Thread 82319702

Finding a relationship or bond with someone is impossible for me.
Every person I meet I cannot relate with at all. The people who do just larp even when it comes to my kinks. All they do is lie for my approval then get bored with me once they find Im serious about it and think of me as a desperate loser.
> Blood kink? Sounds hot
> Oh you want me to cut you ?
> Sorry I cant do that I dont want to hurt you, it doesnt arouse me
> you want to kill yourself with someone? Why would you do that if youre in a relationship?

Ive just accepted the fact social isolation and people online are fake and that Im doomed to die alone. Finding someone with the same interests irl is impossible , online? Not a chance

>>82319702 (OP)
Blood is so hot. I want to mutually draw and store blood and until there's enough to bathe in.

>>82319702 (OP)
I knew a girl from Estonia who cut for me. She was a sweet girl. But she had no depth outside of that and that bothered and turned me off quite a bit

>>82319736
Thats not even a relationship thats an e girl cut slut made on discord

>>82319702 (OP)
>you want to kill yourself with someone? Why would you do that if youre in a relationship?
You'd have to be someone really special for me to consider this

>>82319702 (OP)
Im not gonna pretend i find blood hot or get off on cutting you, but i would indulge your kinks and do my best to make it pleasurable for you. Granted you indulge my kinks too. Because thats how i think relationships should work, we do things for each other because we want each other to feel good

>>82319736
It has to be mutual so you can mix it together cementing the bond between the two and then drinking it while you stare into each others' eyes

>>82319765
i was just planning on dating someone suicidal who wants to die but even then the people ive met who claim so are larps
>>82319768
then its not genuine if youre forcing yourself to get into it.

>>82319773
What if I regretted getting involved as I bled out? It would counter-intuit the intention to connect us
>>82319783
Nobody wants to die for no good reason

>>82319717
Go to a Ethiopian butcher if you want animal blood.

>>82319790
thats why i said suicidal. someone similar to me

>>82319801
I'm suicidal and I don't want to die for no good reason

>>82319702 (OP)
All trannies do is larp, bait and be insufferable. Fuck off

>>82319736
had a girl from Latvia cut my name into her thigh and she misspelled it..
anyway, having an insane self-harm gf who wants me to abuse her sounds fun
where you from OP

>>82319790
>What if I regretted getting involved as I bled out?
I'm not the romantic suicide OP, I'm just a blood fetishist. Mixing blood and drinking it together is more romantic than anything else I can think of other than actually infusing it directly but that would probably cause issues unfortunately.
>>82319800
I don't want animal blood, I want a blood fetish gf

>>82319805
> someone suicidal who wants to die
i want to die and i want to die with someone who wants to die. whats not clicking
>>82319822
go onto discord for that niggery shit if youre too much of a pussy to give me your own blood

>>82319783
>then its not genuine

Youre just being picky, i dont need to love your favorite movie to watch it with you. I just enjoy spending time with you and want to make you happy. Sure the roleplay wouldnt be genuine on my part but thats because itd be roleplay. My love for you and my wish to see you squirm in pleasure is genuine and that should be enough

>>82319823
someone once asked me to cut it was long ago but didnt know scares would last for that long :(

>>82319829
ur stupid, only a mental nigger would commit suicide with you

>>82319834
> youre just being picky
> thread states i want someone i can relate with who doesnt larp
i fear most people here just saw me say kink and ran with the idea of me wanting to be their slut

>>82319829
>dying for a foid
you're not hot enough to make me do that

>>82319838
Scars are hot it's not even a problem. Scars are second to blood on the hotness ranking. You can get them reduced if you really don't want them though.

>>82319840
wow no way almost like im also a mentally ill nigger whod want to do that
>>82319838
you shouldntve cut that deep then
>>82319847
ive been asked out numerous times by normies i dont want a discord mod thx

>>82319857
kys alone and jump in a lake. no one wlll miss u

>>82319857
>ive been asked out numerous times by normies i dont want a discord mod thx
>thinking normies care about you any more than the hole between your legs

>>82319864
is this how you moids cope with rejection? kek >>82319850
scars are hhhot
>>82319866
same men that cry male loneliness?

>>82319850
i dont see the hotness in it but i have two on my throat that im planning on removing

>>82319702 (OP)
>you want to kill yourself with someone? Why would you do that if youre in a relationship?
That's a pretty valid question. Here you are whining you can't find a bf, and the reason you can't find a bf is because your theoretical bf must want to kill himself, not just kill himself, but kill himself together with you. This is such an idiotic scenario that you have no chance of attracting anything but LARPers and psychopaths that just want to kill you. Maybe pick up some less stupid, civilized fetishes, like watersports and scat.

