Thread 82422944

Post your waifu and how life is going for you, good or bad! Perhaps if you are in need of advice somebody in the thread can help! There was a Honoka anon who posted in the few threads made back in 2017/18 I hope you're well if you're reading this!
Also, please be kind to each other in the thread.

i have disappointed so many women, including one who looked just like this.
as for life, i was feeling really hopeful and suddenly had faith again, but this weekend there's been a sense of mounting dread, bc I failed my "vows" by overindulging a video game, getting angry and similar sins. I felt strangely like i'd been forgiven and might get another chance, but now I just feel weird and sick.

She's taken but she owns my heart

>>82422976
Could you please explain more? I'm not sure I follow 100%
>>82422982
I confessed to somebody that was taken just to get my feelings out! It was painful of course knowing the result, but it helped me move on.

I got myself a new electric oven.
Had to do the purge for it, smelled really bad. Hopefully after that was done I can use it, but I might do some extra research afterwards.

>>82423021
Oo do you bake a lot? Tell me more please! I can't cook or bake I'm useless in the kitchen haha

>>82423006
the gist is, a lot of things have happened to me in the past that seem ridiculous, as though I were some Job or Tantalus like figure, cursed to be punished over and over again.
recently I felt like I could get better, as though this "curse" were about to be lifted. for example I used to have unwelcome sexual thoughts and related habits, and they just evaporated. ive been trying to challenge myself to exercise my will again, resist temptations like distraction and anger, and I lapsed in the last couple of days. so now I feel like something went terribly wrong. I can tell you some more if you'd like? idk it's not that interesting, just stupid.

>>82422944 (OP)
Mine is Marie Rose. I post her pretty regularly here. Anyways, my life is pretty shit, but oh well. As long as I have her by my side, I know I'll be fine.

>>82423071
I'm not too sure how to help, but I've would recommend trying a LLM for at least tips on how to resist negative emotions or thoughts.
>>82423072
Would you like to say more? Perhaps I can offer a thought or two

>>82423101
im sorry i wasnt looking for help, I was confused about this thread and thought it was just to generally share stuff. my bad.

Im going to be real with you guys. I think Im depressed but I refuse to confirm it because I dont want that to be a part of who I am.

>>82423114
Oh no that's okay! Thanks for sharing though
I improved my life by what I consider sort of a lot, so I'm happy to help if anybody needs and I can offer something

>>82423136
even if you do have depression, it's not a part of who you are anymore than a stomache ache is.

I decided to divorce my previous waifu and start a harem. Sometimes I feel like a scumbag for being a harem haver but I can't help it. There are just too many anime girls that I love.

>>82423136
I think >>82423144 is partially right but also partially wrong. The first step to always solving a problem is recognizing it exists, and denying you have depression may worsen your situation by preventing you from reaching out to others for advice. I know a person who is very insistent that they don't have an eating disorder and they just eat a lot, or they're a larger person and just need to consume more because of it. Yet they will continually suffer health consequences because of it

>>82423101
>Would you like to say more? Perhaps I can offer a thought or two
Sure. Basically, my life is shit cause I can never live a "normal" life per say. Everyone I knew in high school is now married or has a stable career. Meanwhile, I still live with my parents and work a part-time job. At least it pays well, though, I suppose. I don't really care about the marriage and kids aspect, though. As long as I have her, I don't care. Sorry if I'm not making much sense. I've had a bit to drink. Anyways, picrel is my bedroom.

>>82423214
Nah it's okay, but what do you think is causing your unhappiness or for better lack of words lack of fulfillment? Could it be you deep down desire to get married and or have a stable career like those in your high school (trust me I know, I was in the same classes as my valedictorian and salutatorian).

>>82423228
No, I think it's the fact that I'll never be "normal". I have (diagnosed) Autism and ADHD and it effects my life greatly even for the most basic stuff. It's knowing there's nothing I can do about it and my entire life will be like this.

It's been the only media of it's kind that I've consumed in almost 2 years, love it and it was very entertaining while it lasted, as for my life well I don't know what to tell you :/:/ not that great

>>82423144
>>82423198
I have a few thoughts on this. While I do think on occassion I am depressed, Id never consider myself at risk of actively harming myself. Ive owned several guns for over a decade and never once thought to harm myself, but at the same time Ive also neglected my home and physical hygiene with negative health impacts.

