Thread 82812659

why do you hate yourself?
>i dont
then did question not for you :b

*this
im tired

>>82812659 (OP)
I used to, but now I don't
I think I had male BPD

>>82812659 (OP)
I can't see value in my life by myself, so I don't try to improve and I don't think I'm good enough to share my life with anyone else.

Bad loop.

because im a manchild and im also both a pedophile and into pedophile women because of being a man child

i think i am objective moral evil and i dont even believe in objective morality

>>82812659 (OP)
I don't have the mental ability that most people do. I'm not saying i'm retarded all I'm saying i'm pretty close to being one. I can't talk like normal people and it's gotten in the way of making friends my whole life.

>>82812659 (OP)
i'm useless, i'm not even capable of being a wageslave

>>82812659 (OP)
I dont treat people very well and they are not terribly important to me, even if they have been nothing but kind.
In fact, when people are too good to me, I start to really dislike them. Like, I respect them less for some reason. Especially when I pull back (knowing that Im starting to resent them and trying to avoid it) and then they reach out anyways, not taking the hint.
I know Im being objectively unfair to people who only have my best interest in mind. But I get unreasonably repulsed by people who are too invested in me.
And I myself am only ever really invested in people who dont care too much. The second they reciprocate, Im out. This goes for anyone. Friends, family, etc.

I dont value people enough. Especially the ones that care about me. I know this, and I still do it.
So I feel like that sort of makes me fundamentally shitty as a person

>>82812659 (OP)
I escaped into the internet and treated it like reality to cope with my abusive parents. meanwhile I ignored actual reality. I could've called CPS and lived my aunt but instead I wasted my life with them. Fun!

I have not achieved the things I want to. I feel like I never grew up and became a real adult. I lack direction, ambition and initiative and cannot make decisions for myself. I create nothing of real value and will leave behind nothing.

because I'm not chad unironically

>>82812659 (OP)
Wow look at all of these retarded fake problems especially the pedo who apparently hates themselves but they haven't an hero yet.

I hate myself because I was molested and I haven't mustered the courage to kill him and the rest of my family members who grifted me over it.

>>82813717
You don't know a single thing about what real abuse is like. Everyday when I got home from school after being bullied all day, five big black niggas would rape me for hours on end.

>>82813717
you're on the top of my list of people to molest the fuck out of

i cannot tolerate my existence and blame myself for ending up in this circumstance

>>82813784
Yeah but what YOU don't know is that before you arrived home from being bullied all day, I was being raped by those very same big black men for hours on end. They were already tired when showed up.

>>82813818
Make sure to stick it to your bathroom mirror so you don't lose it with all of the clutter in your room along with all of the previous lists you've made and forgotten.

>>82813860
Why are the bbc so mean?

>>82812659 (OP)
no, because im vegan, and i cant ever hate vegans
i hate everyone else
heres is a based nasim post for you swine who will never appreciate anything good about this world

>>82812659 (OP)
I'm a bad person, almost everything I think and feel is evil. I'm unlikeable in general and have 0 real life friends, and online I'm incredibly boring so no one ever talks to me for long. I destroyed my body by eating like a fucking pig throughout my 20s. Despite being smarter than pretty much everyone I've ever met (yes, yes, I know) I've done absolutely nothing with my life and have zero accomplishments to speak of. I work a dead end job that a monkey could do and I'm a khhv wizard.

>>82813929
lion does whatever lion wants

>>82813982
Does the lion go heya hoya?

>>82813929
she looks really ugly and unhealthy