>>82396422
but if you kill yourself then you'll die before you really come to peace with urself and your life...maybe death is peace for all of us in the end but until you die there is infinite potential to experience the joy of life. That is if you can stick with it and work through your challenges, because we all face them. And of course there's violence of suicide and the damage it does to the people who would lose you. I'm not against suicide religiously or anything, I think it's reasonable for some whose lives are terminal suffering with no recourse... but that's not how your life sounds to me OP. I think you should keep trying, in relationships communication and honesty (not just telling the truth, but BEING your true self) are important otherwise you will fall into a slump of disconnection. You should try being as open with them as you are with us. And really reflect on the kind of life you *could* see yourself being happy living, then try to get yourself there. You should be giving it an honest try until at least your mid-40s AT LEAST, then if shits still mega fucked with no look of hope maybe it's considerable then, but idk personally I find it untenable even in that situation because there is always some hope and there is always some joy to be found even by the most down on their luck people in this world, and that's why so many people choose to stay alive even when their lives are seemingly shit. IDK that's my rant anon I hope something in there was thought provoking or whatever. Gl mate.