I think getting it diagnosed would be detrimental because I dont want anyone to have grounds to take anything from me or restrict my free will, mostly because I know Id never choose to injure myself directly. On the other hand, I dont like the idea of having some kind of condition that affects who I am and makes it more difficult to make decisions. I just dont like the idea of not having control of myself in either example of rights or actions.

At the same time, I also know I dont tend to experience what Id call "events" that frequently, and they almost all center around being alone and very lonely, so Ive been putting in effort to try and make more connections with people.

At least I have some joys in this miserable life like exercising (I always think of her when I work out), drinking, watching Chinese cartoons, and the occasional concert. And her. I really love my cute wife.

>>82423246
I hate to be that person but have you at least tried some form of treatment/reaching out? I'm not going to criticize you if you don't, but it does make life a lot harder to go through if you don't try something (saying this as a person who had to get treatment for ADHD)
>>82423261
Tell me more perhaps I can provide a perspective or two
>>82423271
I'm no mental health expert but you could have something else aside from depression. While you may not want to seek help, its effects will still shadow you in life regardless of whether you acknowledge it exists or not. It's good to hear you're making efforts to connect with people, though if it's only online it may not do you much good given the negativity here.

>>82423332
>have you at least tried some form of treatment/reaching out?
Yeah, I've been medicated before, which helps greatly. The problem is that my job runs drug tests, which includes amphetamines, so I had to get off of it. I've tried applying for other jobs, but they always either ghost me after the interview or ignore away my application. I'm kind of stuck.

I mean, I had many waifus when I was younger, but if you want me to choose then it would be lucoa. My new waifu is Ruri Tiwigawa from ruri rocks!

>>82423363
oh yeah and my life sucks

>>82423332
Honestly I think Im just suffering from long term seclusion. Maybe Im depressed, maybe not, but the dissatisfaction I feel about life has almost always been linked to being alone. While I was responding to the wildfires in LA earlier this year it started bothering me that my coworkers would end their shift and call their wives or boyfriends, and Id just kill time by working more because I have no one. Im only thinking about it again now because this week I asked someone out and once again got a no. Its just a little frustrating to know what I want but fail to make progress at achieving it despite trying.

>>82423332
>Tell me more perhaps I can provide a perspective or two
I'm somewhat depressed, my mother is dead and even tho it's been a while (2 years) that still kinda haunts me since my relationship with her was kinda strange, I live my days with no real purpose and I've been a neet for over a year, I spend the aforementioned days just listening to music and downloading music and repeating this process, besides that I don't do much, don't have energy for much else besides wasting my time in this website and sometimes watching shit on youtube, don't even play that much games, just living by in what I deem as the end of times, it's kinda hopeless but somewhat peaceful I guess, won't say i'm sad but i'm not happy and truth be told I just don't know

and now you know (you don't)

>>82423358
I'm not sure if you're from the US, but if you have a legitimate doctor note for prescriptions you should be exempt from normally failing a drug test if you were to test for a substance that is similar to banned ones given the chemical composition similarities. If you need help formatting your resume, I can try to and help!
>>82423373
Tell us about your issues anon!
>>82423402
I don't think this is really a you issue, it's becoming more prevalent for both genders. I think relationships are one of life's endeavors where effort isn't rewarded, my only advice is try to pick up a new hobby and find a group of strangers. I'm pretty ugly myself but at the very least hanging out with other ends I don't feel as lonely
>>82423430
I'm sorry to hear about your mother :((
If you want to try and improve, you should ask yourself is what do you want to do? People become skilled in doing things by spending countless hours towards it. If you are like me and spend all your time playing video games off work, all I become good at is video games. If all you do is post on 4chan with the amount of negative and deranged people here, the only thing you become an expert as is posting and living amongst negativity. I was unemployed for 3 years in the same boat, what kept me "sane" was doing minor steps to improve my life. Perhaps you may feel better if you tried the same (just my thoughts). Start small like I did, j had virtually rotting teeth because I stopped brushing them when I was unemployed. It become a goal just to brush and floss twice a day, and even in the beginning I still had trouble sticking to it until I did it enough for it to become routine again

>>82422944 (OP)
I wanna say bad. Dead end job at a warehouse. Most if not all my weekends I am doing nothing except building models. Wanted to ask a girl out on my route on Tuesday. beforehand one of my coworkers informed me about my driver giving the manager of the deli a hard time over "Promotional bbq chicken" that we are trying to sample to customers. I wasn't there to see it happen last tuesday but I had to choose between asking out that girl or watch my driver and making sure he didnt lose his shit...

