Thread 82327398

hey anon, are you okay? you don't always have to keep everything in you know. you're doing a great job this week! what have you been listening to recently?

>>82327398 (OP)
>what have you been listening to recently?
nothing but radiohead, get them out of my head

>>82327624
i like em a lot too, though i guess they're not the best when it comes at making you feel any better...

I'm not okay actually I HATE everyone you included

>>82327398 (OP)
I'm alright, just a bit tired

>>82327398 (OP)
Why haven't you posted in the TIE threads in so long, Taonon?

>>82327398 (OP)
Hey man, how's it going?
>what have you been listening to recently?
Found this shit recently, pretty cool stuff - it's from one of those "All Tomorrows" edit
https://youtu.be/KIjoqpG4B9w?si=AWLTcLQHkELwlq1A
>hey anon, are you okay?
I just went down memory lane, holy shit man whatever happened to that guy eh? I knew I've always been a depressed fuck but back then I overcompensated by being so quirky and bubbly
blegh

Genuinely from the bottom of my heart, if I somehow met myself from 10 years back I'd bully him and tell him to grow a spine

>>82328372
that's not very nice
>>82328396
i don't really have anything to say and most of the people that i liked talking with are gone
>>82328464
>Hey man, how's it going?
it's uh, going!
>song
that is certainly an unique sound. never heard anything quite like that before... i don't dislike it though.
>All Tomorrows
you mean the book about human evolutions?
>but back then I overcompensated by being so quirky and bubbly
i don't think that's bad honestly... sure you might find it cringe, but it's still better than being depressed all the time i guess.
>I'd bully him and tell him to grow a spine
are you actually sure that wouldn't have just made everything worse?

>>82328376
is it the kind of tired that sleep won't fix?
>>82328372
that's not very nice
>>82328396
i don't really have anything to say and most of the people that i liked talking with are gone
>>82328464
>Hey man, how's it going?
it's uh, going!
>song
that is certainly an unique sound. never heard anything quite like that before... i don't dislike it though.
>All Tomorrows
you mean the book about human evolutions?
>but back then I overcompensated by being so quirky and bubbly
i don't think that's bad honestly... sure you might find it cringe, but it's still better than being depressed all the time i guess.
>I'd bully him and tell him to grow a spine
are you actually sure that wouldn't have just made everything worse?

>>82328582
Dang... well I'm glad you still make your own threads, at least. For some reason it comforts me to lurk in them. Pls don't ever stop...

>>82327398 (OP)
Hi Hu Tao Anon, I'm not doing great but I'm doing well enough to get through the next week. I don't really feel like doing anything anymore other than sleep but I have to go to work soon.
>what have you been listening to recently?
I've been listening to some piano covers of songs from games (mainly project moon). Like this https://youtu.be/BeeyN3qXAcc?si=QoEGKwb3GcawCqn_
>>82328464
Nice song btw

>>82327398 (OP)
For once I woke up with joy in my heart, i'm kinda happy about that yknow altough I cannot seem to explain it as of now, doesn't matter since i'll be back in a defeatist mindset very soon but in the meantime I want to chill in my body and soul before I go back into the loops, might be able to use my thoughts of currently as anchor for the time where I lost myself again, won't be able to but I can dream I guess

>>82328617
hi!
>I'm doing well enough to get through the next week
hmm, that's fine. we dont always need to do our best, just doing enough is okay too! have a good day at work.
>song
oh that's nice! i love piano. i also played lobotomy corporation for a while some time ago, i really enjoyed it. it's really hard though. and uh, kinda disturbing at times.
>>82328640
>I woke up with joy in my heart
that's awesome anone! let's hope this feeling lasts.
>since i'll be back in a defeatist mindset
you thinking that means you're already back in it... cmon, try to be a bit more hopeful. fake it till you make it
nonetheless i hope you can enjoy this moment of joy even if it's brief. you could get something nice to eat and be mega comfy for the rest of the day. might help you remember this nice time you're having

>>82328591
>it's uh, going!
Come on man, you always ask about everyone else, now I'm asking you
It's going, but is it going somewhere you want?
>you mean the book about human evolutions?
yeah, someone made an edit with one of it's animation and they used this song, don't really care bout the book but the song's something else
>i don't think that's bad honestly... sure you might find it cringe, but it's still better than being depressed all the time i guess
I'm not depressed, I'm just feeling what everyone else is feeling, and boy, everyone's feeling like shit nowadays
>are you actually sure that wouldn't have just made everything worse?
Who's to say? Maybe I'd have fared better if I found out way earlier

>>82327398 (OP)
>hey anon, are you okay?
naw lmao, I've been closing myself off and acting much more avoidant due to work-related stress. shit's messing with my creativity too so all of my art has been coming out subpar lately.
>what have you been listening to recently?
uhhh lots of Fat Jon, Burial, and other artists connected to the Hyperdub label.

