.
we hit it off well, went on a few dates, found that I genuinely liked her as a person. lost my virginity to her, didn't mind that she had a few partners before me because the excitement of getting into my first real relationship with someone i truly connected with made me blind.
Now a couple months in I'm realizing that I was a rebound for her following a breakup with her ex and then a chad who fucked and dumped her. I was just the scraps, someone to fill her hole for a night and make her feel better about herself. She basically directly admitted that I ended her hoe phase because I was "so kind."
I don't doubt that she loves me now because she is 100% BPD and is INSANELY attached to me. Issue is i've just lost so much respect and attraction for her thinking of how she slutted herself out for fucking crumbs of attention, and I'm mad at myself for being one of the cucks willing to give it just so I could lose my virginity. It wouldn't be so bad to me if she wasn't so fucking pathetic about it all. A whimpering little girl desperate for male validation that I "fixed". It makes me sick.
we hit it off well, went on a few dates, found that I genuinely liked her as a person. lost my virginity to her, didn't mind that she had a few partners before me because the excitement of getting into my first real relationship with someone i truly connected with made me blind.
Now a couple months in I'm realizing that I was a rebound for her following a breakup with her ex and then a chad who fucked and dumped her. I was just the scraps, someone to fill her hole for a night and make her feel better about herself. She basically directly admitted that I ended her hoe phase because I was "so kind."
I don't doubt that she loves me now because she is 100% BPD and is INSANELY attached to me. Issue is i've just lost so much respect and attraction for her thinking of how she slutted herself out for fucking crumbs of attention, and I'm mad at myself for being one of the cucks willing to give it just so I could lose my virginity. It wouldn't be so bad to me if she wasn't so fucking pathetic about it all. A whimpering little girl desperate for male validation that I "fixed". It makes me sick.