>>82319875
I mean neck

>>82319874
ur a dumb roastie. i've never met you. i've never asked you out. you are retarded and should be eaten by fishes

>>82319875
were you trying to kill yourself or something? why would you go for your neck
>>82319879
but anons can fetishise wanting a 16 e cup tiny waist loli asian gf?
>>82319884
u sent me ur dick pic on discord anon dont make me drop the @

>>82319874
>scars are hhhot
Especially if they're arranged nicely or made into a design
>>82319875
Oh very nice. How big are they? I understand wanting to remove them but damn, super cool anon.

>>82319857
it wasnt that deep so i was confused why they lasted so long

>>82319893
>Especially if they're arranged nicely or made into a design
YES id love to carve into someones skin and they do the same leave a bite mark too
>>82319896
probably went past the epidermis ouch

>>82319890
bitch I dont know u

>>82319843
I dont want you to be a slut (unless you want to be ofc) i genuinly just want to see you be happy. And if taking a knife to your skin is the path to that then what kind of boyfriend would i be if i didnt ?

That is of course under the assumption we talk about it first and at least have a safeword. And that you'd do the same for me if i wanted you to be a dommy mommy sometimes too. Same way id expect you to sit binge my favorite shows with me

Thats just what i think relationships should be. We should want to make each other happy and perform wish fullfilment for each other

>>82319890
>a 16 e cup tiny waist loli asian gf?
yes because that's realistic. just walk around in tokyo or seoul and they're right there.

>>82319893
i think 4 inches

>>82319702 (OP)
>talks about the most superficial cringe shit
>>all men do is lie!!!

>>82319917
arguement closed dni anymore jeet
>>82319923
cus they do they larp their way into getting girls men lack originality
>>82319906
sounds like any other relationship

>>82319890
yes but not anymore. im happy now

>>82319928
>sounds like any other relationship.

A dynamic doesnt make a relationship unique. The people in it make a relationship unique.

But its fine if you dont see it the same way as me, my gf and i make it work. And i hope you find who you're looking for

Cutting doesn't do anything for me. I also have no interest in committing suicide.

However, a girl who wants to mutual suicide is highly appealing to me. Reason being, I need a girl who is that level of attached to me. Anything less than that and I don't see the point of the relationship.

>>82319972
> i want a mentally ill suicidal bpd demon who calls me daddy and sucks my dick

>>82319702 (OP)
>Blood kink
that is super hot
>Oh you want me to cut you ?
also super hot
>you want to kill yourself with someone?
no thankies

>Ive just accepted the fact social isolation and people online are fake and that Im doomed to die alone
nah u just love normies who are at your looks level and sociable and who play you well. i think you like getting played and have your heart broken and stuff. girls like being treated like this

also you're much more emotionally and socially developed than i am, as im a mentally stunted and regressed reclusive

>>82319987
Are you OP? And no.

A more tame version of what I want can be rephrased as I want a girl who loves me as much as a dog loves me.

>>82319995
shut the fuck up apecel moid with the muh chad retardery

>>82319901
>bite mark too
Bite until it bleeds and maybe you can leave a scar, your teeth on their flesh forever.
>>82319922
Oh wow, very big. That's super hot I am distraught that you're removing it.

>>82320006
I dont see the appeal in it but what do you like about scars

>>82320042
It's hard to say. I find them aesthetically pleasing, I like the range of colors they can be and the textures they can have. There's also a sense of history to them, usually a memory of some unhappy time, but they can be a keepsake as well. I appreciate the externalization too, I'm deeply internal and all my self harm is invisible - I'm envious of people who can express themselves. I think scars are just very romantic and despite being a shell of a person I have a weak spot for that sort of thing.
There's a sexual component too and that's even less explainable; I have no idea why scars or blood turn me on but they do. If I had to guess I would say that my childhood was deeply unpleasant and it led me to take shelter in darker fantasies and as I went into sexual maturity that transformed into less than normal sexual interests.

>>82320105
never thought about it that way. Its just annoying to where longer clothes or bandages when i go outside. didnt know there where people that liked them. do you like having scars or doesnt it work like that?

>>82319928
>men lack originality
>whines about the same shit
you can find a guy who would both make you his slut and love you at the same time (love matters more ofc) but youd rather chase the same dudes every other woman wants

>>82319702 (OP)
what's your discord and are you from EST America?

>>82320153
Yeah I can see how it would be annoying. I don't like being noticed at all so I would be unhappy if I had scars visible when I was dressed too. I have some scars on my upper thigh but they're small and faded. I trace them with my finger sometimes and remember when I made them but they don't really do anything for me otherwise. I was always more of a biter than a cutter and biting just leaves bruises.

>>82319702 (OP)
Want me to grab the "generic bullshit that people do when arguing dishonestly" checklist?

