Thread 82391974

I've thought about making this thread for a while, but was unsure what it would accomplish, beyond being fodder for my ego. I want to avoid that, but I've also come to understand that perhaps the point of all this is to share my testimony, both here and irl when appropriate.

I feel as though I have been blessed by the Lord in real and concrete ways. I do not understand why, fully, but I think it is for the sake of my using these gifts for His will. I don't know how else to continue other than to dive right into what I mean. I want to emphasize that though I will be saying many positive things about myself and my life, I do not intend to boast, for by no means am I deserving of these things by my own merit, but rather (if I am correct), only by the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ.

For context, I have always been intellectually gifted. My parents are ordinary, flawed people, though they have immense love and raised my brother and I to know God, but the one thing they are not (nor is my brother) are intellectuals. Neither went to college, my dad works with his hands, my mom is a stay-at-home Mom, etc. Though, from a young age, I was able to somewhat easily shatter records at my elementary school (for example, in the Accelerated Reading program), often by several times over. Most of the people I've met my age have said that I'm the smartest person they know, though I have avoided a 'nerd' persona since roughly High School. I have pursued things like boxing to balance out my life, to that end, but now I'm rambling.

I bring this up both as an example of what I mean and also as a possible explanation, to ground myself: I have considered that maybe the examples I am about to share below are more like 'luck + intelligence' and nothing more. Yet, I am skeptical about this explanation as well, as there is no clear way that anyone's intelligence could bring them about.
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>>82391974 (OP)
Without further ado, the examples, listed concretely:
>Out of college, I was crushed by student debt and I took a chance quitting a county job to try and go after something better. I turned to prayer just as my credit card was maxing out and my bank account was hitting 0 and I got a callback and then accepted for a tech job way above my experience grade, paying 6 figures.
>Also right out of college, I prayed to meet the right woman, as I had expected to in college and hadn't. I'm not the type to go to a bar, but that month I was invited out to a bar with friends, only the second time I'd ever been there. There I met someone who I thought about the week before and hadn't seen in 4 years, and I asked her out the next day. It had only been the second time she'd ever been to the bar as well, invited by her cousins. We are still together, to be engaged soon, and she is the perfect woman for me; even her 'flaws' draw out pretty much exactly what I've always struggled with and need to improve upon. Our friends see us as a couple to look up to, etc.
>When I was young, it would be many things. A random one that comes to mind is that, the one time I forgot to do my homework and the teacher came down the row to check, she skipped me (didn't even look at my book) for no apparent reason.
>Also when I was young, I remember being on the bus going home from school after a rough day, with my iPod earbuds in, thinking "If God were listening he'd show me," and then the next song that played seconds later was the Hallelujah Chorus.
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>>82391980
>This is a more crazy/schizo one, but I swear swear swear there was a time when I was really young that I was looking out the window and thought, "There's about to be a fire drill," (though not in words explicitly, more the feeling) and then the fire alarm went off. I know it wasn't a dream because I've always been shocked at how it can be possible even as a little kid, and remember remembering it, etc.
>Things I do online randomly blow up. I have a bunch of stories like this that are always fun, if ego-feeding, to talk about with my friends, like how I made a clan that randomly became the largest in the game we all played overnight, how I became a (somewhat retired) niche microcelebrity for a particular game to the point of getting news articles written about a mod I made, I was able to become the best player in the world at a community gamemode on another game, etc.
>In high school, before senior year, I had a crush that I wanted closure on (we were leaving for college and I was terrified of women so I literally just wanted the opportunity to talk to her normally) so I prayed that our schedules would line up, and then they were literally the same except for mandatory differences like differences in electives
>An assortment of other synchronicities, some of which really seem just impossible, along the lines of looking up something for the first time and then encountering it or something directly related in the world immediately after. I would rule out anything involving friends bringing up something, as I'm aware we might just be hitting similar algorithmic trends, but there have been completely analog occurrences of this.
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>>82391985
I can go into more detail and I likely will ITT, but in short it just has always seemed like someone is looking out for me, basically. I know I've been blessed in terms of my talents, and so forth, but sometimes this seems to go beyond that. I really don't know how to process it. I constantly deny it, explain it away, and at some point I am struck by the feeling that I am being downright ungrateful by doing so, given all of it.

