Thread 82761615

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

friday is here !
I can see the light !!

Hey
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now

hii
Here's a bunch of helpful links

>a long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

> wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

>call into meeting with someone first time need to meet with
>video turns on and new anime figure on shelf is in view
>jerk camera other direction
>now see katana in the background
>jerk camera awkwardly upward so it's just a bit too high, but nothing weird is in view
That was a bit rough, but on the bright side found out I actually weigh more now than I've ever weighed in the past prior to the time I lost a bunch of weight, so pretty proud of that.

>>82761615 (OP)
hey cat, how's your day going?

>>82761615 (OP)
>>How are you doing today?
bored, tense, anxious, sad, lonely, lost
>>Any plans for today?
go to the library if it stops raining, or go to the church later. mom wants me to cook chicken and mashed potatoes.
>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
august. suicide attempt.
>>Why did you hurt yourself?
good question. i was just in a lot of pain and it seemed like my efforts to improve my life were all in vain. i felt like a burden to those i loved and falsely believed i was doing them a favor.
>>Is there anything bothering you right now
back home from treatment and i have nothing meaningful to do or look forward to. i hope it stops raining soon. i have to walk my dog.

>>82761711
u have an anime figurines and a katana? :0
cool, what figures do u have?
>weigh more now than I've ever weighed
all muscle
>how's your day going?
just relaxing and nice
decided to post some more maps on gamebanana to share them with the world

>>82761615 (OP)
heya! how's everyone doing?
hru cat?

>>82755990
>I miss having them around
oh did you move out? also i know how strange it feels not having cats around anymore, miss their silliness.
>some people hust too cut throat
that sucks really, do you get enough healthy social connection besides people from work?

>even if now is less than great
well they say "thankful that it happened" or smthn :)
i hope you find more kind people! good luck pal

why are you helping people not kill themselves

>>82761852
Heloo anon
>tense, anxious, sad, lonely, lost
doesn't sound like a good day then :<
>library if it stops raining, or go to the church
hope you manage to go and enjoy ur time there
>suicide attempt.
I know it might sound mean but glad you're still kicking it
and in one piece and not disabled from it (hopefully)
>improve my life were all in vain. i felt like a burde
has any of that changed?
>home from treatment and i have nothing meaningful to do or look forward to
sorry to hear that
do you think you could change any of that?

>>82762156
heya
I'm doing okay been chilling today and got some shoes :3
and also uploaded a map to gamebanana
How are youu!?

>>82762235
i have tremors due to nerve damage and a gnarly scar on my neck. i'm playing crow country and might replay celeste later.
>change
i'm taking medication and my sense of humor has matured

>>82762349
if someones bedroom looks like that they genuinely need to be put in a mental asylum, bring asylums back NOW

>>82761879
>u have an anime figurines and a katana? :0
yes. The katana is from my brother. Since no good weeb can be without a katana
>cool, what figures do u have?
way more than I should now. Sakura and Saber from Fate, Rem from Re:zero, Megumin from Konosuba, some girls from some obscure JRPG's I played, every single Monika figure ever made (I count her as anime girl even if it's a game I suppose), and a Makima from chainsaw man.
>all muscle
actually yes which is why I was so damn shocked to see I weigh more than when I didn't have any muscle
>share them with the world
maps you made? work on anything cool lately?

>>82761852
hi anon, sorry you're feeling so down. know it doesn't feel like there's much you can do to improve life, but usually is something. So don't be so hard on yourself
>go to the library i
do you read? or just getting out of the house
>cook chicken and mashed potatoes.
do you like cooking? or is that like a chore? find that kind of enjoyable personally

>>82762156
hey rm! how's your day going?
>oh did you move out?
Yeah I moved out a lot long time ago. I'm a bit older than a lot of posters here, just been on 4chan such a long time
>miss their silliness.
me too. I have a shitty relationship with my family, but I do miss the cats
>healthy social connection besides people from work?
Decent enough. I have a couple friends talk to frequently enough, one I talk to nearly everyday, and a girlfriend, so no complaints other than wishing offices were more friendly places.

hands cold asf it's hard to type, i'll reply later hope the thread stays up

just a little bump because im gaming

>>82762349
>tremors
that's sucks
but it could be worse if
maybe they'll get better over time?

>>82762235
>chilling and got some shoes
have fun and woah congratulations! :>
>uploaded a map to gamebanana
were you making a map the whole time?? :O
how long did it take? what game also btw

>how are you
so bad

>>82762534
>older than a lot of posters
desu it's kinda clear from the way you type idk maybe im imagining things, also "office anon" sounds older than some others xd

>shitty relationship with my family
that's sad, is it fixable?

>other than wishing offices were friendly
mhm i see, lack of social connection was surely gonna make things worse, hope you get even happier!

>how's your day going?
bad desu

>>82763054
have fun! and do tell what game you're playing!

