Thread 82827141

this sleep deprived student of the way of fish has poverty fatigue

that loony neighbor is freaking out lately baka keeps doing le
>NICHT BEISSEN. RAUS RAUS!!! EINS ZWEI DREI RAUS RAUS!!!! RUNTER RUNTER *STOMP STOMP* *WALL BANGS* AAAAAA DUMMER HUND *SOUNDS OF BEATING THE DOG* RAUS RAUS RAUS. NICHT BEISSEN NICHT BEISSEN!!!
for hours and the dog is heckin freaking out. and then when the dog isnt doing anything baka does le
>damn this dog is so retarded, its mentally ill. its not normal
for hours. i have loony fatigue

its so weird. it feels like the mental torture arc ended a decade ago or sumthing but it only ended 2 years ago. my average day in there was
>wake up at 9am to bangs at my door X screamed insults towards me X laughter
>rot until 5pm
>if i get food its just smol amounts of overcooked potat or le cheap powder mashed potat (i posted pics of those)
>if i go to the bathroom i get insulted X laughed at X filmed probs for tiktok
>after pooperooo the entire toilet is full of blood like in a horror movie probs because the body is freaked out too much
>probs do sum pukeroooo, for sum reason baka was often the only one sick aka i was probs being poisoned
>during pukerooo get laughed at, told how i deserve it X that i will die in that haus
>also baka is a smelly baka because baka only showered once every third month
>then baka would rot until 11pm
>thats when baka sneaks out and snaccs 10+ slices of american toast to make the hunger be less bad
>rot until 6am because body too freaked out to sleep

also bakas were constantly screaming so loudly... i lived like that for 4 years. baka lost the "best years" of bakas life. and when i complained to the state about it bakas were like
>fuck you you only deserve to be locked up with child rapists. hahahaha get raped by heckin hobo drug addicts and get addicted to meth because of druggies who try to convert sober bakas to leech drugs from. hahaha its all not real, youre schizo and its just in your head
id rather die than work for germany

if baka wasnt poverty maxxed baka could live at sum tranquil X white majority X no loonies area. instead i have to live in the loony ghetto

my evropa fatigue is so high id be fine with leaving X never returning. this is not my home. my home hyperborea

this fish is fatigue maxxed

the cherry tree will probs start to blossom next year... thats when i will probs start getting deal offers. for me to accept a deal from germany theyd have to gib sumthing theyd consider unreasonable so there wont be a deal with germany. china will probs gib a bussin deal and then the fever dream will end

its funny that doing le
>ok i will let it go and move on if you just gib the bare minimum, even foreigners get more than that from you
doesnt work and just leads to not getting anything but
>*does stuff that gibs china a reason to steal one*
makes le state do le
"noooooo, pls we have always been supportive ughhhh how about we give you this thing you asked for 10 years ago? oh right it makes no sense ughhhh"
but its the same with abusers
>"i will totes leave"
"hehe do it you nigger, fuck you do it do it now!!!! what do you mean you have no means to leave???? excuses!!!! leave now haha you wont!!"
>*leaves*
"nooooooooooo how could you i was always l so heckin supportive you traitor!!!! no come black pls i will be nice!!! i have changed!!!"

this fish is fatigue maxxed X sneeding. gib idyllic homogeneous (baka has diversity fatigue) area to relax at. gib chinese village haus

literally all of my problems exist because i am poor
>have to live among loonies because i am poor
>teen me a decade ago couldnt defend against activist harassment because i am poor
>couldnt get anything from the system because i am poor
>get harassed by the state because i am poor (though theyve stopped this after hearing about the cherry tree for sum reason)
>health sucks because i am poor (free healthcare sucks)
>no friends because i am poor (cant go to events etc)
>no girlfriend because i am poor
>no university for me because i am poor (and didnt get approved by activists, money would have fixed this too)
etc
germany sucks if youre poor

this fish updated the loony scale.
the scale for the mind of the beast is a bell curve. standard deviation is 5. the lower the number the bigger the difference so the difference between 40-50 is much greater than the difference of 60-70
>100 avg is normal
>90 avg is smol depresso
>70 avg is severe depresse
>below 60 avg is a spiritual war
>0 is undefined, one can only approach it
probs most bakas kys at 70-80 avg. if one manages to get below it one probs doesnt have the nature required to kys. this fish was an avg 70 at 17yo, avg 60 at 18yo and and avg 10 after le escape. now baka is an avg 40. it doesnt make much sense to interact with people when one is below avg 60 because one is fighting a spiritual war and cant relate to normal hoomans due to it

there is also a scale for the mind of the human. the lower the value the less one can with stuff. probs most mentally ill people are a 80. normal is 100. the higher the mind of the human value, the less bad the mind of the beast value affects one. i think i was born with a value of 130 and the lower values of the mind of the beast scale have trained my mind of a human value to 690

its why my talkerooos with psychologists make no sense. they are value 100 mind of the human bakas thinking theyre talking to a value 80 baka when they really are talking to a value 690 baka. this fish thinks the only bakas who could actually gib this fish nice insights are buddhist monks because they could have a higher value of the mind of the human than me

