Thread 82461227

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

Goob evening c:
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

eyo
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

> bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

>a bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>>82461227 (OP)
Not cutting but been about a year since I punched myself in the head a lot. Couldn't stop overthinking and was afraid to make the unoptimal decision between some things. Severe OCD obviously. Switched meds much better now.

You guys know about any website where I can livestream my suicide?
I think my university friends would love to see me die

>>82461227 (OP)
hello /cut/!! today i am going to play the elder scrolls v skyrim for the first time ever and i'm really excited :> i got everything working for 120fps and it's not bugging out anymore i can't wait woo

>>82461243
Hello
>about a year since I punched myself in the head a lot.
good job
doing that can really mess up your brain, repeated concussions are no joke even small ones
>much better now.
lovely
how does your life look like now?

>>82461461
Hey saka
do you really think they'd like to see you die?
or do you mean it as a way to get back at them for doing something mean to you?

>>82461518
Heya
>play the elder scrolls v skyrim for the first time ever
ooh that's nice, I'm pretty sure you'll have fun it a pretty good game
When you start playing tell you what you think about it and how does your character looks like when you make it
>working for 120fps
yeah I've heard it freaks out if you have too many fps

>>82461700
>do you really think they'd like to see you die?
Yes, I do.
>or do you mean it as a way to get back at them for doing something mean to you?
I pray for one of them every single day, and she's the one who hates me the most. I care about her, I like her a lot.
They wanna see me dead, but still I pray for them. I just wanna do something good for once in my life. That's why I should kill myself and let them see me die

I've been feeling happy, because I know I'm gonna kill myself. I feel joy thinking about my suicide.
I can't wait to finally put a rope around my neck. Brings me great joy to think about my corpse on the ground.
I'd be doing a great deed by killing myself. No one deserves to breath the same air as me. I deserve to die.
I'll make this dream of death come true. I deserve to die. I feel happy whenever I think that I can die whenever I want.

>>82461700
>I'm pretty sure you'll have fun it a pretty good game
i've heard that a lot, i've played another bethesda title before, fallout 4, and i put 300hrs into my first playthrough so i imagine this will be similar :>
>When you start playing tell you what you think about it
it's really silly and glitchy so far, nothing experience ruining so it's just me laughing at the npcs triggering enemies during stealth sections and i get to watch them brawl, but i've just made it out the cave at the start and it's such a beautiful view, i hope the attached image works right ^,^
>how does your character looks like when you make it
i made my dragonborn me, an ugly femcel, but with way more makeup and looks cooler than i ever would or could
>yeah I've heard it freaks out if you have too many fps
yup, it really does!! hadvar was flying around the caves and whenever i unlocked a door some crates would just... freak out, it's really funny right now but i'm sure it'll get annoying soon lolz

>>82461227 (OP)
hey catbro! a good evening to you, too. bit late again, though. ^^' how was your day?

>>82461461
hey saka! what's going on with you?

>>82461518
hi drifter!

>i'm really excited :>
friend of mine started playing it not that long ago and he's having a good time so far. have fun!

>i got everything working for 120fps and it's not bugging out anymore
that's an achievement of it's own already. :0 well done. :> (though some of the bugs in the game are really funny)

hey cut
>How are you doing today?
I'm okay, I went to hang out with friends for most of the day desu. It was fairly fun although i did get bored after a while. we watched bladerunner 2049 but i couldn't be bothered to finish it desu
>Any plans for today?
pretty much did my plans already so I'll probably just chill a bit more and then sleep.
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
long time ago
>Why did you hurt yourself?
who knows desu, its more like a vague memory atp
>Is there anything bothering you right now?
just some stuff but it's too abstract to get into, mostly to do with my views on society anyways.

>>82461730
>Yes, I do
why do they dislike you that much? and how do you know they actually want you dead?
I'm not sure I remember exactly what happened between you
>care about her, I like her a lot.
hm i see

>>82462102
>imagine this will be similar :>
hopefully
>really silly and glitchy so far
gm I wonder why, maybe you still have too many fps?
or maybe you'd need some mods to fix it
>hope the attached image works right ^,^
seems like it has
>was flying around the caves and whenever i unlocked a door some crates would just... freak out,
that's funny

>>82462356
Heyyo
>bit late again, though. ^^'
it's okay :3
> how was your day?
I forgot to mention it above but I'm sick :<
but I was on a short bikeride today and got snacks
wbu?

>>82462556
hey chev!

>we watched bladerunner 2049 but i couldn't be bothered to finish it desu
that's fair, i think. you watch bladerunner movies for the vibe and the cool visuals, not so much the plot. they can get boring if you're not in the mood. maybe not the best movies to watch in a group, either. did you guys do anything else?

>probably just chill a bit more and then sleep.
same for me. played some games and now i'm just watching some vids and streams.

>long time ago
glad to hear that. well done. :>

>mostly to do with my views on society anyways.
yeah. it's all getting very tiresome.

>>82462580
>I'm sick :<
oh noes! D: what got you?

>I was on a short bikeride today and got snacks
even though you're sick? that's what i call dedication, but i hope you're in your comfy bed, ready to get better.

>wbu?
the day was alright, but quite long. though i did what i wanted to do and cleaned up the storage. hope it helps and that it stays like that for a while.

>>82461227 (OP)
hi /cut/

>How are you doing today?
Really quite shit, i just really hate being around people
But i'll feel better soon rn im playing roblox

>Any plans for today?
nothing but for the week i gotta hit up my tutor from last year for some help with this year

dont have much to say but yk

>>82462988
>what got you?
a cooldd D:
I'm going to sleep early tonight because of it
>hope you're in your comfy bed, ready to get better.
exactly ^^
hopefully I feel better tomorrow
at least make throat isn't hurting very much as it sometimes is when i get a cold
>wanted to do and cleaned up the storage. hope it helps and that it stays like that for a while.
was ot a lot of lifting? good job :>
and how's your evening?

>>82463221
heyo!

>Really quite shit, i just really hate being around people
did anything happen or just in general? either way, i get it.

>But i'll feel better soon
:>

>rn im playing roblox
are you having a good time?

>i gotta hit up my tutor
hope he can help you with whatever you've got problems with.

>dont have much to say but yk
that's fine. it's just good to see you.

>>82463225
>I'm going to sleep early tonight because of it
good idea. get well soon.

>hopefully I feel better tomorrow
you definitely will. i promise.

>was ot a lot of lifting?
the biggest issue was that i always had to move things around to change the storage racks how i wanted while also having all the packages in reach for the customers, while also cleaning the place and the racks while i had the chance. just a lot of stuff all at once.

>how's your evening?
it was nice. played some silksong and made good progress. well, i'm exploring a lot before dealing with the main quest, but i found some cool stuff while doing that. now i'm just chilling.

>>82461700
Yea I would punch myself as hard as I possibly could and I'd slam my head into my fist for extra measure. I did this while I had concussions too. My head feels weird now. Like I can physically feel that my mind is duller. I'm not as fast or sharp as I used to be and I have to live with that for the rest of my life

I told my mom yesterday my plans to kill myself at the age of 45 and she took it surprisingly well

i'll head to bed now. good night, everyone.

>>82463942
hi bib!