>>82763165
>kinda clear from the way you type
Idk, I've tended to sound more serious even when I was younger(I'm 31 now), but suppose the things bring up are older too. We've got a mix of people, both regulars and more infrequent but recognizable posters that are all over the place though.
>also "office anon" sounds
especially compared to a lot of people being in school still.
> is it fixable?
debatable. I'd say biggest problem of all is the fact it's not really my fault, as much as I don't have particularly nice parents. I don't hate them by any means, but also realize they are the problem, not me. Have to accept you can't change people fundamentally.
>bad desu
anything at all you want to talk about? Or not really? Either way, hope the weekend will go better for you. Hopefully enjoyment out of it.

>>82762349
>>82762349
>playing crow country and might replay celeste later.
have fun!
>taking medication and my sense of humor has matured
hm maybe they doctor accidentally prescribed you funny pills instead of the anti depression ones

>>82762534
>katana is from my brother. Since no good weeb can be without a katana
:0
have you used it?
>every single Monika figure ever made
hehe what a collector :3
>actually yes
good job :D
have you been working out harder?
>maps you made?
yep ^^
>work on anything cool lately?
I wanna make a autumn one but idk if I'll find the time :<

>>82762843
why are you coldd??! D:

>>82763165
heyoo
>fun
thanks
> and woah congratulations! :>
haha thank you ^^
well I don't have them yet but I bought them today
>were you making a map the whole time?? :O
I mean like a game level for half life 2 :3
>how long did it take?
this one didn't take much
made it few months ago I think it took maybe a day or two
I'll share a pic in a sec
>so bad
what happened??? D:

>>82763467
played a little bit of peak

>>82763165
that's how it looks like basically (since that pic i also added little snow piles on the ground)

>>82761615 (OP)
>>How are you doing today?
pretty poor.
>>Any plans for today?
I went to my drug test for the new job and no one was there.
Spent the day planning to buy stocks because the market is down.
>>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
Probably soon
>>Why did you hurt yourself?
I feel really down. like all the kindness I had at my last job was fake and dropped once I transferred out. i was offensive to the people who treated me best. I've been thinking about it a lot lately and today I started smacking myself.
>>Is there anything bothering you right now
I've gotten fatter. I don't interact with a lot of people anymore.
>>82754396
>can't act on what you don't know.
yeah, but I could've picked the job i knew I liked even if they weren't promoting me. And my mistake was giving the interviewer the benefit of the doubt when a more skeptical version of me would've correctly assumed she was lying.
>>82754577
>feels like that came out forever ago now.
yeah I just don't game much
>might be the thing to push me to get a switch 2
I see no point really. those are expensive.

>>82763925
heyoo
>pretty poor.
sorry to hear this
I hope you feel better soon fren
>my drug test for the new job and no one was there.
what? where did they all go?
ao you couldn't get the test?
>Spent the day planning to buy stocks
good luck
maybe you could trt doing something to relax a little maybe you could watch some anime?
>Probably soon
I think it'd be best if you don't but if you do try to at least not do much damage
>like all the kindness I had at my last job was fake
that's awful :c
>i was offensive to the people who treated me best
what happened? if it's okay to ask
>I've gotten fatter
I'm sure you'll loose it of you keep working out with your weighted thingy :>
>more skeptical version of me would've correctly assumed she was lying.
maybe but you had no reason to be more sceptical then
and at least now you know to be more like that

>>82763467
>I've tended to sound more serious even when I was younger
interesting desu
>I'm 31 now
kinda expected that when u said that you're older than most of posters, that's nice!
>but suppose the things bring up are older too.
yeah pal, maybe

>We've got a mix of people......posters that are all over the place though.
yup i think that's true

>especially compared to a lot of people being in school still.
yeah also that it directly says that you're working, like "office" if you get what i mean

>they are the problem, not me. Have to accept you can't change people fundamentally.
mhm i see how the situation is, i hope everything gets better somehow then

>anything at all you want to talk about? Or not really?
ehhhh overthinking it'd take time to talk about everything, i might talk later in the thread tho, thanks :>

>hope the weekend will go better for you. Hopefully enjoyment out of it.
thanks! u2 mate!

>>82763794
>why are you cold
i was outside in a cold place for some time idk maybe for 2 hours or a little less

>well I don't have them yet but I bought them today
nice nice! when will you get them?

>I mean like a game level for half life 2
woaah (atp i suppose you like valve games?)

>made it few months ago I think it took maybe a day or two
isn't that crazy? :O
i don't know much about this so idk if it usually takes a little time or not

>>82763819
>that's how it looks like basically
the winter vibe is so cooooooooooool i like it and the vibe of the comfy house! gj really :>


>what happened?
overthinking and felt so strange as if i'm barely feeling anything good but i'm better now. man i miss my friend

>>82764265
>was outside in a cold place
are u comfy at home now?
>when will you get them?
hmm maybe tuesday
>suppose you like valve games
yes :3 wbu?
>don't know much about this so idk if it usually takes a little time or not
hm it probably depends on how big or detailed you want it to be
>winter vibe is so cooooooooooool i
thank youu ur very nice
>overthinking and felt so strange
well let's not overthink now
maybe let's think about something nice like the weekend :]
do u have any plans?
>but i'm better now
I'm happy to hear this but sending hugs nonetheless

