I am a religious person who doesn't believe pre marital intimacy is moraly right. However I find myself to be so lonely, and I want to be in a relationship badly. I'm 19, so I am pretty proud of the fact that I haven't mingled with the opposite gender. But I find it to be increasingly difficult. I don't want to marry someone yet either, because I want to improve before marrige. I hate this.
> I sometimes wish I could just fuck around.