Thread 82474177

Does anyone ever feel so depressed that they don't even feel good enough to imagine having a fictional girlfriend? I honestly feel so bad--like, if I ever did have a future girlfriend, I'd just be a burden. I'm boring, I spend most of my time lying in bed, and I'm not tall or good-looking, so it's not like I'd even be someone to be proud of.

I've never had the capability to force the existence of a "waifu". I laughed at those people for years thinking it was just jokes. I was very wrong. And honestly, I wish I was insane as them.

>>82474177 (OP)
That was my drive to self improve until the intrusive thoughts won out and I accepted a gf is a complete fantasy for me.

>>82474199
I wish I wasn't so self aware. I hate looking at myself in the mirror and seeing my ugly face.

>>82474177 (OP)
same here but i just imagine my gf to be a big loser like me. if she was my looksmatch, personality match and everything else match i would be very happy with her. but yeah i cant imagine i would be good enough for a normie gf

>>82474177 (OP)
i used to be like that and still somewhat am
however i recognize that life doesn't always go as planned, and shit could happen regardless of me seeing myself as unfit
i hope i'm proven wrong, but i don't expect it either

thing is anon, unlike me you don't seem to acknowledge that opinions are relative
if a girl does find you attractive enough to date or whatever, i'd urge you to respect her opinion despite disagreeing, and give her a chance
give yourself a chance to be proven wrong too, i mean what do you have to lose? if shit fails then nothing unexpected (nothing ever happens mentality), but if shit doesn't fail, well... hooray you, lol

>>82474248
One time I got bored and thought I'd mess around with AI roleplay, just to see what it was like, y'know? I ended up making this female version of myself, which... in hindsight, was already a terrible idea. Anyway, I couldn't even go through with it. Every time the bot said something nice -- like calling me handsome or saying she liked my height, my brain just laughed in my face. Like, "Mate, even you don't believe that." It was honestly depressing. I wasn't even good enough for the loser AI female version of me.

>>82474426
i honestly think being delusional or ignorant about yourself is a gift.
i remember seeing being a kid and being happy with my face and my height. i wish i could go back to that.

>>82474504
>i wish i could go back to that.
Yeah, I wish I didn't hate myself so much. But my brain's got a real talent for tearing me apart. It's like it never shuts up, and it never says anything kind. Just this constant loop of "you're not enough." It's exhausting.

>>82474177 (OP)
that's good
maladaptive daydreaming eats into life