Thread 82511174

Vent your feelings, order your drinks, pay with cash or cards

Suicide, arguing and fighting is against the rules of the feels bar

Things are getting rough

I'm going to kill myself as soon as I leave the bar. For now, I'm going to have some tequila.

>>82511174 (OP)
I believe I'm entering a manic episode but I kinda don't want do anything about it

>>82511269
*heavy sigh*
Here is your tequila
*gives tequila*
>>82511282
Do at least take some meds to make it easy to deal with your manic episode?

>>82511269
He said suicide isn't allowed, NIGGER

>>82511334
No I'm going to rawdog it because I can. Im already deprived of REM sleep though.

I'll have two pints of lager, one for you and one for me. Cash.

I did what I think is the right thing to do. I can drink with peace of mind.

>>82511174 (OP)
Yuengling Lager, and a double of Jameson.

Mad that I feel like I screwed myself out of every having a healthy relationship again. Mad that I can't ever seem to save money because something is always breaking. Mad that I keep helping other people when I shouldn't. Mad that the interviewer said "we'll be in contact" but hasn't given me a date. Mad that I'm in constant pain. Mad that my ex doesn't take proper care of my son when he's with her. Mad mad mad. I want to fucking strangle someone.

How much do I owe you?

>>82511349
...and if people finally become happy because of my actions then it's all for the better. I'm leaving, bartender. Today even one beer is too much for me.

People keep rehashing five year old drama about me because its the only thing I have done that was "wrong" everything else is just "I dont like femanon"

And it was a five year age gap, I was in my early 20s

I'm not trying to brag or anything. I just want to talk about what's going on in my life. You can perceive it however you perceive it. But I am just venting about how I feel.

I'm about to pull the trigger and spend $20,000 on my business. I'm finalizing everything and making sure I've picked the correct items for purchase. This is the most amount of money I've ever spent at a time (besides the house). I grew up pretty poor, so this is new for me and I'm uncomfortable with the feeling of having, spending so much.

What I do to earn money helps others immensely, Life changing that they would not have otherwise without what I do. So I don't feel guilty about earning money, it's just uncomfortable with the change.

>>82511174 (OP)
Whiskey on the rocks, anon
I'm just gonna ruminate for awhile

The realization of it all is kicking in
Brick by brick, as the zoomers call it, but I didn't place those bricks
Someone else placed them for me, and now I'm thinking of either destroying it all and placing my own bricks OR keep laying those bricks, live my life based on what folks expect of me
It'll be stable and solid, but without realizing it I'll have built my own prison

I'm tired, anon