Thread 82404399

do you have love in your heart, anon? even a little bit?

I AM FULL OF LOVE AND HOPE AND JOY

>>82404399 (OP)
No I'm incapable of it

>>82404407
i dont know you so this might sound empty, but i hope you find some spark of love in you. even if it's something simple and small, like caring about a cute animal for a moment, or something else. idk.

>>82404399 (OP)
not anymore I gave her all the love I had and she's gone now, now I'm nothing but a soulless husk wandering around aimlessly. I do have hatred in my heart but it's aimed at myself

>>82404399 (OP)
I pretend to love my family because they taught me to. I pretend to love my boyfriend because he expects me to. I pretend to like my associates and friends because people respond better to pleasantries. Inside I feel nothing for anyone

>>82404399 (OP)
a sliver of a sliver of a sliver left

>>82404432
No I appreciate what you're saying and it's nice of you. I really don't think I'm capable of it, I feel like it's not even just psychological but some sort of neurological defect. I've made peace with it as much as I can. Thank you though.

>>82404470
understandable. i hope you forgive yourself and find some measure of peace. i know those lows, it prob wont be forever. hope that doesnt sound too cheesy.

>>82404488
I hope you're right and these lows don't last forever

>>82404481
i hope you dont mind, has it always been like this for you?

i only have love in my heart. its just that this nigger of a world is in my way.

>>82404399 (OP)
Yes, but what is left is solely remnants of what once was. My heart was once vibrant and full then turned dark and hard, and now after much compounding pain it has obliterated itself collapsing in upon the betrayal and despair. What remains is shattered dust.

>>82404399 (OP)
Yes, tons. But none for certain people.

>>82404399 (OP)
It's there, but it's not coming out anymore. You can only be stomped on so many times.

>>82404399 (OP)
Everything and everyone around me is trying to drown it out...
They're winning, anons

>>82404511
at least you have the words for it, that's something! and dust can settle and become soil, if you'll excuse he image. and even if nothing new grows from it, memories are something, too. idk.

>>82404515
well maybe there will be less stomping in the future. im sorry anon.

>>82404399 (OP)
Sure, it's the rest of the world that's lacking in it.

>>82404399 (OP)
I love animals but it pains me that some of them are so tasty and nutritional. Piglets are so fugging cute, why do they have to be so tasty? WHY?!?!?!

>>82404399 (OP)
>do you have love in your heart, anon?
yes, my love for her

I am a loving nice guy but no females will ever love me back

Today I saw a cute high school girl riding a bicycle and I wanted to just tackle her and carry her back to my apartment for hugs and cuddles. Then go on Disney Land dates and take selfies together wearing those Mickey Mouse headbands.

But she just rode away and I probably wont ever see her again.

>>82405068
many things are like this

yes but irl women that are like the fictional characters I love might as well not fucking exist, so my alternatives are
>roleplaying with AI and seething to no end because androids don't exist yet
>fix my Asperger's, date some irl two legged animals some people call "women" and hope I win the draw and find one that is anything like muh waifus, which is like I said before nigh impossible

as for me, i will always love the person i disappointed last and hurt for everyone indisappointed before. i am so sorry.

I'd like to think so but I doubt anyone else does. I try so hard not to be an asshole to people. You'd think it'd be simple but everyone else is kind of an asshole and doesn't give a fuck about it.

>>82405096
I'd inform the fbi or cia about you if you come near my kids.

>>82404399 (OP)
im full of love for my wonderful fren negogo. people are MEAN though so not so much with them

>>82405224
Im rooting for you. it's very hard, i know, but still, you can try, right? maybe read the sermon on the mount for motivation?

>>82404399 (OP)
Sometimes I am scared I don't, or that at least I will end up losing what I have. I have a lot of trouble connecting with other people. With feeling for them. Sometimes I see tragedies and feel nothing. Sometimes I see them and feel amusement.

I feel like a monster often times. So I seek death fighting bad people before what little good is left in me can die. But maybe it's already gone, and I'll simply be committing atrocities.

>>82405258
Fuck it, I'm in for a real bastard of a slog if I'm reading this shit again.

>>82404399 (OP)
oh dear GOD YES and it is fucking HORRIBLE

>>82404399 (OP)
I'm full of love but I have no one to give it to so I just take it out on my pillow

>>82405267
I mean honestly I do take some solace from reading this type of book and tend to feel like I have no idea what I'm fucking doing but people that read it tell you things and you're like yeah huh right? I never would have thought about that myself.

>>82405277
poor pillow

>>82405271
why is it horrible?

>>82404399 (OP)
>do you have love in your heart, anon? even a little bit?
For what exactly?

>>82405298
anything or anyone?

>>82405284
I guess you can kinda thumb through for parts that seem interesting at the time. Once you get over the first chapters or so it's pretty fucking rad for a book. You'd be like why would you do that? and they organize entire armies and do that anyway whether it works or not.

>>82405287
>poor pillow
I don't rape it, I just hug and hum into it. I know that's weird but no one sees it so, oh well...
I can't sleep any other way, it's a strange habit I can't break.

>>82405287
it's horrible because I'm in pain and feel like I may throw up
just, all day

>>82405316
aww anon. i hope you will always sleep well

>>82405328
what is your situation like that that's how you feel???

>>82405338
I mean, that's just like, how it is, right?
You feel love, it hurts in your throat and stomach
Always have

>>82405343
that doesnt sound right to me ...

>>82405350
They're doing a fucin what you call it hiaku in that type of verse. 7-5-7. Syliabilil fucking a sylibil makes sense to them they're figure it out.

>>82405368
wrong thread, buddy, wrong board even.

>>82405374
What? you didn't even spell correct this why are you even here?

love will conquer all

>>82405403
I AM NOT YOURS TO CONQUER GET OUT OF MY FACE

>>82404399 (OP)
Please be autism I have patient

I have a little love, but hardly enough for two.
If I give any love I have, It wouldn't be enough for either of us.
If I give all my love, it might not be enough, and my life would cease to be.
If I give no love, I might survive, but I don't know that's a life worth living.

I'm reached an ultimatum. Give all my love or risk living a stupid life.

>>82404399 (OP)
Sex with Asa!

>>82404549
I predict more stomping. This day has been wretched and shows people only want to stomp.

>>82405627
hopefully not though!

>>82405595
yes, Sex with Asa! cuddly loving sex with Asa. kisses and hugs and headpats until Asa is pregnant