>>82403870
Same. Sure there's instilled patterns of behaviour like wellworn grooves in your mind, probably put there thru childhood trauma and erroneous thinking while trying to heal that trauma. And sure I may be didn't have the best adults to guide me into success as a youth. But at the end of the day, I fucked my life up. I pushed people away when I should've held them close, I ran and cowered when I should've been bold, I spoke ill of people I love behind their backs, I chose nothing when the promised potential of my youth screamed choose literally anything etc. I did these things. It very much is my fault.