Thread 82564284

I wish I had a mentally ill boyfriend so I can fufill all his needs. Mentally ill boys deserve love

>>82564284 (OP)
>mental
>>82564284 (OP)
>love

>>82564284 (OP)
Actions over words. No one will ever open up if they can't trust you.

>>82564295
How can I get one? Im a foomer and I stay home most days .

>>82564284 (OP)
please be in Poland, I need a misaki nakahara gf to help me get out of my hole and fix my hikikomori ways (in return for absolute obedience for the rest of my life)

>>82564316
Im from the uk better than America right?

>>82564284 (OP)
I'm mentally ill but not suicidal. I'm paranoid, wary of people, I get strange schizo delusions, I often feel worthless and like I have nothing to offer to anyone, but more often than not I'm manic and infinitely optimistic about everything. Other people, myself, humanity, the fate of the world, etc. I genuinely believe I have what people refer to as God in my corner

>>82564325
I guess... but you know, a ldr is a difficult thing to manage.... too easy to avoid? With men like me, we need an outside source of motivation and discipline, and I believe seeing, hearing and touching a loving woman every day would be perfect for that. Something to make the wagie life worth living, someon to promise to knowing I can't fail her, someone I know I can tell anything and expose all my vulnerabilities.

>>82564336
My mother is schizo . Last week she sliced her leg open because she thought there was a demon telling her to do it otherwise theyd burn our house down. Shes in crutches now

We love a mentally ill boyfriend as long as he is handsome, skinny and tall. If none of those things above
Then he was just another case of suicide in a sea of millions of suicidal men

>>82564345
I suppose so . Im just desperate to find someone
>>82564360
Shut the fuck up with muh chad you insufferable rat

>>82564369
Lol you just proved my point. (I was just another mentally ill *potential* boyfriend you ignored)

>>82564369
Why are you desperate?

>>82564325
>Im from the uk better than America right?
I'm from the UK as well... Are you up north or down south?

>>82564381
Because you started making up stupid scenarios like every other insufferable jeet on here no wonder youre single >>82564383
I miss accompanying someone and having someone I can ldr with

>>82564392
East Midlands Im 19

>>82564395
ldrs sound like asking for pain... I am a khhv but I think physical intimacy is very important, otherwise why not just be friends supporting each other?

>>82564347
I'm not schizophrenic but some schizo adjacent disorder runs in my family. My grandma has all these strange convictions about wires in the wall and people spying on her, dead relatives sending her messages, people coming to her house and bringing bugs inside while she's at the shops, things like that. I mostly just get paranoid thoughts about people lying to me or being out to get me, and sometimes I'll have strong intuitions about people. They're actually right quite often

>>82564426
I wouldnt mind that. I had a friend who I really liked (online) and he eventually got a gf and left from there. We would play games frequently and vc. Im saving myself for someone special as a khhv

>>82564284 (OP)
Why pickme over a suicidal bf? We aren't really great people I'm kind of a shitty boyfriend lol I don't understand what gravitates people like you to me, objectively shitty people shitty genes did you know that ADHD and a hyperbolic temperament are hereditary? Why are women attracted to literal dysgenics, I only have self-hatred to offer.

The worst part is that its people like you that tell me to keep living in this nightmare world, telling me and I'm selfish and shit and how me killing myself will cause other people grief otherwise I would have silently disappeared from this world a long, long time ago?

Why? Why won't you just let just sleep;forever?

>>82564410
>East Midlands Im 19
I'm way up north and I'm 27 lol. I live with a flatmate right now. Would you be willing to move? Not now of course.

>>82564447
Because Im one myself. I need someone like me so I can start to love myself also. I want a looks and personality match

>>82564456
I wont be able to move until Im in uni . I live with my parents and theyre strict, mostly the reason why Im asocial foomer. If I move to a uni outside of my city which would be in a year or so depending on the grades I get I probably could. I dont really see myself with a future

>>82564446
>>82564457
That is cool, but I think you need some english boy who you can visit and take on dates and hold hands and kiss

>>82564487
That would be nice. Hoping the same for you anon

>>82564475
Going to uni while depressed is ultra hard. Uni requires lots of independent motivation, discipline, time-management and creativity. Needless to say, all that suffers for depressive people. Don't go to uni unless you KNOW what you want to do and are willing to sacrifice a lot for it. Otherwise... take a gap year!

