Thread 82319551

It's pretty sad to realize I will never get a gf. I just turned 35 so it's basically over.

At around 28 I realized I was no longer meeting single women anywhere because I was no longer in school and being around 20yo people. I joined new hobbies but I only met guys, never single girls.
Society inceled me by removing females from the Matrix whenever I went out.

As a last resort I went back to college at 35. It just made everything worse. Every day I have to see girls I can never get. Like, today I saw a girl with massive boobs and a big butt on campus. I went to talk to her but she didn't seem interested. Had a similar experience with the other girls, too. They treat me like I didn't exist, like I was thin air.

The problem is that without my dream waifu I have no motivation or energy to tolerate this stupid world.

>>82319551 (OP)
Just leave society and live in a hut or something

>>82319567
I've unironically thought about that.
Without a waifu I have 0% interest in working, studying, adopting the global narrative, supporting Pride etc.

>>82319551 (OP)
I got married at 18. Now, after 25 years of being happily married to my beautiful wife, I am still a kissless virgin

>see big booba goth mommy at school
>realize you can never have her
>cry at home

I know that feel

>>82319807
Omg I went to college yesterday and saw some sexy blond milf dragging a cart behind her :3

>>82319551 (OP)
Sorry but if at 35 you haven't had girls it never began. You should take other interests. You can still live a good life without women in your life. Honesty some of the worst pain and mental anguish in my life has come from women so that's that.

>>82319842
>You can still live a good life without women in your life
Technically true but it's very hard to accomplish in practice. You have no idea how hard it is. The "no gf" pain actually seeps into other areas of your life.
I used to be interested in things, but the no gf just made me dead inside. Bitter. Resentful. Uncaring. It's hard to even experience normal positive feelings anymore. The world just seems empty to me, without love in it. I quit studying. I quit my job. The "no gf" pain made me catatonic.

>>82319870
Yeah I get it. I have had my bad times in life too man. Currently I'm 38 and had to go back home. Unemployed and trying to build things back. I get that there is an existential dread that is very profound when you are genetically not suited for reproduction. Because in the larger scheme of things that's the issue. However, some of that mental schema you already had (being here is proof) might also have contributed to this. I was very sheltered and withdrawn when I was a teenager but I managed to get my first gf and then things kinda worked out. There is something in building strong, foundational experiences during your formative years that cannot be replaced on the long run. But you have one life and you should take advantage of the time you have. Currently I'm learning some skills and getting into digital art with the excessive free time I have. I don't think I'm gonna get employment or any other milestone for a long time, if ever. But I'm coping

>>82319870
Then again being cheated on, abandoned, etc can really, really traumatize you. I have had horrible relationships during my life and I would'nt give these experiences to my worst enemy. Women are brutal and very animalistic in their thinking. When they stop loving you there is some sort of resentment and cruel indifference that is hard to explain to someone who has never experienced it. I was traumatized for years because of a relationship I had in college with a BPD psycho who kept returning to my life for years, and I mean 5+ years. So maybe the grass is greener on the other side.

>>82319912
>>82319966

I'm 35, completely unemployable and also will never find a gf because I'm not networked in any way and to old and shit.
I dunno what the fuck I will dedicate my life to when the man questlines are out of question (career + marriage).
Vidya? Damn that sounds depressing

>>82319551 (OP)
im the same and turning 35 in a week. kv neet
giga oof
im resigned towards accepting the reality of the situation, and trying to find peace with it

its brutal and cold. i think maybe ai robot girlfriends would solve the issue. well see, we still need some time for that. maybe 5 to 10 years

i oscillate between limerance daydreams of a perfect girl to despair of being alone to tacit acceptance of the hopelessness of my situation

its not exactly fun. surprisingly im not in CONSTANT crippling depression... just a decent chunk of time

i do wonder what i did in the last life to deserve this cruel fate

>>82320034
I draw, learning game dev, working out all day, programming. That's stuff you can do for example that cost 0 dollars and can pan out into something. Also reading. Etc. Having a career fucking sucks. Marriage can be a fucking cointoss. I hang out with a lot of people 40+ and half of them are already divorced. Having a relationship is fucking hard work and eventually you don't even want to have sex with your partner.

>>82319551 (OP)
i understand you. i'm 25 year old autist, invisible to women since birth and studying engineering in some small city. it's a majority male campus, i'm a commuter student and most of my work field is at mining where there will be ZERO young women worth dating and that will notice me. i am screwed unless i find a way to sever the thread of destiny. i want to live in a first world country in a cool city full of young people and have regular ways to meet girls my age or younger, it's so depressing and i'm pretty much trapped here since i'm penniless so i can't do the japan exploit or travel abroad until i graduate and i'll be a balding 30 something with a limp dick by then. i refuse this fate and i will never accept it.

>>82319551 (OP)
>The problem is that without my dream waifu I have no motivation or energy to tolerate this stupid world.
Same, though i'm not as old as you i see the writing on the wall regardless and it doesn't make me confident.