It isn't fair, it isn't fair that my prayers seem to be answered when there are people suffering in the world who need their prayers answered much, much more desperately. It's not something that I can control at all, or anything like that. It doesn't happen on command. But, when I need it most, it just seems like things turn out for the best for me, so long as I align what's best for me with noble, Godly intentions.

I try to give God the glory in all things, that He might use me for some greater purpose, to justify the blessings I've undeservedly been given ... I believe I am drawing closer to Him at least. I have recently been studying and meditating on the morality given by Christ in Matthew 5-7, as it seems that it perfectly answers what so many young people in my generation are longing for. Anyway, I'm not sure why I made this thread, except maybe as a sanity check. Thank you for reading anons, God bless you and peace be with you.

>>82391990
I am like you but instead of having god's favor I have the devil's rage. Seems everywhere I go I get my mind read and it's thrown back at my face to humiliate or cause fear. To top it off I have a voice that speaks to me all day and tells me it's a demon. I also have crazy synchronicity like yours, makes me think I'm given a power of prediction almost, like my thoughts correlate with the world around me. and its scares me.

Oke anon so try that with me and wish for me to have the life that I actually want to live instead of every morning starting with a sigh. Thank you in advance anon.

>>82391974 (OP)
>I feel as though I have been blessed by the Lord in real and concrete ways.
I felt rather similiarly a lot, but despite whatever happens i don't think any evidence could be conclusive so i've shelved the idea.

If you made this thread to make someone jealous you can be happy now, smartass. The sad part is that I don't think that any larper would go that far.

>>82392256
I will pray for you anon! My prayer has no special power or anything, but I hope that God blesses you greatly.
>>82392430
I can relate ... no matter what happens, there is always *some* explanation for it that I can come up with, but even when I am being honest with myself it does sometimes seem improbable that all of these things happened. I've also thought about if there are good counterexamples that I'm not remembering due to a selection effect, but I can't think of any...
>>82392436
It doesn't make me happy at all, anon. I'm trying to figure things out, but I know I have had it easy by comparison. I just have to live up to it, I guess. I hope something unexpectedly nice happens to you this week.

Well, let's call it a bump

Jeeesus fucking Christ, man. Write a book, faggot.

>>82393187
If you don't read everything that OP wrote, your mother is going to die from diabetes

Kinda sounds like narcissism and/or a little bit of schizo? What do you think

>>82393280
I think that he's a good person at least

>>82393248
i didnt read what he wrote and i used ai to summarize it
i dont read wall of text
here is the summary

Getting a sixfigure tech job above their experience when facing student debt and an empty bank account right after praying
Meeting their perfect future fiance at a bar after praying to meet the right woman despite both rarely going to bars
A childhood instance of a teacher skipping them when they forgot homework
Hearing the Hallelujah Chorus on their iPod immediately after wishing God would show them something after a tough day
A premonition of a fire drill going off when they were young
Online endeavors randomly blowing up such as creating a large gaming clan becoming a niche microcelebrity for a game mod and becoming a top player in a community gamemode
Their high school schedule perfectly aligning with a crushs after praying for it
Numerous synchronicities where they look something up and immediately encounter it in the real world

>>82393280
As a kid I was pretty narcissistic, but I realized somewhat suddenly that it was shallow and I was in fact a pretty insecure person. I've since tried to focus on becoming the sort of person that I'd admire if I met him myself.

Do you believe that people possess the capacity to truly change, or are people doomed to regress to their fundamental flaws if they have any?

>>82393368
>Do you believe that people possess the capacity to truly change, or are people doomed to regress to their fundamental flaws if they have any?
Not sure, never did a deep dive on that question, but shallowly I would say yes

I'm similar to you but in the opposite way, so the only way I could make sense of the world was that I was holding it together with my sanity and pulse.
The idea is not new, it's been there ever since I was a kid, I already knew it back then.
Growing up, I just realized more and more that I do have it as bad as I thought.
And the more I try to be normal, the more I learn how dysfunctional I truly am with no end. It just gets deeper and deeper.
I'm an eldritch being of disappointment to my father and my mother is an eldritch being of victimhood.
I'm the eldest. Things, as you grow older, the consequences of the lies and delusions you live starts to manifests.
I genuinely thought I was the anti-Christ at one point.
My durability is all worn out. I'm not the same.
This is about the time I go insane but there's the whole rapture in 23-24 of September, 2025.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NIqm73xsias
One more roll.