>>82320172
> you can find a guy who would
keep making up the same imaginary scenarios without using any logic because id for sure chase for normie dudes because they browse 4chan ! well done anon youre einstein
>>82320175
europe

>>82320192
i quited cutting some years ago but it was addictive so i have been back for like a week now.

>>82320208
how old are you. Would you edate me?

>>82319702 (OP)
>> Oh you want me to cut you ?
i like this though and i carved my name into my ex
what is it that you're looking for, otherwise

>>82320243
Did something happen to bring you back to it or did you just miss it? I know what you mean though, I've been biting again lately after a hiatus. Where do you usually cut?

>>82320208
>europe
what country? Are you a balkanoid

>>82320265
a combination of thing happened just some mental things. usually my arm and my thighs. what do you bite?

>>82320332
Same, sometimes it's just hard to be present. I usually bite my hands. I get a few knuckles in my mouth and clamp down until I can feel the bones grinding and then just hold it like that. Leaves a nice impression but it doesn't last long enough for anyone to ever see it. Do you cut deep or just do little ones usually? When I cut I was doing little ones that I would rub at all day to keep open, liked the burning sensation when sweat would get in them.

>>82320254
19 and no
>>82320273
?? what

>>82320382
You're complaining about not being able to have a relationship or a bond but you're rejecting my advances. Why are women like this?

>>82320412
>You're complaining about not being able to have a relationship or a bond but you're rejecting my advances. Why are women like this?
are you a fucking retard or were you dropped as a kid? im not interested in ur coomer ass and ive said ive rejected men irl too stay mad moid

>>82320374
i have both little and deeper ones but it depend on the location. i also bite my mouth cheeks for some reason those scars will never leave i tried everything. what made you stop cutting?

>>82319702 (OP)
date an autist like me, i say what i mean but also i only want to date a virgin girl since im a virgin too

>>82320491
im a virgin myself but where does this thread say its a boyfriend application? if youre not a doomer suicidal blood kinky boy eff off spaz

>>82320460
I bite my cheeks all the time too but it's more a nervous thing, it doesn't even hurt. I can feel scars in my mouth but I've never looked at them now that I think about it.
I was cutting during a really bad period of time in my life and when that ended I just stopped. Cutting was just never really my thing I guess. Teeth on my flesh feels better to me than steel and all my self harm is for self-soothing. I almost cut recently in a weird moment of impulsivity but the knife I picked up was dull so it didn't break the skin and the moment only lasted a few seconds before I was back. Do you plan out your cuts or is it an automatic/impulsive sort of thing for you?

>>82319702 (OP)
Cutting is the gayest way to attentionwhore ever and of course it is popular here because this board is full of gay faggots

>>82320541
you ask to get pegged shut up lil faggy

>>82320522
bitting hurts less but sometimes i taste a bit of blood so i have to drink water then. cutting is not really something i plan. its just a feeling i get. kind of have that feeling now :(

>>82320573
I never bleed from cheek biting but sometimes I bite my tongue and taste blood. I like the taste though so I just kind of roll with it.
I'm sorry anon, what's on your mind? Maybe if you talk about it you'll feel better.

>>82320441
>coomer ass
You're literally whining that nobody has your fetishes and u want to get off with guys. the call is coming from inside the house

>>82320595
liking blood for the aspect of mixing makes me a coomer now? fetishes dont always involve fucking and youre in ur 30s whining about being rejected by a 19 yr old u met 2 minutes ago just rope atp + ur illiterate

>>82320589
it tastes like metallic. i dont know how to describe it but just a lot of stress

>>82320622
ur just some retarded zoomette who wants 'I'm not like those other girls' attention by doing suicideplay stuff. don't lie

Yeah I am like that, either I despise you and thus can indulge in your depraved degradation shit naturally or I like you and I can't do it without coming off as cringe and forced. It sucks and has ruined a few relationships but I can't help it

>>82320635
>ur just some retarded zoomette who wants 'I'm not like those other girls' attention by doing suicideplay stuff. don't lie
yet youre attracted to that thats why you asked me to date you LMAOO i never claimed to not be like the other girls keep coping

>>82320625
Yeah I really like that flavor.
Stress is hard to deal with. I always dissociate under stress. Can you get away from it at all? It's ok to take a break from things sometimes and just take a nap or do whatever you like doing. I don't mind if you want to vent anon.

>>82320658
the flavor stays long its not that nice. sadly i cant take a break from it but its okay. whats it like to dissociate never understood it?

>>82320509
i am that, wanna have blood vials of eachothers blood?

