Thread 82774508

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Background: I got exposed to hypnosis a long time ago now, never really stopped watching it, and I escalated to "Mind Fuck" Porn or over edited Porn and Porn Addiction encouragement that has been a huge part of my sexuality for about a decade. I come here to talk about my feelings or sometimes post Gooner-type confessions.

>Confession Time
I found some really well done audio files by Goddess Athalia, Juggernaut II that encouraged a love, obsessive lust, with huge tits. Juggs. I found this file at least 6 months ago, and in it towards the end I vaguely remember her describing an escalating addiction to big tits that starts small but keeps getting more intense.

During a particularly deep Goon session under roughly 150 MG of THC, I really gave into this file and looped it and stared at tits Gooning for about three hours straight.

Not all files can really make me mentally surrender and zone out like that, so I knew it was uniquely strong.

Since then, my collection of Macromastia Porn, huge hanging tits, has grown to a pretty crazy size.

My collection of downloads of Pornographic videos and photos, hentai, everything I USED to estimate was 700 downloads... Digging through it yesterday I realized in a single month I was downloading 300 things. Almost all, big juggs.

I moved into my own apartment, finally able to be alone and be myself and my Porn addiction has escalated and it feels, so, fucking, goooodddd.

I do probably look like a drug addict, my apartment with almost no furniture, the incense smell from I burn during a Porn Worship session, matching dual monitor setup, I am sure if anyone else entered I LOOK like a Porn addict.

My rolling chair mat has cum stains... But:

I've gone incredibly deep, and I should want out... but I don't.

I'm genuinely happy.
I love Porn, I enjoy it.
I get what I need to get done, I'm losing weight, life is better than ever now.

>>82774508 (OP)
i can't blame you pal, big boobas are too strong...

>>82774508 (OP)
I genuinely understand someone might read something like this and see it as a LARP or at least "The dude who wrote this is a loser."

I have a good and fulfilling career working a job I actually enjoy and I'm paid decently for my area, I'm not thriving but I'm doing more than surviving. I have friends, keep in contact with family, etc. My dick is average, I'm tall, every gf I've ever had approached me.

I was also trained to be a submissive, to obey and be led by others. So I look like this big strong man, but sexually I'm an obedient slave.

I look forward to Gooning and just indulging myself in carnal, physical pleasures on the weekends when there's "nothing else to do."

Even though I know it's taking my time, some of my money from buying Porn made for my specific tastes of mind fucking, but I smile with my eyes even in my "sessions" of deep surrender.

I should see it as an evil, but at this point I don't, because the rush of giving into carnal pleasure is just as strong as the urge.

I'm functional as a person, but the urges slowly build up, and it's time to indulge again.

Thanks for giving me kind words when I wanted to kill myself about 50 days ago /R9K/

Sorry if I repulse you in any way, but these are sincere thoughts and confessions.

>>82774550
Collecting, finding, the pure infiniteness of Porn gets me.

Booboholics is a wonderful video editor, Smutcutz, if you want to see some huge irl tits too, can't recommend his edited works enough since it gets me Gooning every weekend.

>>82774508 (OP)
IRLs and hentai both have me hooked

>>82774508 (OP)
>I found some really well done audio files by Goddess Athalia, Juggernaut II that encouraged a love, obsessive lust, with huge tits. Juggs.
I don't have any macromastia obsession, but I'm interested in these if you're willing to point me in the right direction. Sometimes great descriptions, dialogue, and sound design are more potent than visuals imo.

>>82774508 (OP)
I don't really get the hypnotism stuff, but I'm into the same extreme proportions stuff plus inflation, so I can't judge. What is your opinion on inflation, anon?

>>82775030
It's a hoop jump through file. You can find it from femdom-pov.net, which takes you to a Keep2Share slow download file BUT it's small in size. You can find her work there.

You can taste her work by searching for "Lobotomizer - Tits & Ass Obsession" on SpankBang.com, that's how I rediscovered and feel in love with her voice and her audio design work is phenomenal.

I recommend Goddess Brianna Beretta more though, she has to be a sound technician or something. You can find some of her stuff on femdom-pov.net too.

I've always been prone to trance, and it comes naturally to me if I can find someone I believe is worthy of my submission. Athalia has a beautiful voice and is a wonderful editor, as is Brianna Beretta, I adore them both.