>>82328741
>you thinking that means you're already back in it... cmon, try to be a bit more hopeful. fake it till you make it
I kinda get what you're saying but it really isn't like that, I just know how my feelings loop into each other or whatever but yeah it's a comfy day, might eat something good for myself or something, I appreciate the attention anon

>>82328832
>is it going somewhere you want?
absolutely not, probably in the opposite way. it's rough.
>the song's something else
i see, and yeah that's true. do you listen to songs like that one often? i quite liked the book honestly
>everyone's feeling like shit nowadays
well yeah, so wouldn't being bubbly be better still?
>Maybe I'd have fared better if I found out way earlier
i'm not sure why you think it's such a bad thing to be that way. also anon, bullying doesn't always result in someone "growing a spine", more often than not it just creates even more insecurities and worsens everything. i know you were just saying bullying for the sake of it but still, try to appreciate yourself a bit more
>>82328839
>I've been closing myself off and acting much more avoidant
i see, i think it's fine to isolate for a while if you need to take your mind off everything. still if you do don't just disappear. what's stressing you so much about work? is it just awful? or something specific?
>my art has been coming out subpar lately
aw that sucks. if you wanna share some of it i'd love to take a look still! but i get it if you dont wanna. i hope you can get your creativity back soon anon
>Fat Jon
do you like nujabes?
>>82328905
>I just know how my feelings loop into each other
i see, keep that negative loop at bay as long as you can then! what are you thinking of getting to eat?

>>82328945
>what are you thinking of getting to eat?
prolly some grilled fish, it's my favorite food anon

>>82328945
I listen to a lot of stuff
Here's another one for ya
https://youtu.be/lZtpv53yaPE?si=PG_xJhPUBIhjPEM1
>well yeah, so wouldn't being bubbly be better still?
Up to a certain point, sure
But you best keep your guard up nowadays
>appreciate yourself a bit more
In a way, I'm grateful I turned out the way I am now
Like, it was meant to be that I was such a cringey fuck back then because now I know better and I can act better

It's honestly kinda fucked, but I'm grateful for all the things that happened to me that made me turn out this way

>>82328945
>still if you do don't just disappear
I'm finding it hard to maintain that balance of wanting a break and to uphold my social expectations, to the point some people have already started to hold contempt, including those who know my work situation.
>what's stressing you so much about work?
it's mostly that I've been working alot more often lately, but still barely making table scraps from it. because of this I've been alot shorter on time and morale, which only kind of makes more of a negative feedback loop.
>if you wanna share some of it i'd love to take a look
desu it's mostly music I've been working on as of late, as well as a few one-shot stories I've been writing. I'd send some of both but they're in a pretty rough and unfinished state at the moment. if I can figure out how to send the sound files I can send one of my more finished songs though.
>do you like nujabes?
Nujabes is indesputably great, especially when he works together with other artists.

>>82329030
>prolly some grilled fish
that is indeed yummy! don't remember the last time i had it... do you grill it yourself?
>>82329084
>song
gotta say the title is rather unique... not something i'd listen to usually. how do you even find these songs? they seem pretty niche
>But you best keep your guard up nowadays
i see your point yeah, i just think it's rather sad that we have to do that in the first place. don't completely kill off your bubbly part anon.
>I'm grateful I turned out the way I am now
that's nice! i think, no matter what everyone goes through, in the end it's what makes us who we are, in the bad or in the good. so we just need to make peace with it
>>82329103
>maintain that balance of wanting a break and to uphold my social expectations
i know how hard it can be anon, i know...
>to the point some people have already started to hold contempt
hm, i see. though if they know your situation i don't really get why they'd feel that way. are you sure you're not overthinking it, and perhaps they don't have any problems with you?
>I've been working alot more often lately
that's rarely good... is your boss putting more work on you without your consent? you could try to do the bare minimum, though i dont know your situation so i can't help. ganbare anon, perhaps you'll be done with all this stuff soon!
>but they're in a pretty rough and unfinished state at the moment
that's okay, if you see one of my threads in the future don't be shy and post them there! i'll be happy to listen or read.
>Nujabes is indesputably great
hm i agree! i wanted to learn aruarian dance on the guitar but it seems rather difficult. and i get easily distracted when things take long to do...