>>82564531
I have no choice. Let alone if I manage to get the grades I want , I'll just kill myself when I get bored of life. I have all the time in the world to spare

>>82564410
>nobody in devon
I suffer. American fags have it so easy, they could meet up with a random 4channer every week.

>>82564475
>I dont really see myself with a future
Times are hard but being able to get into a decent uni is a good first step. There are still different paths to lead a good life. I'm doing something completely different from what I've studied for, but if I keep going, I might actually be able to live a fairly comfy life. Do you have any dreams?

The world is awful but there are still nice things. I'm not from the UK and I was all alone, but I've met some nice people and travelled to some nice places since then. I guess I'm not suicidal, but I used to be depressed and now I am pretty much a fighter.

>>82564549
No you won't, that's silly. You still have lots of options other than uni. Life doesn't end if you drop out or not get a degree. There are lots of jobs that do not require it, and life does not have to center around your job.
You didn't tell me if you have something you know you want to do? If its just your parents pushing you- talk to them. Tell them you do not want to waste their money and dissapoint them. Tell them you'd rather they finance some other course or work program for you. Try getting any entry level job, if only for a few months. Please please dont make my mistake...
>>82564566
bro imagine being polish

>>82564566
try being in scotland

>>82564457
>Because Im one myself. I need someone like me so I can start to love myself also. I want a looks and personality match
Are you really? You sound like a really kind girl why not just get with literally any guy (not 4chan lol) who probably is able to properly stand up on his own legs and love you? I just think you deserve better...you sure you don't want fucked up troubled people like me just cause you don't feel worthy? But you are...I have bigger problems then finding a romantic relationship, like daily recurrent nightmares, health issues (seizures, lost my license lol) and generally being a useless piece of shit

Do I sound like a catch to you?

>>82564582
>bro imagine being polish
Nigger, imagine being Polish from fucking Podkarpacie, and ALSO living in fucking Devon, UK. I live at the edge of civilisation in both countries and I swear I'm the only 4channer there.

>>82564608
Oh come on, racism against poles cant be bad? I'm sure you can find someone there to love! It would be a lot worse if you lived in Bieszczady.

>>82564604
>I just think you deserve better
No she doesn't. That's like saying disfigured women deserve healthy mates while disfigured males deserve to rot alone

>>82564582
Ive already had past attempts and one close one . I just lack motivation to try again and the ideation of possibly finding someone also intrigues me >>82564604
Ive never experienced a relationship and if I could I would want one where I can trauma bond with someone and genuinely relate with. I want someone I can ldr with play games and smoke/drink with on an open rooftop . It might sound normie but I just want to find someone whos also in a shitty state so we could go through it together rather than me having a normal boyfriend who needs to deal with my constant switching state . Im also obsessive and have attachment

>>82564648
.bronzebanana

I warn you though I am pretty dead inside, I really like clingy people but you sound ripe for codependency, I would want to be your friend though but I think you should really focus on loving yourself, I am an illusion, I doubt I will turn out to be what you think I am.

>>82564620
>Oh come on, racism against poles cant be bad?
No no, it's not that. It's that both Devon and Podkarpacie are low-density rural provinces so nobody from our tribe lives there and even if they did, they're probably scattered across random villages with no real communication.
>I'm sure you can find someone there to love!
UK? Nah, I don't belong here. Poland? Sure but it's gonna be a pain in the ass since I'll probably be 30 when I get back to the fatherland. The sad part is that it's not even that, I'd love to just meet up with some random fags off here to be a public nuisance but I'd never advertise it because there's too much mental illness around.

>>82564648
Hrm cute foid would kiss. Definitely gonna get abused by BPD/narc psycho.

>>82564648
Jesus... yeah girl dont go to uni, first seek therapy and meds and get a qualification and get a job, then after a few years go to uni when you are strong enough to face it. Right now, the weight of all that responsibility and all those timetables to manage and work to be done and people to meet will crush you, I assure you. People like us need a simple, dependable life.