>>82827825
>the lower the value the less one can with stuff
the less one can deal with stuff*
its probs why mentally ill people never get better. they need to increase their mind of the human value. a mind of the human value of 80 isnt enough to maintain a 100 avg mind of the beast value but its probs enough to maintain their current mentally ill mind of the beast value which just damages their mind of the human value further (which damages the mind of the beast value and this loops)

>>82827803
>the scale for the mind of the beast is a bell curve. standard deviation is 5
its a bell curve for le odds of how a certain person with sum avg feels. so a 100 baka probs feels like a 100 on most days, sumtimes gets a 105, rarely a 90 etc

baka couldnt pull off the coat... baka got a varsity jacket to wear instead to "hello fellow young people" maxx

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

bigu is wrestling against his demons... spiritual war
but that is a good thing because most people seem le normal because they gave in but bigu is a spiritual warrior
once you defeat them you will be able to move on...

this fish thinks his scales make more sense than what psychology uses currently. i dont geddit why people treat current psychology like *the truth* like its sum soience or sumthing because its not mature yet at all. its sumthing very new. stuff will probs change a huge amount just this century alone
>>82828026
*kisses your cheek*

baka needs to build sum wardrobe later... its sum cheap ones out of piperooos

>>82828033
everything will be alright..
dont let it get to you too much

>>82828058
baka has no handyman experience so you will probably spend some time figuring it out

>>82828061
this fish is just letting his sleep deprivation sneed out. gib pantsu picture
>>82828069
ive built everything in my neet palace and hung up cabinets on le wall on my own. le piperoooo wardrobe will probs be easy. i just hope it will fit where i want to place it

snaccing the bread... gb cheese

the bread is in the tummy. maybe building the wardrobe on tuesday. baka is too sleep deprived

the wardrobe has sum spaces i could put figurines to hotglue in

maybe this fish should go to a psychologist to do le
>i am an old man physically but in the mind i am still a teen
and then with le paper i get from that i will go to le state and do le
>gib middle school
when i was a middle school baka there apparently was a woman who did this. and the prison i went to was for <21 bakas only but it had sum 23yo rapist probs because sumpsychologist did le "teeheee he is le kid in le mind" or sumthing

maybe if they dont gib i will do le
>"gib or else i will join the SMO to grow up that way. youre literally supporting russia by rejecting. are you a russian spy???"

according to the law the state still owes me 1 year of middle school btw. this doesnt get removed in my bundesland. the activists committed a crime by removing me from the system.

its enforced by law to protecc against activists doing stuff like that (and against parents who dont trust the institutions). but its worthless. it only gets enforced against bakas who skip school, i went to school because of it. but when activists illegally remove one from the system and one has no buxx to sue there is nothing one can do. 0 protecc

>>82828417
>i went to school because of it
prison*. it was enforced against ME but not against THEM

in all of these years of torment this fish has learned that laws arent real if one doesnt have buxx to get them to be enforced. unless its stuff the state has to sue themselves if it gets reported like violence stuff

maybe this fish should
>throw away my german id
>go to north africa, try to look like them by not wearing western clothes, hairstyles etc
>pretend to be a REAL north african
>get to evropa with sum soros funded ngo
>ask for refugee status in germany
i would probs have more opportunities than i have now if id do this

this fish has 70% humidity fatigue

it kind of is funny how 100 years ago left wing bakas were doing stuff for the people and right wing bakas were slaves to psychopath billionaires. but now its the opposite. the psychopath billionaires are smart. instead of doing le comically evil
>ze housing prices need to go up!!! ze wages need to go down!!!
they do le
>we need to save one billion third worlders!!! they need our help!!! get them all to us!!
and the lefties eat this up like its crack

i guess its not that black and white but theyre still very anti wypypo which is what the psychopath billionaires who only want to make a quick buck (and dont care about the stability of a country) love

probs should get a 5kg weight for tummy training but its heckin 20 europoor coins...baka is too poor

maybe getting into coffee to drink the plant water when i have no time for tea... what does coffee even taste like? i have never tried le coffee

>>82827803
>probs most bakas kys at 70-80 avg
btw with this i meant le "most bakas who kys kys at that range"

baka has completed the warrior monk training for today... putting the fancy pizza into the oven...

this hermit fish would probs be perfect for those underwater jobs that require one to be in ze pod for a month (or longer idk how long it actually is). id just need sum javs and snacc

when i was an abuse haus baka i kind of thought le
>that many years of torture isnt that much
but now that baka has experienced 2 years of no abuse baka is like
>damn, how did i live like that double the amount in the abuse haus?
ze freedom 2 years kind of feel like 10 years (in a good way) compared to le 4 years of torture

maybe drinking the hei cha later... baka has sum berries to defrost...

the pizza is in the tummy. stuff was bussin. gib milkshake