Thread 82790834

I thought I was depressed, because I was lonely and fat.
I invested into ozempic and bought box diet and lost 40kgs in a year. I installed dating apps despite reading that it is a waste of time.
I'm getting matches fairly regularly, but... I don't care about them. I don't enjoy writing to semi-retarded women. Then I realized that I'm growing apart from friends, because I don't care anymore and I haven't befriended anyone in like 4 years (I found some gaming pal, but I still don't give a shit about him). I'm not miserable because I'm lonely. I'm alone because I don't care about people. I'm miserable just because.
I'm a terrible person and there is nothing I can do about it.
I'm struggling with depression and I take meds, but what is the point of living if I'm going to be unhappy no matter what goal I reach?
All I genuinely want to do is play video games, watch youtube, eat fat foods and drink/smoke weed, but even pleasure from this doesn't counter the stress from work and life stuff

tl;dr also I'm gonna wank on my own shit LOL

You in Japan rn?

>>82790834 (OP)
just stop caring and start drinking daily, life is pain but alcohol numbs it down to a degree

>>82790834 (OP)
what kind of job do you have? how do you behave around coworkers?

>>82790956
A 20 day drinking binge destroyed my ability to enjoy alcohol. If I even have a six pack I'll wake up the next morning with an anti-hangover. I don't know how to describe the way it feels, my theories are low blood pressure or diabetes. It's the strangest sensation and gives me panic attacks. I won't go to the hospital and will probably continue drinking although I feel like I'm dying.

>>82790939
No. It's photo from holidays. This was nice, but I had to borrow money for that.
>>82790956
I have too strong hangovers to become an alcoholic. Weed is more fun, but it is pointless to smoke everyday, because it builds tolerance.
>>82791158
IT analyst. Pointless corpo shit, but I legit don't imagine working anywhere else. I'm working half of time from home and half from office. I'm nice and coworkers are nice, but that's all.

>>82791511
I miss spending time in Japan myself.

>>82791511
how long were you in japan and what is there to do for a lonely robot?

>>82791625
I wasn't alone. I took my younger brother, because I promised him to sponsor this trip once.
I wanted to visit all popular spots in Kansai region, but I got fever and I couldn't do anything for 3 days, so when I was able to walk without fainting, I did a speedrun of sightseeing in Osaka and Kyoto. I ate lots of good food and took lessons of fighting katana for fun
After that I went to Tokyo. I walked around some museums, saw some parks, gardens and temples. But most of the time I was in Akihabara (where I had hotel) playing rythm games drunk. Also I was in a maid cafe and I felt immeasurable amount of traumatizing cringe to the point it was funny