Thread 82557816

How to cope with dysphoria without transitioning?

Hey bros,

I was wondering how I could cope with gender dysphoria without transitioning.

All my life (25yo male) I struggled with dysphoria and agp.

As a young man, I could repress it with school and sports. But after graduating school, I failed. I didn't give in, but I gave up. I got burnt out. I couldn't study anymore, flunked out of college. Been dealing with depression a lot lately. Nowadays, I spend most of the day in bed, scrolling here or /tttt/, just...sad. Sad I'm not a woman. Sad over what could of been. Sad I'm wasting my youth even now, knowing I could make it better.

I'm on HRT rn, but only 2 years. I still manmode obviously.

Due to where I live (Missouri) and to keep my job, I can't transition. I'm also lazy and autistic and averse to change.

So I ask, when I feel extra dysphoric or extra sad IWNBAW, how do I cope with that feeling? How do I stop thinking about it? How do I move on and get motivation/discipline to make my life better, even though it all feels pointless because IWNBAW so why bother improving life?

You can't always get what you want.

You may as well ask 'how do I cope with not being a millionaire rockstar?'. Or 'why can't I get isekai'd into my favorite anime?'

>>82557816 (OP)
Well I think HRT for 2 years is detrimental to not transitioning. Maybe you should look into MKULTRA brain erasure. I've heard there are measurable differences between the brains of straight and transgender people, maybe your brain could be surgically altered to be normal. You could try electroconvulsive therapy.

>>82557977
desu if i knew my brain was similar to a real woman's i think i'd feel more at peace with who i am versus constantly being depressed and disgusted for being a troon

>>82557816 (OP)
transition to canadian healthcare

I'm in missouri too, I never even started HRT because I got cock blocked by therapy policies and after trying that for 2 years I just kinda gave up and swept it under the rug. Now I'm in my 30s and life is a lot different. For me it really came down to two things
>My family didn't care about my emotions or give me any emotional support at all ever
>I was jealous of girls around me who got endless emotional support for anything and everything no matter how vapid

I've distanced myself from my family and made friends who actually care about me and that's done so much more for me than pretending to be a girl on MSN Messenger ever did.

Once you peel back the layers of delusion and cope and realize you're just being a jealous narcissist you can come to meaningful self realizations and actually grow as a person and build upon that meaningfully, but until you truly self reflect you'll be trapped in these cycles

also get rid of all your extreme left "ally" friends their performative empathy can only hurt you

>>82558336
Lets say I do realize I'm just jealous of women
What steps do I take next

>>82557816 (OP)
I can't transition because I don't have money or resources. How do I cope? I want to cut my dick and balls off.

>>82558365
that's the hardest part and the part everyone on r9k struggled with the most

you have to SOMEHOW find people who like you and value you and can help build up in you what your parents should have and never did

good luck, soldier

>>82558370
Plus I have TMJ, no teeth, my body is uneven due to fights, my spine is also maligned, I'm in bad shape.