>>82775090
Inflation is something I get a taste for every few weeks at most but I don't dislike it as a kink, just not one I'm huge on.

I genuinely just kept finding so many files encouraging big tits addiction and then wonderful massive tits Porn and I can't stop. I've been stuck on huge tits for months, before that it was always just Porn Addiction Encouragement in general. Now I love tits, and that's being shifted into an ass obsession by new files I've been finding.

There's always new Porn being made, and I obey it probably more than the average consumer of even the kind of Porn I love.

>>82775167
omg Steam sale girl

>>82775238
To me she was just tit meat. I do play some games here and there but Porn and YouTube are my main hobbies. It's all beautiful though and recognizing an icon is always hot.

It's like there's two of me. Part of me reveres innocence and purity, part of me relishes the destruction and corruption of it. It's a constant war and I regret to say the latter is winning...

>>82775269
Feeling myself get slowly more and more corrupted by my Porn addiction is itself so fulfilling. I've especially been relishing in the idea of losing memories for more of my brain to be storing Porn in my head. I understand completely.

>>82775257
>>82775269
Yeah, I love seeing arts of my favorite characters either size-boosted or inflated. However for me I feel like the fantasy is kinda opposite to what you like. I like the idea of a girl getting inflated and kinda just completely losing herself in sensation and pleasure.

>>82775290
I hope you get out... For me it's been so long. I don't know if I can get out, I hoipe. To vanguish the dark evil part of myself.

>>82775323
It's exaclty what I live... |the most pure character being crrupted. Pat of me loves it , part of me hates it, a constan war between the two parts of myself..

>>82775323
I guess my sexuality is probably pretty self obsessed in that I view my masturbation and Gooning habits, masturbating for a long time, as a form of worship of Porn itself, Porn as a concept. Something that exists in a million forms and causes arousal, and lately that too has been shifting to a worship of technology as a whole.

That is what most of the Porn I consume revolves around in themes desu, anything beyond that is a visual taste, a kink, something I like.

Corruption and parasite play has always been hot, and I can watch people mentally surrender any day, but that to me doesn't tend to transform to anything besides maybe Bimbo or Hucow tf.

>>82775370
Me personally I think my liking for huge boobs and such is honestly less sexual. Like yeah it's hot, but what I mainly want is to just like hug and cuddle a girl who is like that.

>>82775324
I discovered brainwashing content so early I may have been a secret test subject or something, deadass. I'm 10 years brainwashed now, trying to quit caused me a ton of distress, emotions, and I was hearing command phrases and moans in my head.

I tried to get out, just a few months ago. A genuine try. It's too late. It was probably too late several years ago. I'll pump for screens till the day I die I imagine, with or without a partner who can do that too.

I may miss the companionship but I'm sexually completely satisfied.

>>82775396
Being 13 years old on 4chan fucked me up, I hope ther's hope for us both

>>82775395
Imagining myself groping them, or hell if sizes like that were real, lying in and dry humping tits that massive or just existing as I am staring at them and stroking, all of that is hot to me. :)

I love that everyone gets different things out of their sexual persuasions of choice. I really do.

>>82775413
That is the thing... I'm happy now. I get why people would want to quit but acceptance of my nature, true acceptance of this as a sexuality and way of life that countless others have taken, I find that really liberating. And I may still yet find a partner to love. :)

when you get so dependant on porn and your libido gets fucked randomly one day for a week or two it really fucks with you, at least when youre a drug addict as long as you take your drug everything is fine, I hate that porn addiction is the only coping method I have

>>82775563
I've been in a bit of a Porn haze on and off for about two months now of a daily routine, fluctuating levels beyond that in my past. My true deepest addiction was during 2020 lockdown back when I was 21.

You can get some other dopamine through things like YouTube, the human brain is easy to please when it comes to dopamine, either that or you could watch Porn with more editing, colors, etc. to help you feel better. :)

I'm a Porn Addict for sure, have been for a long time, but there is something to be said about going bowling or doing something outside of your comfort zone here and there too, just go out and do a certain entertainment task for new stimulus... Thus new dopamine. That's not me saying to "just stop being sad" it's neuroscience, do a new activity for new stimulation.

Or go find more new Porn, there's always more every single hour of every single day. ;)