>>82564666
>>82564682
If I dont go to uni Id be better of dead to my parents. I had been admitted to therapy and a ward in the past for suicide attempts but it didnt do a thing. Ive also been put on meds and that didnt work. I tried to suppress myself with alcohol and weed , again nothing. I dont have much of a coping mechanism, the only thing i spend my life doing is studying to get into uni. My life is boring and plain if im not in class im at home on my bed. I have no plans for the future its either pass to go to uni or kill yourself

>>82564284 (OP)
You can't "fix" mentally ill people. If you're going into this with the intent of making him feel better you'll just grow frustrated that he never changes no matter what you do.

kek tinder dinner date level: briish

>>82564733
My plan isnt to fix him but to be there for him. I cant fix myself but I want to be able to manage with someone . We could cope off each other but not be cured

>>82564723
There are thousands of meds! Have you been taking them regularly? Talk to your psychiatrist and change up until you find one that works for you.
It's good that you study! But you need to have a concrete goal, not just 'study a bit of everything and get into any uni'. What is your passion? What area do you see yourself dedicating your life to?
>If I dont go to uni Id be better of dead to my parents.
They 'forgave' you for suicide attempts and ward visits, but won't for taking a gap year? Something that MILLIONS of NORMAL people do?

>>82564723
>If I dont go to uni Id be better of dead to my parents.
asian parents?
I can relate, they aren't wrong...it opens up alot of gateways its better than rotting on 4chan, you can still technically do that and still go to uni, the latter gives options...but I understand how suffocating it must be.

There are other paths to life. Take it slow, maybe just work and focus on getting well and not depressed and using alcohol and weed...if you're not happy you can't really do anything.

I wouldn't invest to much in "love (tm)"...but I understand. You probably want something to cling do. I can understand that.

>>82564766
the issue is see is that most people dont know what they want to do in life at 19. they roll the dice and pick a random subject, realize its not for them or get overwhelmed, drop out and have to get basic retail job. That happened to me. The way it should go is: young people spend months or years searching for their passion, maybe get a job and become independent, THEN go to uni

People are so close-minded, they don't even realize you can go to uni at any point in your life?

>>82564758
They didnt forgive me infact my mother calls me an attention whore for mutilaiting myself and my dad refuses to believe Im suicidal because of his status. Therapy is a scam and ive not tried any other meds before.>>82564766
Yep I mixed with some European thiugh but stil same fate.

>>82564792
>the issue is see is that most people dont know what they want to do in life at 19. they roll the dice and pick a random subject, realize its not for them or get overwhelmed, drop out and have to get basic retail job. That happened to me. The way it should go is: young people spend months or years searching for their passion, maybe get a job and become independent, THEN go to uni
pretty much, but its mostly about people's obsession with going fast and speedrunning life...the earlier to get that done the better but yeah I agree its stupid, people need to carve out their own pathes in the fog and jungle of life

>>82564793
Your doom-and-gloom thinking is clearly influenced by your depression. Try talking rationally with your parents. Present your arguments, try striking a deal. I'm sure they'd rather you heal and become a more functional person.

the idea you portray sounds nice but in reality becoming dependent on someone and them leaving after getting bored sounds like a good way for me to speedrun suicide. i want to get better and that is something that i can only do for myself. nobody can help me.

>>82564793
>They didnt forgive me infact my mother calls me an attention whore for mutilaiting myself and my dad refuses to believe Im suicidal because of his status.
Sorry to hear that...do you at least have people you can trust outside of drifting voices on 4chan, like childhood friends or people you relate to? Again, I can probably try and be a friend...but that's all I really have to offer.

But don't obsess over the fact your parents are shitty people...if you define yourself by them you will end up becoming their SHADOW. Live your own life, you are free, not destined to rebel nor obey.

