>>82766067
Hard to say. The short answer is that I let go of attachment that no longer did me any good. Attachments to people, ideas, goals, parts of my identities. I know it sounds like a whole bunch of hocus bogus self help bullshit, but along the way through life you pick up alot of emotional damage along the way and you keep carrying that shit around, especially if you're a guy and have been told to stop crying all your childhood so emotional processing is completely foreign to you.
I wish I could tell you some trick that would allow you to do the same, but I dont have one and to be frank, my own came in the shape of a big mental breakdown that had me in and out of psychiatrists offices for the better part of 2 years.
And I cant say that my self loathing, pessimistic outlook on life gone and general neuroticism, but from the volume being a constant 7 and peaking at 11, it now hovers around an 1-2.
But from walking around from age 14 to 29 having suicial thoughts and just bogged down in self loathing and defeatism every single day, now I havent had a suicidal thoughts in years. I had just accepted that I would always feel that way and now I dont. The worst part is that you end up feeling a bit lost without it because being depressed all the time became a part of your emotional core and feeling normal all the time is so alien to you.
I know this shit sounds fucking gay so disregard it and google suicide techniques if you want, but maybe talk to someone? You dont have to feel this way forever, I thought I would but here I am.
