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Also, I know what it's like to be where OP is because I LITERALLY WAS THERE. There was a time that I concerned myself with this to the extent that I knew what true, cold hatred was, and to some degree, it was because I had way too strong an attachement to my passions. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't want to have been mutilated, but I am and there's nothing I can do about it. There's no point in letting myself get stirred about it the way I used to. OP is allegedly a gayfag coomer? Well I was there too, and I can say that such a state isn't one where you will be thinking in the most pure and rational manner. Now of course, being in a state like that might not be the most simple thing ever, but that's where the power of repentance enters in, and repentence is a process, it takes time.
I don't know if the guy I was arguing with was OP, but in the case that it is, perhaps here, you could take a little leap of faith, maybe here, you will learn to find faith, maybe in that you could give it a chance, just a little chance, a humble chance, not with the notions you've gathered about the thing you speak of, but a mere openness to the God that is there, that he will show you the way. I don't know, that's up to you, that's up to your discernment. It's your life. Sorry again for my harshness. It's silly to get into these crap flining arguments.
Also, if it's a temptation for you to think you are unforgivable, don't think that, God works with you where you are at, and the steps you take towards God, he will take towards you. There may be times of sorrow, but for that, you can rejoice, because that's how you know you are being healed. I don't know if that will be helpful but I hop it is, to someone at least. God bless.