>>82564819
I cant theyre close minded and orthodox Christians. If I go against then theyll just slap me and take away my phone >>82564832
I have no friends and I dont like anyone in my family. I grew up asocial and it affected me in early adulthood also. Ive already done a shit ton of stuff behind their backs but they have friends and people who recognise me . I once got snitched on for wearing shorts on a hot day by a neighbour to my parents. I can never win with them

If I lived in England I would definitely take you up on the offer OP, I think we have a similar idea of a relationship- two broken people supporting each other and helping each other grow or at least endure living, and spending time just chilling with no pressure or ambitions and definitely not trying to be a part of normie society. Clingy and possesive too.

>>82564293
hey i saw this bot last week

>>82564847
My dream life exactly. I want to love someone to the point I die with them

>>82564843
>I can never win with them
So don't fight. Fuck them, you don't need to be whatever they tell you to be. You are free to do whatever you want because that is your divine right as a human who was born into this world, and its your right as an adult citizen in your country. Fuck them, don't play their games or ask for their approval. Carve your own path independent of their dogma.

A wicked order is a system that deserves destruction. Never forget that.

Forget about your parents. Fuck what they want. What do [YOU] want?

>>82564284 (OP)
I'm in UK, used to have severe mental illness but it has stabilised to the point I can work. I wish I had a gf who could tolerate the bad times.

>>82564865
Dying is easy! I'd like to find a way to LIVE without constant struggle and suffering. I don't need much to be satisfied, just my basic needs (hunger, heat etc) satisfied, and a plot of land for tranquility and gardening. I'd like to spend days wandering around forests and fields, maybe with a dog, and sometimes just staying in bed all day cuddling and watching movies, and sometimes taking drugs or getting drunk toghether. I'd like to spend hours every day talking about anything and everything. I'd also enjoy cooking toghether or going on cycling trips.

>>82564895
I want thread :p

>>82564823
you're right. OP is seeking codependency, she is young so thats ok. It sounds like a good idea when you're young and haven't been in a relationship. In reality you need to be OK or very quickly grow into being OK to be in a relationship and have it survive.

>>82564823
>>82564914
What's wrong with codependency if your second half never leaves? And you are happily married forever?

>>82564905
That sounds like a dream life. Id love to do that. I want to go to a forest or nature ground holding hands with someone. I like night walks and cooking . Death would be my ultimate final choice since I want to atleast get away from my parents and find a boyfriend . My cat is also holding me back I want to save her from my mother . She tried throwing her off a 7 story building I love her so much

>>82564925
Its plausible OP. The only gf I ever had, we were both wrecks when we got together and it was pure copdendency. eventually I helped her get through college and get a real job, while I floundered and eventually left her in a psychotic rage. But we did get better together, gradually. If that never happens, you will tire of each other very quickly.

>>82564907
>I want thread :p
?
What is thread?
I don't really understand...

>>82564930
Cute cat! I'd like to get one... but first I need to get a job, I'm a totally broke neet. It is some responsibility, which I have always tried to avoid, so I've never gotten pets.
Your parents sound demonic, not religious... if you truly hate them, troll them with bible verses, the bible is all about being magnanimous and charitable and forgiving
>I want to go to a forest or nature ground holding hands with someone.
Yes! I've been learning my local trees and plants and I can't wait to shair that knowledge and passion with my future gf. Interesting- I'm 25 and just a few years ago, I knew nothing of plants and gardening, because I was so depressed that I had no passion and nothing interested me. I have recovered somewhat and now things actually interest me. Though I am still so very afraid of the world and people.

>>82564925
i've done that already. i married my first love and after a few years her feelings for me disappeared. then a few more years of her being spiteful and treating me like shit until i couldn't take it anymore and split with her. the feelings of others are capricious. while you feel the same they change. i do not trust people.

>>82564914
i completely agree.

