Thread 82396489

Extended isolation is not so good for your sanity. It's gotten really bad lately. I can't stop dreaming even when I'm awake I constantly lapse into these extensive day dreams that take over my awareness. I sleep a lot. I think about 14 or 15 hours a day now. Even when I am awake ill find myself slipping back into imaginary worlds and visuals. Its like the corner of my brain that makes you visualize or imagine is become extremely overactive and I can't shut it off. I find myself occasionally not sure what is real or not anymore. Listening to music was helping me stay grounded for a long time but lately it's so weird it will turn into static, just song after song it's just static blaring or it sounds so off and not right. I thought it's my headphones but then it's like that no matter what. I'm scared a bit. Never experienced anything like this without drugs being involved. Posting on here

Yeah. That happens. I just embraced madness and have a principle of not intervening in the world to avoid getting in trouble for my psychosis

I don't think there is a word of truth you've just decided to share right now. I don't know what that means

>>82396499
Can I ask how old you are? I am close to 30. It's gotten pretty bad to the point that I'm constantly calling out of work. My coworkers have started kind of giving me weird glances or sometimes I think I'm talking to someone and making sense but they just look confused and I'm not sure whatever came out of my mouth was actually coherent at all. I'm thinking I will quit soon and move back home with my family.

>>82396503
It is truthful unfortunately. The music thing is started just 2 nights ago and is the weirdest thing I've experienced. I seriously thought my headphones just broke because it was a song I listen to thousands of times and just was coming out so fucking weird sounding. It was grating because there was something just really "off". Best I can describe is if you have earbuds not plugged all the way in.

>>82396506
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>My coworkers have started kind of giving me weird glances or sometimes I think I'm talking to someone and making sense but they just look confused and I'm not sure whatever came out of my mouth was actually coherent at all
This happens. If you start to ramble you can say wrong things. They just go quiet and stare at you. You probably have depersonalization derealization or early stage psychosis
>I'm thinking I will quit soon and move back home with my family
The less you cope with it the more you regress. Try to hold on to what you can.

Also in general I find it hard to wake up. I've had sleep paralysis constantly my entire life and I think maybe it's related. For a long time I suspected possibly having narcolepsy but I guess that's not it after reading the symptoms. I don't fall asleep randomly necessarily so much as I get extremely drowsy. I often do end up laying down and sleeping during such episodes but it is not the same as like being unable to stay awake. Just difficult to. I don't fall asleep behind the wheel for example. Or at work most of the time although I have a few times. It's an extremely uncomfortable feeling like my body won't wake up even though my brain is. Or maybe vice versa. It lasts hours sometimes long after I get up. I try energy drinks. I try exercising. Sometimes if I have time I'll just go outside and walk randomly to try to force myself to actually wake up fully and feel alert.

>>82396530
>The less you cope with it the more you regress. Try to hold on to what you can.
Thanks anon

>>82396552
Just be careful anon. Assume that nothing too strange is real. Walking down rotten paths will ruin you

>>82396586
Thank you a lot. I feel a lot better even just talking online. You know it's fucked up, I actually made plans to meet up with some friends. Because I noticed my mental state rotting so intensely. But when the time came I couldn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to see anyone. I now have an understanding what my online friend was going through, or at least a taste of it. He was extremely isolated. We talked for well over 10yrs online as friends. I think he committed suicide. I couldn't ever find an obituary or anything but he told me he was going to and that he'd attempted it then less than a week later he was gone for good.

>>82396604
Try to meet with friends. Try to be a good friend. People appreciate strange minds. Trees can have tumors and twist and be good trees. Spiritual death is the enemy, and bad mental health is starting on a minefield. Be prudent.