>>82320648
ur a schizo. u probably wish I'd post my discord tho so you could spam it with alts and have retard breakdowns constantly

>>82320706
blood vial necklaces? sounds hot would same with leaving love bites and scars

>>82320648
>I'm lonely
>want to date
>no, kys moid
Maybe the problem is internal, not external. Have you considered self reflecting instead of attention farming on an internet forum?

>>82320698
It does tend to linger.
I hope you feel better soon at least. Dissociation is like watching your body do things. Like you're in your head looking out at the world but you're not in charge of anything. It's kind of nice unless you're trying to do things because your thoughts get muddled and your body seems slow, like moving underwater.

>>82320728
where does it say im lonely hmmmmm

>>82320746
i think i had that before. its nice when everything around you feels intense

>>82320771
Yeah you probably have, I think most people experience it from time to time because it's just a normal defense mechanism when you're really stressed. I get it too often so it's probably maladaptive for me, but I like feeling kind of floaty so I don't know.

>>82320805
do you do some other things to manage stress in life ?

>>82320753
You struggle with bonding and getting in a relationship, but you're not lonely? If you don't care about being alone then who gives a fuck? That's build into your premise you dumb tramp

>>82320832
hey retard if you had some coprehension skills youll figure this thread is a rant about retard moids larping for female approval and not a dating application . imagine being that much of a loser to date off of 4chan

>>82320825
I work out, I try to force myself to do my hobbies because they calm me down a little. I've noticed that I deal with stress better when I'm eating healthy so I try to do that too. I drink skullcap tea or chamomile when I'm really stressed, that helps a lot. I self isolate when it gets bad too which can be really helpful, but I'm a massive introvert so that's not universal. I used to meditation too but I just kind of stopped for whatever reason. What about you?

>>82320870
You're crying about guys not having your pickme blood fetish

>>82320926
youre crying about not being able to get an e girlfriend

>>82320879
going on walks helps and cooking but sometimes i go for cutting. im also a introvert but i force my self to talk because communication with others is important.

>>82320974
I'm kind of a shut in so I don't go on walks, but cooking is relaxing. Socializing really depends on a lot for me, sometimes it helps but usually it's just more stress for me. If I go too long without socializing I tend to get worse though so it's a balancing act. What do you like to cook?

>>82320955
when did I complain? I offered. I was actually being nice. youre the one sperging and bleeding everywhere

>>82321007
> i offered
and youre bitching still? sounds like youre the downbad one here

>>82320989
same im not really a outside person but a friend of mine forces me so i have no choice. i like baking bread and making pasta dishes. what about you?

>>82321030
That's a good friend, going outside is healthy. I make pasta dishes sometimes but mostly I make stews or soups. I really like anything with a lot of tomato in it. I've never gotten into baking but I do like homemade bread a lot, especially dipped in garlic infused olive oil.

>>82321090
some times i fill the bread with cheese but usually i use it for dipping.

>>82321011
being masculine like this isnt a good look and it's a turn off. Might be another reason you can't form bonds with men, other than the weird kinks

>>82321130
Oh cheese bread is really good. When I was a kid I had a recipe book with a cheese and ham bread in it and I liked to make that. There's a Georgian bread called Khachapuri that I want to try but I can never convince myself to actually make it even though it looks pretty simple. It's boat shaped and filled with eggs and cheese, it's neat looking.

>>82321165
it looks familiar. it looks like a turkish dish i once saw online but it was filled with meat

>>82319987
Yes. Actually I do. I'm tired of pretending I don't.

>>82321219
Yeah I think that region has a lot of culinary stuff in common. Adding some meat in would be good, it seems like it would be a versatile dish. Do you have a favorite country for food?

>>82319702 (OP)
Why are you into cutting, blood and suicide? What's the appeal?

>>82319702 (OP)
Nobody who is well adjusted enough to have a stable relationship is going to be into those things, only bad people who see you as desperate and easy will even pretend to be into that.

The fundamental problem is your fucked up kinks inherently select for had people. Either give that stuff up or stay suffering.

>>82321253
maybe italy but im vegetarian so i dont really eat meat. what about you?

>>82320726
i fuck with it my pisscord is _squidman_ if ur interested i think we could be cute together

>>82321283
I'd go Italian too desu. Second choice would probably be generic Mediterranean, I really like hummus. I alternate between vegetarian and eating chicken, it's hard to get enough calories and protein without the chicken sometimes.

>>82321325
never tried hummus. it was fun chatting but its night for me so i have to go. take care

>>82321356
It's really good, you should try it. Have a good night anon, it was nice talking to you.

>>82321263
because its hot and dying with someone sounds hotter
>>82321320
asl?

>>82321443
>asl?
26m usa nc

>>82321483
yeah im from europe so it wont work well

>>82321499
In this timeline, planes and oceangoing vessels were never invented