there is no one that cares about my well being and im expected to use the lack of genuine affection and knows what it feels like to be validated and somehow learn self compassion through the many times ive been humiliated, degraded, and casted aside like worthless trash when im no longer useful.
people lure me in with making me feel wanted, then slowly chip away at the manipulative mask until it becomes a dry husk of them knowing ill do something for them. Then betray me in the most crude way.
im expected to provide, protect, and initiate and be offered nothing in return. and people wonder why im indifferent to the world around me.
I always have appear stoic in someway despite being a mess, or use elegant writing to describe my emotions opposed to having a mental break down and get demonized for it. and yet im supposed to believe "not all women are like that."
I find it hard to be convinced by people that say you are wrong without actually proving you are wrong. they just reaffirm your observation constantly and expect you not to point out the patterns. its all so tiring.
people lure me in with making me feel wanted, then slowly chip away at the manipulative mask until it becomes a dry husk of them knowing ill do something for them. Then betray me in the most crude way.
im expected to provide, protect, and initiate and be offered nothing in return. and people wonder why im indifferent to the world around me.
I always have appear stoic in someway despite being a mess, or use elegant writing to describe my emotions opposed to having a mental break down and get demonized for it. and yet im supposed to believe "not all women are like that."
I find it hard to be convinced by people that say you are wrong without actually proving you are wrong. they just reaffirm your observation constantly and expect you not to point out the patterns. its all so tiring.
