Thread 82433406

i am so lonely. i am 23 years old virgin and everytime i get out to parties and social clues i mess up in the most embarassing way. i think if i were a normoid i would have killed myself long time ago. the fact that i am unable to entail connection with anyone, not only regarding to sex but also friendship, and the fact i am poor is just outstandingly absurd, like there is not a single good thing in my life. the last 15 years of my life has been a downhill. everytime i try to go to parties masking my autistic ass to meet people telling into my face how many sex they had and wada wada i just feel like killing myself. the other day i went to a party with my super chad friend and he picked a stupid non-binary whore, fucked her and then dumped her like she was nothing. i have taken drugs to push me to the limit to get to meet people only to find myself in my bed hours later, filthy, with my fingertips smelling like nicotine, rotting with feeling a disgusting "pity" for myself. i never went to college, i didn't have an serious education because public school didn't feel like giving an option to someone as autistic as me. i dont have any friends, i mess up on highschool love. i havent feel good in at least 6 years now. tomorrow i have to go to work but what for? thinking about killing myself since i dont see a bright future for me or people akind to me (autistic incels). the worst thing is that i am not actually ugly, i am just autistic and the walls that separate me from other people are just becoming thicker and thicker. everyone telling me to enjoy my 20s but i can't get a fucking grip of myself

>>82433406 (OP)
I'm working on my adhd, school feels easier with my newly prescribed legal meth. you might have adhd too since it's sometimes a comorbidity. I'm exercising more and over eating is easier to resist.

you go to parties??? ffff normie

>>82433406 (OP)
based. it took me a while but obviously going to parties and social events is fun and helps you meet lots of girls. i realized most other people are also autistic so you just have to do what the other people are doing and eventually you end up having sex.

>>82433406 (OP)
>the worst thing is that i am not actually ugly, i am just autistic

Then you have the best chance. I am COMPLETELY socially inept, balding since 25, small dick and about 5' 8''. Women have dragged me across that finish line because they thought I was attractive. The last first kiss I had, I was rambling about something and I realized she had something on her hair so I brushed it and she jumped saying "Oh this!-" then I realized that I was supposed to kiss her and went for it. I totally forgot I was there to have sex with her. Just learn when to shutup and let them project their fantasy on to you, and learn from past mistakes.

The fact that you go to parties makes you way ahead of me, I've never gone to one that wasn't a family memeber's let alone ever got laid at one.