>>82423469
I dont necessarily disagree with yoy about picking up hobbies, but it just feels like distracting myself at this point.

Im 30, I own a business, I employ 5 people, when I can I go camping, read, go shooting, fencing, try cooking, and the basic tv/gaming stuff but ultimately what I know I lack is that Im simply alone through those things. Im no longer in contact with my immediate family because of my father becoming schizophrenic and having a falling out, my best friend died a long time ago, and since I moved to a new state to open my business Ive not really met anyone.

I dont mean to just complain or be contrarian, but its hard not to feel like Ive missed some fundamental and important part of what it means to be human. Even now Im laying on my couch alone posting on 4chan while Im drunk and slightly bitter about having a woman who I swear was flirting with me tell me she has a boyfriend. Every day I feel like the similarities with chris chan pile up and its unsettling.

>>82423514
Have you thought about going back to school? Not trying to sound mean or anything but aside from trades/manufacturing it's hard to escape warehouse work. Not to mention all 3 are very taxing on your physical health so even if you do retire rich, your body may not be well enough to enjoy it. In any case, it's nice to hear you have some thing to look forward to
>>82423528
Ah i see. Dont let it get to you, ive had a few bad relationships myself. I don't think you're complaining or contrarian, it's certainly much harder given the state of the world right now, I personally don't have any evidence but it feels like people are meaner, more rude and less patient than when I was growing up. But since you're of similar age to me, all we can do is keep moving on. A random person that can change your life can randomly appear one day, I've met people in a game and years later I've turned out to be good friends with them in person

>>82423469
>I'm not sure if you're from the US, but if you have a legitimate doctor note for prescriptions you should be exempt from normally failing a drug test
Yeah, I think I've heard that before. Will a simple copy of my diagnosis be enough?

>>82423590
I hear you. I want to remain hopeful, I think Im just sulking a little because I swear the woman who just rejected me liked me. Its not the first time and Ive gotten used to moving on from this stuff, but its still annoying to find yourself back at square one. I think rejection was a little easier before I had a long term relationship fail, because Im acutely aware of how much I knew about my ex versus how much I know about the woman who rejected me versus a random stranger, ect. I guess its that "The first $100 you make is the hardest" idea, just thought I was past the hump.

Really bad: two years of heavy depression, barely leaving my house...just work, eat, play videogames and sleep.

I'm scared that I don't even want to get better this time, I just want to burn time until the day I finally die.

>>82423617
That I'm not too sure, if you landed a job that requires a drug test there should be a licensed medical officer you can reach out to to explain if you fail a drug test and give a signed prescription from your doctor to (definitely don't mention it during the interview they will preemptively discriminate against you even though the ADA says they can't legally)
>>82423649
I feel you, but at the same time it's hard to get a read on people. Honestly, I've had a few woman who were kind and somewhat flirty (it was their personality) who I thought liked me. I think it was a misinterpretion on my part that led me to think that their teasing translates to like they like me. In any case mate, hope is all we can do. I hope you can at least find a hobby group and things look up for you, if the people you employ in your business are interested try taking one or two of them out for camping or a meetup to try a new restaurant
>>82423665
No anon :(( you has to try something or you will literally wither away

Life has been really mean to me for a couple years now. There's a lot that can't be helped, and a lot of bureaucracy getting in the way of things getting better, but they should... eventually. Regardless, it doesn't get me down that much anymore. I've gotten so resilient over the years... I guess that's growing up, finally.

>>82423765
Thats good to hear anon :33 hope you find happiness

>>82422944 (OP)
Might be getting a job at a hospital. Hopefully it works out

>>82423856
Best of luck anon! I don't know anything, but what position? If I was super smart and had more years I would have tried to become an OB/GYN

>>82423875
I'm a stupid fat guy, I'd be doing Sterile Processing Tech, Monitor Tech, or Admin work just taking information from patients about insurance. No degree besides high school, but median pay is like 20-25 for those positions

waifu is and always will be himeno. she is the essence of perfection in a woman. thick but not fat, slutty but still loyal, and also big tits. i have loved her since 2020 and always will.

life is going fine. my job is jobbing. i added a cute foid a few days ago and she asks me for lewd vocaroos and pics, says she is willing to meet up given the opportunity but im still a bit burnt from my previous relationship so ill just see where things go

>>82423031
Wouldn't say I bake a lot.
My sister is moving out and she is taking things she bought with her, so I decided to get myself a bigger oven for platter that couldn't go in.
I mostly cook chicken in the oven, but even that in the small oven was taking too long, this new oven seems to be much better so I'll be sure to test it eventually.