>>82327398 (OP)
I'm running of 9 hours of sleep this week and 40 minutes today and I don't feel tired HuTao anon. I'm feeling invincible if you get me

>>82327398 (OP)
>what have you been listening to recently?
extreme aggression - kreator
revenge - wargasm
violent solutions - sacred reich
gone shooting - evildead
bodies on bodies - vio-lence

>>82329271
>how do you even find these songs?
I'd like to think they find me, I'm a pretty weird guy overall and I listen to everything
Here's a Buddhist chant that I'm hooked on for some reason
https://youtu.be/RAcE8U8SWlo?si=Ufg-EqVea29zRS1t
>don't completely kill off your bubbly part anon.
It's still there, it's just less bright now
I still see the beauty in life, I'm still amazed at all the things around me, the achievements of humanity or the wonders of nature
But it's less of "HOLY SHIT THATS SO COOL!" and more "cool"
>so we just need to make peace with it
one of the "good" things was that I had/have depression so I don't really remember all the cringey shit I did
Just had to look back on those old photos/memories and open the floodgates haha

>>82329307
a-are you sure youre fine anon?! you're not going to faint are you?
>I'm feeling invincible if you get me
just how much caffeine have you ingested?
>>82329330
i do like kreator, haven't heard the other ones before now but i like them. do you ever listen to less violent sounding songs?
>>82329334
>I'd like to think they find me
that's a better way to see it i agree!
>buddhist chant
are you a buddhist too anon?
>But it's less of "HOLY SHIT THATS SO COOL!" and more "cool"
hm, maybe you've simply grown up anon... everything seems more boring as you age i think. which is pretty sad. it's nice that you can still see the good things despite everything though, not everyone is able to. namely me most of the time.
>I don't really remember all the cringey shit I did
perhaps it's your brain suppressing the bad memories, i also can't remember most of my teens and even less before. i always thought i simply have a bad memory (and that's probably one of the reasons) but there's definitely more than just that.
>old photos/memories and open the floodgates haha
reminiscing can be a good thing every once in a while, even if hurts sometimes. i think it's needed to make peace with the past

>>82329496
>are you a buddhist too anon?
Nah, I'm just big into it but I never really liked labels
Buddhist-leaning I guess?
>too
I KNEW IT, YOU'RE A CHINDO

>everything seems more boring as you age i think
Not really, I mean the admiration is still there and I appreciate things more now but it's like, I'm careful not to show too much enthusiasm about it, especially so in front of other folks

>>82329496
Not much at all just a tea

>>82327398 (OP)
>hey anon
Hai anon! How are you?
>are you okay?
Yeah, intrusive thoughts and regular mental stuff, but handlable. I got my day and night flipped and missed my grandma's 70th birthday party today :(
>you don't always have to keep everything in you know
Ditto. I'm lucky I have a gf to vent to. Though she is venting way more than me recently, since she's recovering from a surgery and needs constant care (I'm not at her place rn tho).
>you're doing a great job this week!
You know what? I am :p
>what have you been listening to recently?
The Binding of Isaac OST which is pretty metal-
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLFU0oaAKwilyIkysgE3WE3zhhIso6vApD&feature=shared

>>82329534
>I never really liked labels
neither do i desu
>I KNEW IT, YOU'RE A CHINDO
...whats a chindo? i dont identify with any religion personally, the "too" was cause of the buddhists in the video
>>82329534
>I'm careful not to show too much enthusiasm about it
i dont really get it then, what's so bad about being excited about things? god knows i wish i could be excited about something. everything to me seems incredibly boring.
>>82329561
that tea must have something in it if you manage to be alive with only 9 hours of sleep in a week anon... still i think you deserve praise for enduring that much. so, good job anon!
>>82329687
>Hai anon! How are you?
hello! i am feeling really unstable. thank you for asking though.
>intrusive thoughts and regular mental stuff
those never go away do they...
>and missed my grandma's 70th birthday party
aw, that sucks anone. be sure to apologize to her and get her something nice if you can! have you ever tried origami? you could make her an origami flower!
>recovering from a surgery
hope they get better soon then anon
>The Binding of Isaac
honestly i never played that game despite it being so popular. i do like the soundtrack though