Thread 82560802

why haven't you committed suicide yet? what exactly are you waiting for?

im going to die anyway so might as well try while i can

>>82560802 (OP)
That's a very cute picture. As for why, I have to take care of my cats until the end of their natural lives.

I really want to believe that one day I'll be with the person I fell in love with. Everything is going to such shit.

I am very exhausted, but it's worth living for.

>>82560802 (OP)
i have the occasional bit of hope ill have someone i can love forever

i also dont have access to a shotgun cause guns are illegal here. i want it to be as quick and painless as possible. tho ill probably just hang myself eventually when im like 25 and still a khhv

>>82560802 (OP)
>why haven't you committed suicide yet?
life is not miserable enough to actively seek suicide so i'm just going through the motions
>what exactly are you waiting for?
something that'll make me die or live, until then i'll rot

I'm currently in the planning phase.

>>82560802 (OP)
>why haven't you committed suicide yet?
Don't want to
>what exactly are you waiting for?
Nothing

>>82560802 (OP)
Only a coward gives in to fear of life over fear of death. The courageous fears nothing and faces conflict with open arms. To submit to fear is the ultimate weakness. This ultimate submission comes with the final breath. Are you going to let them win without being forced? They can never win until you let them win by giving up. If you never submit, they must lose.

>>82560802 (OP)
I'm too much of a pussy to go through with it now.
I had one period of my life where I felt shit enough to be willing to rope, and I pissed it away by doing nothing.
So as far as I know, I'm stuck in eternal limbo.

>>82560802 (OP)
the eventual birth of ai sexbots
also id like to see ai take over the world and take over all jobs, and potentially kill everyone in an ai robot apocalypse. that would be WONDERFUL to see
ill take ai paradise as well

basically my hope in technology is what keeps me going

>>82560884
In 1998 I dreamt of flicking through nude photos and activating one, where the person in the photo became real.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Logan%27s_Run
... but as it turns out this scene was in Logan's Run in 1961 and wasn't my idea at all.

https://youtu.be/PmCVMVMQmjo

To be handed a pill that will kill me painlessly in seconds.

>>82560802 (OP)
Die in winter

>>82560802 (OP)
going to soon honestly, last time it hurt really bad tho so im hesitant

I don't get why anyone would ever kill themselves. I could lose everything, become a paraplegic hobo, and i still belisve i could come out on top. I would rather work on a fishing trawler in the yellow sea than kill myself.

God will kill me when he wants to I just have to wait.

>>82560802 (OP)
i live to spite others.

>>82560802 (OP)
whos the artist btw?

>>82561000
It's called fentanyl. You can combine it with a sedative (sleeping pills, etc) or take it on its own.

>>82561209
i dont get this mindset
generally speaking nobody cares if you live or die so youre basically just enslaving yourself to existence for no other reason than to spite people who dont even know you exist

Usually they use barbituates for euthanasia to my knowledge. You can mail-order pills and it is possible to dissolve and inject intravenously for a quicker effect with some effort.

>>82560802 (OP)
Both of them in picrel are gonna burn in hell lol

>>82561244
It's a philosophical question. What happens when you die? Do your memories and experiences during life matter? If not, what is the difference between suffering and pleasure? How do we determine the difference or that one is more favorable?

If suffering and pleasure are the same, how do we determine whether time matters? If we exist for an instantaneous infinitesimal moment versus an eternity, how could we tell? What difference would it make? If none, then time is in fact infinitesimal and irrelevant. In such a case, time is an emergent phenomena of our mode of interpreting our own existence, not a foundational and innate element of any supposed independent objective reality itself without interpretation.

Typically these are low grade beginner thoughts and less than 1% of the worldwide human population is capable of engaging with them at that level.

If you are going to take your own life, what difference is there between doing so or taking another life? If taking your own life might make a supposed reality better for others in some way, supposedly and only by assumption, then could taking another life instead do a greater good?

What would be the ideal or superior mode of action to commit to given these considerations? We assume that taking a life is just, in that it is justified based upon our overwhelming fear of life versus underwhelming barrier in fear of death. If so, what else is justified?

I got close friends and half a dozen family people that would feel really bad if I did it

I'm not running out of time anyways so I might as well try to fix my broken life

>>82561282
Words words words
You probably read Kant, huh?

>>82561357
No I look down on philosophers as childish, infantile emotional retards. Infinite assumptions, zero evidence.

I'm speaking of my own experience being seven years old after I drowned, or when I was 12 and my friend hung himself after begging me never to tell anyone or admit he wasn't alive.

Traumatic life experiences have an interesting way of displacing what was previously thought to be emotional intuition. After the emotions are suppressed and transformed, motivation ceases. One comes to realize it is impossible to will oneself not to draw breath. It is impossible to will oneself not to fear death. Therefore these are not free will, these are not freedom, these are not will, these are not choices or options. These are not aspects of the self. These are the bars of the prison within which the self is restrained.

>>82561357
He's a Schopenhauerist
>>82561377
Yeah, he's a Schopenhauerist.

>>82561415
Don't misattribute my beliefs according to your maligned assumed parallel with an infantile child's mind such as Schopenhauer.