Thread 82321133

>be me
>not you
>grow up watching youtube
>only watch youtube
>barely play vidyas
>barely watch anime
>barely watch movies
>barely listen to music
>barely read books
>have absolutely zero thing in common with normies
>have absolutely zero thing in common with autists
>mfw when my entire formative years have been spent watching slop content
>mfw when I'll forever be boring to anyone I talk to

>>82321133 (OP)
actually that's me, not you, fucking retard

recently ive made an effort to stop watching youtube and watch more shows and movies tho, even if most of them are fucking boring. i think u should too

>>82321187
>even if most of them are fucking boring
Why not just watch good movies?

>>82321197
what movies then

>>82321187
Yes I've made efforts but everyone around me is interested in something different. I've started reading more books for example but everyone is an anime master. And I can't even talk to people who read books because I'm a readlet.
It feels like if I want something in common with fans of something in particular I'd have to spend the next few years of my life consooming that content before actually getting a fren.
Such is life

>>82321208
I don't know you so I can't answer that question. I watched Drowning by Numbers the other night and really enjoyed it, but most people would consider it boring I think. What kind of stuff do you enjoy?

>>82321236
well then start talking to people who don't read and instead like what you like, dumbass

>>82321240
recently ive kinda been on a sci fi binge but idk desu. i like just about anything so long as it's not box office slip or guys quietly talking in dimly lit rooms or ultra corny.

>>82321208
Blood and Bones (2004) with Takeshi Kitano is kino but you'd probably find it boring but I don't care it's kino and nobody actually watched it and it's hard to find

>>82321258
But I can't talk to people who don't read either. I basically need to do my homework before talking to anyone.
And I talk to people, from all walks of life. But I never have anything in common with them so I just end up all alone. As always (many such cases even)

how about you stop basing your personality around external things like media. anyone who's able to sit with their own thoughts is 100 times more interesting than someone just echoing the world's noise.

>>82321297
that's wrong and youre stupid

>>82321284
yeah i haven't looked it up but i know ill probably find it boring. will check it out

>>82321310
i couldn't give less of a fuck about being interesting i want people to like me because i am a human. not re you are one.

>>82321310
Well people seem to avoid everytime they see they have very little in common with me.
I remember a girl being all giddy telling me about this or that and then never speaking to me ever again when she realized I just wasn't in on it.
People nowadays only talk about that. External stuff

>>82321331
fucking facts, everyone only wants to talk about goyslop and if you dont watch any, over for you

>>82321133 (OP)
who do u watch on youtube?

>>82321339
Thank you for your support anon-bro

>>82321343
Right now Synthetic Man but he's been acting like a complete lolcow on stream for a few months so he's practically unwatchable. And also his brother Lord Frogmire but his videos are kinda slop and his streams are only funny when he doesn't play boring games (never).
And that's about it. I've stopped watching all the rest.
Good luck trying to talk to a normie with this shit t b h

I used to be like this, but it was because I was depressed. Fixed that and now I'm back to playing vidya and reading.

>>82321274
Off the top of my head and in no particular order, you've probably seen some of these before:
>Videodrome
>Possessor
>TerrorVision
>Blade Runner
>Alien (the first four)
>The Fifth Element
>Event Horizon
>Children of Men (not really sci fi)
>Lifeforce
>The Andromeda Strain
>Jin-Roh: The Wolf Brigade (anime)
>Coherence
>Annihilation
>Predestination
>The Mist
>Weird Science
I liked all those, I don't watch a lot of sci fi desu so that's mostly horror sci fi I think but whatever

>>82321384
Good job getting out of here. I've avoided being depressed for most of my life so it's just a case of my parents giving me internet access too early and me just sticking to the same thing because doing anything else would require me to force myself to enjoy it at the beginning, and force myself to stick with it. At the end I always come back to either youtube or this board. Though I do try to consoom other stuff, and succeed, slowly

>>82321390
are all those science fiction? u didn't have to make em all science fiction. still writing them down

and they BETTER be good

>>82321133 (OP)
desu i blame this on my adhd tard brain that can't seriously focus on anything for an hour or two. need.slop.

>>82321476
I don't remember the sentence. I have brain fog and forget everything. But anyway it's like the snake eating its own tail, it's a self... perpetuating cycle! I remembered thank you very much.
Anyway you get it
And yeah, you'd think most people would be the same nowadays but no everyone watches anime or plays vidyas

>>82321465
I dunno man you said scifi and I went with it. My favorite on the list is TerrorVision but it's a silly movie. I think The Andromeda Strain is objectively the best movie on there though. If you want something way outside of the norm and not sci fi, check out The Baby of Macon - it's one of the most beautifully shot movies I've ever seen.

>>82321496
well, people seek comfort and escapism in this boringly hard times.
sadly we are the misfits that aren't capable of doing escapism as wel as they do.

>>82321542
Yeah, can't even do that right

>>82321560
Really sucks being an ADHDtard huh. I really hope they find a cure for that and being a sperg. I just wanna be normal lmao

>>82321679
Well there's this classic post (that is way too wordy) talking about how to 'deprogram' but I never tried because laziness + I keep forgetting it exists

>>82321771
Can already tell it's too many words for me to read. Plus I've already d to detox from social media (mostly YouTube) and it's not done much.

