Thread 82817274

I have no happy memories
I have zero connections or relationships to any other human beings
I've tried to kill myself but despite putting the shotgun in my mouth safety off, loaded, survival instinct wouldn't allow me to pull the trigger
I have nothing
No one is coming to help me
I'm scared

>>82817274 (OP)
"Those who seek death shall live. Those who seek life shall die."

Yi Sun-sin

it's up to you to improve.

>>82817342
fuck this is so me it's unreal

>>82817274 (OP)
Gotta find hobbies and learn to love urself. Fitness, music, singing, a sport. Anything you can dedicate time into and find and improve upon. Video games can be one as well but will always leave you devoid of real human interaction. Find purpose in life. Also you should always seek god. God is loving companion and will give you great discernment and direction in life.

>>82817349
Then you probably can relate to this one too.

>>82817420
very much so
I keep circling back to this quote
>Is it better to not have it at all?
>or to have it and then lose it?

I've done so much stuff, I've "experimented" and now I wish I hadn't because I miss those kinds of feelings

Lonely, disaffected, mentally ill man?
Have you tried [InserIdeologyHere]?

Be on guard OP. You are exactly who the crazies want.

>>82817475
A sign of increasing extremism and lonely men probably means we're going to have another major global war and hitler 2.0. I'm honestly not ready.

>>82817528
the world needs another hitler-like figure to discomfort everyone
nobody will be ready, but it's gonna happen if things continue like this

>>82817550
And that hitler figure will prob kill himself and destroy the world in the process and we're gonna be left with a broken world to rebuild, and it will happen over and over and over

>>82817274 (OP)
A true weakling will beat himself up like this and decide that the best course of action is suicide.

An untrue weakling, so to speak, will beat himself up like this and decide he can't go on like this and thus must start improoving his life, whatever it takes.

Nobody is coming to save you in either case, and nobody will mourn you in the first.

It's your life. It's your choice. You either want better or you don't. Nobody else cares. If that makes you want to die---nobody else cares.

>survival instinct wouldn't allow me to pull the trigger
Yeah, I hate that shit.
Even though I'm in a gun-cucked nation, if by some miracle I ever got a pistol, I'd be too pussy to do it.
Despite knowing that the best shot is the roof of the mouth. Seen too many failed sui's in rekt threads.