I used to cut at the psychiatrist at the wing boning my crush and hitting me, nearly bled out from the cut and retarded at the surgery they gave but I am not suicidal anymore. Now I roll in lawsuit money. Being an employee here is nearly impossible, loyalty to the devil bullshit. Come out rich :D

>UK
Dropped

>>82564983
The thread subject >>82564989
Ive always liked trees and nature but I live in a shitty city where the closest forest ground is 1.5 hours away from me :,(

>>82565035
Well I did drop my discord ITT already...though I doubt I would be what you're looking for

>Ive always liked trees and nature but I live in a shitty city where the closest forest ground is 1.5 hours away from me :,(
Wtf that's vile here in Canada I can always find a forest at least 2 mins away from me even though its a major city

>>82565035
I used to be unable to tell spruce apart from larch, fir and yew, let alone beech from hornbeam and elm. Now I can tell apart most of my country's flora, and I am always learning more, each time leaving the house I come back with photos or leaves! I live in a bumfuck nowhere village so I get lots of pine plantations around, but...
some big cities have amazing parks and gardens. I mean, lots of unique, exotic trees, and huge ancient trees too. I bet your english city has some plane trees and sequoias, look around!
>>82565095
I'd love to visit Canada one day, great lakes region specifically, but also your famous acer/maple forests.
Have you seen tulip trees? I've seen singular in Poland but never in bloom, I know they are from America...

>>82565095
I didnt see the discord but the time zones would be a problem I dont see how itd be manageable

>>82565065
gtfo this is yandere romance thread not bdsm thread

>>82565143
its not bdsm its just how it is
like yeah ofcourse i'm gonna have sex with you if you stay here but i'm not gonna abuse you it's purely so you can have a nice place to stay and company. but then we do end up liking eachother

>>82565136
Fair fair, good luck finding someone anonnette...still i think the answer lies within your own heart, not stealing someone else's...but that's just my opinion.

>>82565130
>Have you seen tulip trees?
I have. They're rather beautiful, though not native to my area as far as I know, they do bloom here our climate in ontario allows for many things to bloom, like in toronto's high park there's a cherry blossom tree from japan that blooms in the summer. Our native flora is a little bit boring though.

>>82565143
always someone who has to ruin it lmao. i would love a yandere bf

>>82564314
Reach out to someone, if you're both physically attracted to each other that should spark connection to then build time together to build dependencies on his mental.

>>82565436
litterally who and where. ive been banned from suicide chat rooms and santioned suicide needs a vpn in the uk. im reaching out on r9k since i use it everyday. irl would never happen they only exist online

>>82565395
You'd be surprised how much of Japan gets regular snow! Their plants are weird, they seem to have their own version of everything from nuts to larch with weird blooming times. I once saw a japanese pagoda tree in Germany and was amazed, it also blooms in summer and has pearl-like fruits in... winter.
Ah, so much more to see of our temperate climates! I'd love to visit the great lakes region, and the pacific northwest, and northern japan/korea/manchuria, and Turkey. And then there are completely other bioms like mediterrenean, tropical, savanna, monsoon etc. And unique places like New Zeeland.
>>82565407
And I'd love to be a yandere bf for a yandere gf! Not the abusive type but the type that requires daily cuddling and wants to know everything about you and do everything toghether and sees you as a second half of himself and himself as a second half of you so egotism and altruism are meaningless

>>82565468
you're from the uk right? are u the anon who said he wants to get drunk do drugs go into forests? i wouldnt mind talking to you more if you want to ^^

>>82565496
I did say I want those things, but sadly, I live in Poland... that other guy is polish too and he lives in Devon. I enjoy talking to you too, so don't be shy about making more threads, and I hope you find someone you can meet!

>>82564410
>19
Nta but fuck why's everyone on here so young and so far away? Besides you wouldn't love my brand of mental illness. I know the entire world hates me for existing and there's nothing I can do/say to ever be given a fair shake. I just want to watch the world burn at this point. Luckily we're on the way there.

>>82565532
sigh its over for me

>>82565578
Yes it is, and that's probably for the best because you wouldn't get anything good out of meeting the faggots on here. Maybe you'll manage to acquire some self-realisation before you end up hooking up with a mentally ill abuser. POLSKA GUROM

>>82565578
It is never over and we can at least share fantasies and thoughts here! Not just in this thread, but over many more!

>>82565613
i want a mentally ill loser though so we could be 2 losers together>>82565620 i made 3 today all suicide related and only this one was popular

>>82565633
Oh, what were the other ones? I was away with my family. My family seems a lot better than yours since they actually love me, they were just incompetent and struggling with their own mental health issues that combined in me.