>>82763794
>have you used it?
no, but if anyone ever breaks in they're in for a surprise!
>what a collector
It was the first time I got hit by the concept of waifu. And unfortunately wasn't the last
>have you been working out harder?
i suppose i've been progressing. Increased weights and forced myself to eat a little more. That last part is the big of it since you get no where unless you eat
>I wanna make a autumn one
would be nice and fitting with time of year, but pesky other things get in the way i suppose

>>82763819
nice little atmospheric cabin, cool

>>82763925
hey cynic. Sorry to hear you're feeling down. Try to hang in there and hold if you can. Have any weekend plans? or anything to look forward to?
>I had at my last job was fake and dropped once I transferred out.
i hate this so much. When I announced I was leaving my last job, attitudes just went to shit. Manager especially felt petty, passive aggressive, and annoyed. People get funny when you're leaving. Maybe some is stress thinking about what's next, but it ain't right still
>yeah I just don't game much
that's fair. I don't as much as i used to, but always look out for mario games when they come along. Just sadly nothing on the horizon it seems

>>82764206
>interesting desu
I'm both one of the more serious people and least serious at the same time funnily enough. Like I posted a year ago about how I was getting skateboarding lol
>, like "office" if you get what i mean
name "officeanon" actually came from Yuanon calling me that a few times. Think I complained about something a few times when I first came here, and it stuck. Do think it makes me seem more serious than intended, but that's the reason I don't just post pictures of offices!
> hope everything gets better
appreciate it! I can say I at least made peace, which is best you can do in life at times
>take time to talk about everything, i might talk later in the thread tho
lot of us here have plenty of time if you wanna go into it. Will keep an eye out. though also might call the computer quits soon. I keep odd hours and tend to randomly crash out suddenly sometimes

hiya /cut/ long time no talk once again, got a job still living with girlfriend. i hope you all are well or at some point will be.

sleep time gn

>>82764448l
>they're in for a surprise!
is it sharp?
>unfortunately wasn't the last
wait you're cheating on your waifu???
>no where unless you eat
hope you won't have to buy all a bunch of new clothes
>pesky other things get in the way i suppose
>:c
>cool
thank you :>

>>82764565
Heya ^^
>got a job still living with girlfriend
so things are going well? :o
>hope you all are well or at some point will be.
thank you they're goin okay

>>82764338
>are u comfy at home now?
yup
>hmm maybe tuesday
nice it's not taking long right?
>wbu?
didn't finish half life but i like counter strike, i don't remember playing anything else from valve :>
>hm it probably depends on how big or detailed you want it to be
mhm i see
>thank youu ur very nice
np, just saying what i really think is true :))
>well let's not overthink now
maybe let's think about something nice like the weekend
what a weekend.. tomorrow is my final day before 2 exams
tomorrow's morning i'll also have the hormone test (again) that takes alot of time, 3 blood draws, i'll be exhausted asf i don't know how will i study well after that
im feeling down again, guess i'll just eat smthn while watching videos then sleep

>I'm happy to hear this but sending hugs nonetheless
thanks!! *sending hugs too*

>>82764458
>I'm both one of the more serious people and least serious at the same time funnily enough.
which is cool tho
> Like I posted a year ago about how I was getting skateboarding lol
lol i wish i was there

>Yuanon calling me that a few times
lol thats funny
the yuanon effect
i always noticed the similarity between the 2 names, at some point i started thinking you both are the same person
>at least made peace, which is best you can do in life at times
yeah that's way better than leaving things doomed, happy for you

>lot of us here have plenty of time if you wanna go into it. Will keep an eye out.
thanks really :)

>I keep odd hours and tend to randomly crash out suddenly sometimes
understandable, i hope you have a comfy night!

>>82764565
hiya!
>got a job
woah congrats!!
>i hope you all are well or at some point will be.
i hope you too pal

>>82764193
hi cat
>and also uploaded a map to gamebanana
oh cool, how's the map been received?
>ao you couldn't get the test?
I don't care anymore i guess. I wasn't looking forward to working there anyways.
>I think it'd be best if you don't
probably, I guess I just haven't been alone for a long time.
>what happened? if it's okay to ask
it's just something I never realized was a problem. Or I'm assuming I was a problem. why else would I just be cut off? maybe there's a reason, but I can't help but think I was too much to deal with.
>I'm sure you'll loose it of you keep working out with your weighted thingy :>
I might just start spending the whole morning in the gym at this point.
>>82764448
hi officeanon
>Have any weekend plans? or anything to look forward to?
Yeah, I got a concert this weekend.
>Manager especially felt petty, passive aggressive, and annoyed.
It's weird that it feels like I only noticed what was probably passive aggressivness after the fact. So now I'm reading into everything.
>always look out for mario games when they come along.
I feel like should just start emulating old mario games.

gonna distract myself with mario and go to bed.

>>82763925
i should've replied earlier, i need to sleep now i wish i could reply to everything but i really hope you feel better now and get everything peacefully, good night cynic