>>82393357
Okay, I removed my curse from your mom.

>>82393424
Cont.
I've always known I was odd, I thought I was better than them, I grew up with a lot of entitlement to goodness.
And yes, like you, I don't think there is a person in the world who is more unluckier than me.
Someone born without limbs or something is not the same.
I'm sure you know you are more luckier than a billionaire, don't you?
Same thing. Like a per capita thing? Ratio? People always get the classifications mixed up.

I'm not gonna get into the specifications of how bad I have it, cause that's how bad I have it, I don't indulge in it, it's of no help.
I've always felt like my existence is an eternal stain on reality.
I'm the best Christian apologist in the world (of course that's only because of the predecessors of the field), that's on my resume, I think that did a lot in keeping me sane.
To be the best at something in the world, but like I said, I'm such a fuck up that nobody can know, I cannot be popular.
I'm not just saying this, I confirmed it with Matt Dillahunty, he is the best atheism apologist in the world. He was so defensive to the point of being uncommunicable with, the whole thing didn't last more than 10 minutes.
It's the only thing I enjoy doing, got banned from reddit twice, but what does it matter this late in the game?
I'm just waiting for the rapture now.

>>82391974 (OP)
Anon, we really are so similar, seeing you post that particular picture.
Are you a fan of OPM webcomic?

>>82393410
If it weren't for the example of my father alone I might have said "No" as my reply. He was an alcoholic for my childhood, often leaving for days on end, though he was never violent towards anyone. It seemed like every couple of months he'd have a false turnaround, and then relapse shortly after. One day he hit a woman while drunk and though she lived, he went to prison. Therein he returned to Christ and truly changed. He hasn't had a sip of alcohol since. He is really hard on himself today for not having been there for us when we were kids, and his dynamic with my brother is damaged perhaps permanently as a result, but he stands as my one shining example of someone truly overcoming their strongest vice. He claims he could not have done it without the Lord; who am I to deny it? You might even call it a miracle, given how it doesn't seem to happen otherwise, in the normal course of life and the other people I've met.

Also, he gained a powerful testimony in the process. He became very spiritual in prison, having sort of toyed with it a lot before. He came to lead a weekly Bible study with the other inmates, who were typically in for drug or alcohol related crimes, etc. One day he sees another inmate standing nearby listening to the Bible study, this big brutish guy. My dad swears that he felt in his heart all of a sudden that he should go up to him, and tell him that he knows he's in prison for gun smuggling, and that God loves him and he should join the study group. So my dad did that after the study that day was over and the guy was in disbelief that how he could know that, given that it was a relatively rare crime to be in that county prison for. He joined the Bible study and remained in it at least until my dad was let out. To be clear, to God goes all the glory. I know that if you're unfamiliar with spiritual people this may seem like unthinking or scary zealotry, but I hope you don't confuse brittle iron for the true steel.

Do you want to maim murata?

>>82393424
Which lies and which delusions? You can say, anon. I hope for both our sakes that the Lord comes quickly.
>>82393586
I know I am unworthy to say this given the opposite nature of our circumstances. I struggle to understand the why, the fairness of it even in my case. The best answer I have is the testimony that comes with it. What can I do that others cannot, as a consequence of what has been done to/for me? Only you can contemplate these things for your own sake. Like in the case of my father, there may yet be some miracle that the Lord will work in you.

Apologetics have their use, though with time I have become convinced that their best use is for reassuring other believers first and foremost: for whose heart has ever been touched by apologetic arguments? Perhaps someone has. In regards to Dillahunty, he may be the most difficult to convince of anything, but I admit I find him too easily irritable to be the most formidable challenge to a secure believer (as of right now, that would likely be Alex O'Connor, though it seems the Lord may do a good work in him yet). I have increasingly come to wonder, what is the ideal form of apologetics, and what lies beyond? Did Christ preach apologetics? See then that the greatest argument of all is who you are as a person. In that lies the truth of how to reach the hearts of others, I believe. For there are many things that I don't yet understand, nor should I claim to, and to say "I don't know" at difficult questions is not always shameful, for in this I believe there is humility. The fact will remain, that others may have no choice but to wonder at who you are and how you are that way. I truly believe that God has put this into human psychology to make it so. Peace be with you for your efforts. I am unsure if I find a pre-Second Coming Rapture in scripture, but I will look for you at the Lord's return, friend.