>>82565633
Hrm I was considering making a throwaway email to contact you so you're at least not lonely and you seem like you need the wisdom of a jaded, mature Slav but I'm not really a loser and I'm not looking for a girlfriend either.
>i made 3 today all suicide related and only this one was popular
Yeah because obviously >tfw no bf is going to attract all the flies.

>>82565666
why are you not looking for a suicidal teen yandere gf? Pedal?

>>82565659
one was about how suicidal men should date suicidal women the other one i forgot because it got no replies >>82565666 its okay ill just make more shitty threads instead. its good people are from europe for once its mostly american fags

>>82565687
Sounds like you need a big hug.

>>82564284 (OP)
I'm suicidal because the only people who think like you are trannies. I will never get an affectionate gf.

>>82565682
Sorki panie. If she was Polish then I'd be riding to her village to kidnap her right now but eh, I've spent enough time in this country to know that I 100% don't want to marry one of the natives and I've gotten to the point where I'm not solely motivated by my dick anymore.
>>82565687
>one was about how suicidal men should date suicidal women
lol those sorts of threads always seem like bait, if you treat this place like /b/ if it were a strip club for depressed losers like me and are a regular then you just filter them out in your mind.
>>82565714
That pic is literally me.

>>82565735
>I 100% don't want to marry one of the natives
That's racist! I'm sure there are good english people, how else would they have conquered the world? And I think she's not fully ethnically english anyway?
Why are you there if you hate them?

>>82565735
i guess but its retarded i cant even make depressive shit posts without needing to mention im a woman for it to get attention

>>82565756
Maybe you need better pictures, this one girl uses ame pics and always gets replies.

>>82564284 (OP)
i wish a savior complex girl showed up near me back when i was more unstable...
nowadays i'm kinda getting my shit together and am doing a lot better, but no thanks to anyone else

>>82565750
>That's racist! I'm sure there are good english people
That may be so, but they're nothing like me and I'm nothing like them. They just don't get it. Don't tell the rest of the stone cold trucels but I actually had a girlfriend in the past and they literally just don't get it, Slavic melancholy is an aberration to them and they don't want it to exist, they think they have to fix it. Our personality types are just incompatible.

>>82565756
Well... duh. We're already all depressed and miserable. Tell us something new. Again, this is /b/ but a dingy strip club. If only there were enough Polish gentlemen in the world to fix all the deranged femcels...

>>82565810
im mixed with some slav myself lmao >>82565787
maybe..

>>82565840
>im mixed with some slav myself lmao
There's no helping it then, you're obligated to become a Polish nationalist.

>>82565454
I think that's something you'll have to work on yourself. I also think that love is important and needs to be the basis of all care. I think it would be wise not to seek someone out based on a trait they have and to seek them out because of who they are as a personn

>>82564284 (OP)
Aren't all fags openly trying to bugger aids into the population, what draws the line between murderer and suicidal?

>>82565870
im russian mix gulp but poland is based country i like dominik

>>82564284 (OP)
you glowniggers used to be covert with this mkultra stuff baka

>>82565908
yueueruehuruerheuueueurueueueueueuueueueue russian princesses! !!! !! !!

Where's the other Polak? We need to discuss this. My mother says that she'd only be angry if I married a Ukrainian or a German but Russians are ok. I have nothing against Ukrainians but I also would be very happy with a Russian wife though I've been called a ruski ocun in the past by an idiot.

>>82564284 (OP)
would you leave me after so called fixing me?

>>82565936
im like 25% and i look more caucasian than russian lmao. i heard ukrainian refugees are a nightmare in poland tho

>>82565950
not at all its not a fetish to only like suicidal and mentally ill people for that sole purpose. if we're both happy why would i

>>82565952
That's not really a bad thing, I'm told that Caucasian women are actually beautiful, but their men are chimpanzees and are really protective. My mother semi-hates Ukrainians because of the refugee situation but my thinking is that the problems come from our government being retarded. If they struck a deal with Zelensky along the lines of "if one of yours commits crimes here, we'll send them to your army so you can throw them into a minefield. deal?" then you'd immediately see Ukrainians behaving like proper respectable and civilised Poles.

