>>82429814
Feels to me like you are a unique person and you tend to value true connections, so that indeed does limit the numbers quite a bit. The feeling of having someone that truly 'gets you', sometimes without words exchanged even, is quite sweet. What a sweet, sweet curse it is to be like this.
I'm not saying I share your woes in the same way, but I understand. But I can at least tell you that as it has happened before, it will still happen again. There's a sea of garbage out there with a few pearls in it. It sucks going through it, it's devastating and tiring, but the pearls are out there, somewhere, if that's what you seek.
Ideally you'd find someone to match your 'sick in the head' vibe someday, I read somewhere the ideal relationship (be it friendship or romantic does not matter here) is the type where "My bullshit doesn't phase you, and your bullshit doesn't phase me."
Welll, wall of text avtism aside, in short I'm saying you shouldn't lose hope. Nothing stopping this cruel universe of giving you another soul to share your days with only to eventually take them away again. It's mean and cold, but it's just how life is.
You think you can keep going?
