Thread 82409996

I'm depressed and thinking about her again, god fucking damn it

>>82409996 (OP)
You should call her

>>82410086
I don't haver her number

>>82409996 (OP)
dont call her, it will make you feel worse

>>82409996 (OP)
just woke up.
she is always the first thing on my mind

>>82411434
I've been able to keep her out of my mind now but sometimes can't stop thinking about her and I get really suicidal

>>82409996 (OP)
I called her last week, invited her over to a weekend party with pals. She got a bit drunk, cried, got touchy, we fucked for hours across 3 days. I then convinced her that we should get back. She agreed, then broke up with me the next day after regretting it.

I'm not even angry or sad at this point, I'm just so tired that I need to get with a woman to get children. This girl was top 5% fegarding mental faculties and even she was heartless and retarded. I kinda wish I couldnt procreate or something, then I would be at peace with being forever alone. Its much nicer than being in a relationship.

>>82411568
for me it's not even about having kids I just really really loved her

>>82409996 (OP)
Same.
6 year relationship with BPD autismo goth gf, ended badly back in feb
Haven't talked about the relationship at all. Met up twice to hang out and watch anime. 2nd time we cuddled and she "got overwhelmed" and is now ghosting me - texts me stupid stuff from time to time, but when I respond asking her how she is, she just ignores.
6 months of not talking about anything, kek. Total retardation.
Have constant dreams about her. Just had a great one last night/this morning where we had made up and were happy again and had to wake up to the horrifying reality.
Maybe one day, things will work out, brother. Just keep pushing on. I just keep telling myself I can't control other people, and if she never talks to me again it's actually a good thing because she legit ruined my life in many ways, yet I'm still attached to her. I feel like a fucking idiot but I'm letting myself feel how I feel because it's real, whether I like it or not.

How can we go from lovingly holding someone and creampie-ing her to not speaking at all? Life doesn't make sense sometimes.

>>82410086
Definitely don't do this.

>>82411826
what a coincidence, I met my ex in february no don't worry my gf wasn't a goth girl I didn't steal her from you. I'm so sorry about that anon, why can't life be simpler

Met this girl in april, we had a few fights but we love each other.
Spent the past 5 days trying to talk to her after the last fight, she just blocks me on everything, says it's over. I know she's hurting, I am as well. But we love each other damn it, give us another chance.
I feel like shit, I want no one else. I want to die

>>82411826
>>82411873
Why do women yell, block and run away instead of dealing with things? They're such faggots, I swear.

Same problem, I miss someone a lot...
>>82411956
I think the commonality we all share is our person has poor emotional-regulation from mental illness.

>>82411969
I don't judge her from getting scared and running away, I just hope she comes back one day, she probably won't though, there's better men out there anyway deep down I always knew what we had wasn't going to last, there's just no way someone like me can be loved

>>82412011
I feel the same way, but I wish people like that could calm themselves down before responding instead of running away from trouble. It's an important life skill to have.

>>82412011
She probably does love you, but she can't handle conflict or her emotions in general.

If she does move on to someone else, it's not like it's going to be any better for her.

>>82412071
that is true, most people are not very patient to people that run away from trouble
>>82412107
>She probably does love you, but she can't handle conflict or her emotions in general.
she was one of those girls that get all distant when they don't feel ok, I just wish I could talk to her again just one more time but that would probably ruin my mental health again

>>82412140
Even though it's the last thing you want to do right now, having some distance from her will ultimately be a good thing. Obviously, you wish you could talk things out with her, but as you say, if you got together with her right now, it wouldn't go down like that, it would just be worse for you. So even though emotionally you want to meet up with her right now, keep trying to focus on the logic and reality. It wouldn't be good. So try to improve yourself and if you meet her again then hopefully you will be more resilient and not get sucked into her chaos.

>>82412183
yeah I've been trying to improve myself I mean I started smoking which is not very healthy but I've also been losing weight and trying to get a job, it's been six months since I last heard of her I highly doubt I will ever hear from her again

>>82412140
Why not message her right away? You like to edge or something

>>82412218
dude this has been going on for months the first few weeks I was texting her constantly, it's safe to assume that it's over at this point

By force is always an option

the only way I would want to talk wroth to my ex again is if she spread her ass and let me destroy her puss
awful bpd freak, but was really hot

>>82409996 (OP)
What's your story, anon?

My ex just started dating a new faggot and I'm pretty depressed about it.

>>82413580
we were very happy we talked all the time we texted all day until very late at night then one day she gets very distant, doesn't talk to me for 3 days when she does she gives me a very vague explanation then she breaks up with me
I was very depressed for 2 whole months and honestly I still am pretty depressed but at least I can now get out of bed

>>82413817
That's fucked. That wasn't your fault anon and you didn't deserve it.

Was it a long-distance thing or did you actually see each other?

>>82413892
it was long distance, I know I know people always warned me about that but the kinds of girls I like don't go outside, but I mean we did see each other in pictures and I send her some voice messages