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>>82393667
Yes I am, the WC Garou fight is one of my favorite fights in media. I don't understand how Murata (or ONE depending on his involvement) possibly thought that replacing it with powerscaling slop and time travel was better. Though I don't want to maim him, lol.

>>82393899
He raped a generation, an entire timeline. The duo is like some divine comedy, such polar opposites, the butt of the joke gets to rewrite the joke.

It's nice talking with a fellow Christian like this in this maddening world surrounded by faggoty fag fag fagtheists.

>>82391974 (OP)
>tldr

ywnbaw
nigger
gay and retarded
rope all women
jeet

>>82393999
Out of curiosity, what did you hope to accomplish by spending your time posting this?

>>82393863
The rapture is in about 3 weeks ackshually :B
Sometime between Tuesday and Thursday

>>82394182
With love anon, I was under the impression that Christ said we cannot know when His return will happen, nor even He himself, but the Father only.

>>82394445
"Keep watch, because you do not know the day or the hour." Matthew 25:13

Tuesday to Thursday three weeks from now fits that.

>>82394445
NTA, you're talking to a troll, I will post the pasta in the next post.
But you have to know, He said that to a certain people at a certain time, before he was given all authority, and if you read the verse in full context it's clear He is speaking in relation to the church in the tribulation.
There's going to be more than one rapture, this is the reason why there is the whole pre-trib vs post-trib debate because they don't know this.
There are three harvests.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NPmfFF0ahv4
It also doesn't make sense for Jesus Christ to not know the hour of his own coming when he is the one going to be sent.

Attention Christians and atheists & all non-believers.

It's on the feast of trumpets, Rosh Hashanah, also known as the day or hour no one knows as an idiom, celebrated for two days because of the difficulty of determining the date of the new moon.
Same day as the UN summit where there will be a 7 year peace treaty, Daniel's 2550 days of tribulation exactly till September 15, 2032, Yom Kippur, day of atonement.
This pattern of 2550 days between Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur has never happened before Israel became a nation.
Six times after it did, this time/year will be the 7th.

Luke 2:36-37
>She, being advanced greatly in years, had lived with a husband seven years from her marriage, and she was a widow of about eighty-four years
Psalm 90:10
>The length of our days is seventy years, or eighty, if we are strong.
Israel is now 77 years since it became a nation.
Jacob, who's name was later changed to Israel, after completing the two 7 years promise was 84 years old.
Israel will be 84 on 2032 AD.

2 Peter 3:8
>With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day.
Jesus Christ makes an appearance every two thousands years, also like a day.
From Adam to Abraham, in person, with His glory.
As He rose on the literal third day, Jesus Christ's third coming will also be on the third day, 2032 AD (32 AD when He entered Jerusalem), under both the context of 1 & 2 thousand years being a day.

1 Thessalonians 5:4
>But you, brethren, are not in darkness, so that this Day should overtake you as a thief.
Amos 3:7
>Surely the Lord GOD does nothing, Unless He reveals His secret to His servants the prophets.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W1uk2z7jGdE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ej_WqwAQ2bQ
2 years ago
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jVEK2klr2M8


The timeline has never been perfect until now.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BE-XX0Ey9Xo

To all unbelievers, don't be discouraged, read the parable of the workers in the vineyard.
Crucify yourself & fast.

>>82394570
>you're talking to a troll
"Anyone who says to a brother or sister, 'Raca,' is answerable to the court. And anyone who says, 'You fool!' will be in danger of the fire of hell."
Matthew 5:22b,c

The feasts.

>>82394581
>>82394603
Couldn't hurt to do some fasting, right?

>>82394468
>>82394570
>>82394581
It's not on my heart to hash this out tonight; what's important is that we're ready even if it happens tomorrow. By the grace of God I believe I am. Peace be with you both.

>>82394768
>what's important is that we're ready even if it happens tomorrow
Like I said... Couldn't hurt to do some fasting

>>82394791
Definitely couldn't, thanks anon

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>>82391974 (OP)
I would say you're rather blessed by destiny and fate but there is no way for me to prove that, if your life is one of atleast peace then good for you, I would have a life of peace if I were in your position but yknow, try to enjoy such privileges

>>82395245
Peace be with you, anon.