>>82321841
Well iirc correctly this post basically tells you to cut off anything that could tickle your dopamine receptors (music and frens included) for 7 days. But yes, I would imagine that fixing something that's been basically ingrained inside our brains since a very young age would take years at least

>>82321876
Also I think realistically people who have functioning prefrontal cortexes don't need this like we do case we're tards. Normal people just do.

I try to read books and watch movies and TV shows and I really enjoy them when I do it but most of the day and most days I'm just watching YouTube. I also need to delete X.

>>82321133 (OP)
American, but when i was a kid i would watch all those shitty british commentary channels and to this day there's still some words that i say slightly british

>>82321899
That's true but when your ways are actively making more tarded I think it's time to try to get a bit more normal so you stop self-destructing. I try, slowly. And maybe I'll try the picrel's thing and see where it leads me and if it doesn't work well shit I'll try to find something else. And then probably go back to my old ways because I'm retarded

>>82321922
Jewtube really has us hostage at this point. Though I did find that my envy for it drastically decreased when I was in vacation and doing something else over a long period of time.

>>82321948
ESL, and my accent is half american half bri'ish because of it

>>82321980
I'm already watching YouTube 80% less than I used to and honestly I've yet to transform to a megamagical gigachad.

>>82321948
bro, im french and i speak english with anatie american accent since i listen to so much youtube

>>82321998
I think there's quite a difference between being a megamagical gigachad and being slightly retarded on the long run

>>82322023
it's honestly made me have to face myself more since i don't have as much 25/7 distractions but that person's just a meek virgin

>>82322053
Well that's something at least. It's probably gonna be the same for me. But I was also thinking of writing down every one of my thoughts too and being more opinionated so I could actually say something interesting when I run out of things to say about media but I would assume people would just start running if I start going on a random rant and I would go back to my old ways

>>82322118
dam bro u kinda just like me. i thought of exactly the same thing once.

about the opinion thing, id say it'll come on its own after u watch enough movies and shows. kinda did for me. after all you can't artificially recreate the experience of having an opinion, gotta actually have one.

otherwise tho conversatonally we're pretty retarded and im not sure there's much that can change that. my best advice is to just talk, force yourself into conversations, even if u fail all the time. u might get 1% better like i did.

>>82322199
>dam bro u kinda just like me. i thought of exactly the same thing once.
So call free thinkers come here only to end up all thinking like one another. Many such cases

>about the opinion thing, id say it'll come on its own after u watch enough movies and shows. kinda did for me. after all you can't artificially recreate the experience of having an opinion, gotta actually have one.
I see, I understand

>otherwise tho conversatonally we're pretty retarded and im not sure there's much that can change that. my best advice is to just talk, force yourself into conversations, even if u fail all the time. u might get 1% better like i did.
Yeah I suppose you're right. I talk to random people online and my ability to do stupid small talk nobody cares about has improved, though I think I still suck at doing anything else. And in real life I'd be much slower at it too, so I need to work on that.
Too bad about my speech impediment that gives me -100 on charisma but hopefully it gets better as I talk to more people. But thanks for the advice, very kind!

>>82322282
hey. there's a reason we both ended on this hell of a site.

no problem, im mostly giving this advice for you because it helps me too.

the best advice i can probably give you as a fellow adhd sperg, we will never be like normal people so better lower your expectations. i know yours just as mine are sky high, because you're comparing yourself to people who aren't retarded. gotta still take an active part in your life ofc.

also you should look into anti-epileptic medications like topomax or gabapentin. they work on the biological processes of autism and makes your brain more normal. im currently trying to obtain topomax.

makes you more social and feel more emotions, less sensory sensitivity, they say.

>>82322448
>the best advice i can probably give you as a fellow adhd sperg, we will never be like normal people so better lower your expectations. i know yours just as mine are sky high, because you're comparing yourself to people who aren't retarded. gotta still take an active part in your life ofc.
Yes I know, but it's exactly because of that I try to aim for even higher lol. Because I tell myself that if I make it, I'll inspire BILLIONS (maybe not that much). Shoot for the moon, aim for the stars (or was that the other way around?). But yeah, on a day to day basis I definitely lower my expectations. Honestly just getting a wife and kids would be enough all things considered, I'd die happy.

>also you should look into anti-epileptic medications like topomax or gabapentin. they work on the biological processes of autism and makes your brain more normal. im currently trying to obtain topomax.
Thanks for the rec but I'm extremely stubborn and want to succeed without any jewpill. I like stories about going against impossible odds and if not winning, surviving

>>82321133 (OP)
well at least you got to post a blade runner snowy doomer gif

>>82322623
True. I haven't watched the movie for nothing after all

>>82321133 (OP)
wow zoomers really just do nothing all day. How tragic

>>82321133 (OP)
same
i don't know why my parents let this happen lel

>>82321133 (OP)
If you disconnect you can backlog it. I had a couple months without Internet and I defaulted back to reading and watching shows again. I even played a couple console roms.
Honestly if I was your age I can't say for sure I wouldn't have done the same.

>>82321133 (OP)
Yeah that was my entire childhood.

>>82321133 (OP)
At least you aren't me.

I spent my entire formative years on fucking ROBLOX of all things. I wanted to learn how to draw but i never did because i played fucking roblox from age 5 to 16. I never fucking did anything i wanted to because i was so addicted to that stupid game.

God i'm so retarded...