>>82565984
>if we're both happy why would
sounds like the dream, do you use discord or want talk over email?

>>82566025
yeah ive heard about that lmao >>82566079
would we ever meet and how old are you? im 19 uk

>>82566091
have you been sexually active?
>would we ever meet
ideally yes, the sooner the better, I like rain so uk would be fine but would prefer to live near my family in nc, since theyve supported me so much
>how old are you?
26

>>82566152
no im khhv and wheres nc?

>>82566168
>nc
east coast state in the USA above Florida but 2 states, North Carolina

>>82566207
long distance isnt going to work sos

>>82566222
just fly over I just wanna be loved too

>>82566294
lulz i'm not your femcel princess but do you not know how poor people in the uk are? you think they can just fly to america like that?

>>82566294
i cant and time zones is going to be a problem>>82566317
im not poor

>>82566330
>time zones problem
im a neet so timezone difference wouldnt be a problem

>>82566450
im talking about how when im asleep youre awake. 6 hours is a lot and we'd be talking mostly during 8pm doing nothing

>>82566466
if ur legitimately interested I would align my schedule with urs, this wouldnt be a problem

>>82566510
i want something physical

>>82566530
same, thats always been when im looking for too, tho maybe im more willing to try online first then you are..

>>82566554
online wouldnt be a problem if you lived in the same country . i really want to do stuff like cutting eachother and hanging out smoking,drinking etc

>>82566572
one of my dream fantasies is to snuggle up with a cutie who likes me and share a cigarette on the back porch at night

>>82566631
that would be very cute. id love to go on night stolls in a park and smoke with someone. id let him use me as an ashy tray

>>82566668
painfully pulling at my heart stings, quite the shame you only want something local

>>82564410
im from north also 19 if you'd want to get to know each other long distance for a bit

>>82566914
North of England? That would be so fun. What are your hobbies and interests?

>>82567136
its hard to say, i kinda dont get out that much, i like listening to music, i used to play games but i dont that much anymore, i only go out to my boxing gym and uni, sorry im a little boring, what about you?

>>82567239
Dont worry Im practically a stay at home neet when im not in college. I just play games mostly and sleep. I like smoking and drinking redbull with vodka. I read and cook when Im in the mood

>>82567260
i can hardly cook at all lol... what kind of books do you read? i used to read but i dont very much anymore. i don't smoke, but i'm pretty big on vodka too, at least we have that in common

>>82567340
I read Nietzsche mostly . Id say im nihilist. Are you suicidal or mentally ill?

>>82567353
i can kinda resonate with nihilism in the sense that im a very cynical person. sorta both, ive been wronged most my life by people, ive attempted twice, came close to a third last month but i didn't end up doing it.

>>82567394
Hm I see hows your social life like then? Im asocial and dont like talking much with people , I dont have much friends either. I wouldnt mind getting to know you more if you want to

>>82567421
i have a really small social circle and i have like 2 people i speak to at my college, im pretty anti social and have hard time speaking to anyone. outside of that its just people online i talk to, which still isnt many. i'd be happy to get to know you more for sure

>>82564582
I used to talk to a polish fembot 9 years ago, her name was Ewa. She was very shy and trad and I think wanted to just marry and devote herself to the first guy to talk to her

>>82567444
What platforms do you use ? Ill give you my username or vice Vera up to you. Its good we are the same age and in the same country. Sounds too good to be true even

>>82567481
i could do discord or insta if you wanna talk on either of those, im not really active anywhere else... and yeah it does.. i hope we can learn more about each other

>>82567587
I have discord my user is lun3sta

>>82567587
>>82567629
>ukanons thinking they can be robots
try being in mainland europe

>>82567629
i added you over there

>>82567639
Europe is better than America

>>82564284 (OP)
what for?? so you can make him happy and then break his heart by abandoning him one day without even saying good bye huh HUH??? is that what you want? you want him to get even more depressed and mentally ill driving him to self harm and attempt suicide huh??? you heartless bitch?