>>82423897
That's not bad at all, you should be proud! I have a bachelor's an make $23 in finance..but in California lol
>>82423906
Wishing you the best on your relationship! Hope it runs smoothly
>>82423907
Whatcha eat the chicken with :0?

>>82423590
Mom pushed for me to go to school, community college really but Idk I would see it being pointless to get a degree instead physically learning on hand to do the trade/job. And I know you are not trying to sound mean or anything of that matter.
I already look like mid to late 30 yr despite being in my mid 20s.
Honestly just wanna come back home to pic related everyday.

>>82424095
Thats fair, sometimes a job is just a paycheck and sometimes a job is a field people really love to do. Some people are indifferent to their job and love the people at it, others the reverse.
I just want to warn you though again I know a few people in trades (not a large sample size I know) but their bodies are screwed up and they're only mid-40s far away from retirement. I know white collar work isn't for everyone and it may take a bite out of you emotionally rather than physically, but there's longevity to it. I don't think you're ever too old to go back to school, I attended classes myself with 40 year olds in college who studied business after a career in an entirely unrelated field. Some people discover their passions later in life, and some never do. Even myself, I don't love finance but I don't hate it either so that's good enough for me

>>82423963
Mostly on its own, but the other day I was thinking of cooking it with stirred veggies.
Too bad I can only afford one hour of cooking due to work.

i need more waifus

>>82423469
>you should ask yourself is what do you want to do?
Yeah I've asked myself that a couple times, all things considered I don't really want anything besides having some peace, often failing at that and other times being somewhat well, and that's pretty much it. I've seen myself striving for something in the near future still but like I told you, I don't have much energy as of now, I see the world and most often get disturbed by it so I don't act, you can call me weak and you'd be right but like I just don't know man, I still take care of myself to some degree, it's good that you do that again, but besides the basic stuff I don't see myself doing that much of anything else, didn't replied earlier cuz I had to take a nap, thanks for reading my shit if you do and all that

>>82425263
I would never call somebody who is making an attempt to improve their life weak even if they fail multiple times. Everybody's life is shaped uniquely by their experiences, and so what if some people find what they want to do later or earlier than others? It's not wrong to want peace at all

>>82422944 (OP)
I keep getting ghosted. Is it something wrong with me? Maybe I'm really boring or something. Maybe my personality isn't very agreeable. Gosh, today my head was filled with thoughts of her. She was so cute. I wish she didn't ghost me. I miss her.

>>82423528
>I feel like the similarities with chris chan pile up and its unsettling
>Im 30, I own a business, I employ 5 people
You are seriously selling yourself short. If I owned a successful enough business and had free time to do things I'd enjoyed, I'd have made it in life. But I suppose at least some of it is because I do not desire anything more than friendship in life. I already have my waifu, and I've already accepted me and her will never be together in this life (but probably in the next life). Some people are just not meant to have their lover be with them in this life. It's a miserable curse, but isn't being alive also full of curses? The beauty and wonder in this world is fleeting and rare, and no doubt inferior compared to what lurks in places far beyond our reality.

>>82424134
I mean if you wanna know or let me vent honestly. The job is great. The pay is kinda meh and makes me wanna get another job or quit/put 2 weeks in. Its just I have a certain coworker who is too nosey about everything about wtf I do. Like when I first went on route with him. I told him on my weekends its just "being in my room on my computer." then he says something like "Oh. You're gonna watch porn all weekend?" I was like wtf even trying to process what he just said to me.
Another was last year around the same time. I went to ask out a girl. Girl rejects me honestly "Has BF". I tell him about it then he says "What do I care?"
Then another this happened earlier this year. It was early asf in the morning we were leaving the warehouse on our way to the interstate. He asks me "So what did you do this weekend?" I tell him "I hung out with my buddy Nick pretty much all weekend" (From Friday to Monday. This incident happened on an early Tuesday morning). Then he says "You hangout with Nick too much!" and it was like a yell at me in the truck at 5am Anon.
This past friday he didn't say a word to me at all. NOT A FREAKING WORD.