Thread 82835485

i will never make a friend ever. i can't even make friendships online for gods sake, where everyone has a billion friends and friend groups and it's literally the easiest place to make friends.

im either too weird, boring or esoteric for people. even if we hit it off fine at first, ive never had a friendship online last for more than a few days. typical duration is 1-3 days.

it's so over. im so fucking lonely but i just don't know how to keep anyone entertained enough to be willing to be my friend

my only cope is making 4chan posts and saying whatevers going thru my head unprompted on random discord servers, to the annoyance of normie.

>>82835485 (OP)
>lonely
>>82835485 (OP)
>friendships

>>82835490
who are you mystery anon

>>82835485 (OP)
none of this is true and I think you know that, anon. you're a histrionic psychopath larper who has contributed to several deaths. not my problem but shit's kinda pathetic

>>82835512
how can i contribute to anyone's death when im completely unable to get involved in anyone's lives anyway

>>82835485 (OP)
same, now get in line

I have never made a friend online. I don't know how it happens.

>>82835539
same, it's an eternal mystery honestly

>>82835485 (OP)
Well, it's not like you need a friend, right? You can just talk to people here, isn't that enough?

>>82835620
no, im lonely, i need someone to care about me. i can feel the loneliness everyday. a life of solitude cannot be remedied by image boards only, im not schizoid.

>>82835485 (OP)
if you were a girl I'd be your friend until we got married

>>82835485 (OP)
>i will never make a friend ever.
same. but i'm also severely mentally ill

>>82835485 (OP)
>it's literally the easiest place to make friends.
thats retarded. You literally can't make friends online. It's literally a logical impossibility. The online world precludes friendship.

>>82835701
Eh, not really. You can. It's just luck based. Just like regular friendships. Obviously, if you only hang around here, the chance's gonna be around 0.01%

do you want to do something about it? i think you're capable.
what do you think is holding you back?

>>82835860
now thats a thought exercise. im not sure.

i think part of it is that im just doomed since no matter how hard i try to fit in with others, i can never quite figured out how human connections work.

on the other hand, theres my unwillingness to open up properly, and get carried away using friendship prospects as canvases for my thoughts.

i wish i could honestly fix how i socialize and just be norm, but ive been on the internet for nearly 10 years now, and it's been like this from the beginning as far back as i can tell.

>>82835485 (OP)
yeah it feels like most people somehow find others like themselves and quickly click and become friends. I don't think there's anyone like me out there for me to be friends with. Well maybe that's statistically unlikely but idk

>>82835936
soo much true
i feel like everyone is connected to the same hivemind with a basic level of mutual understanding, that which completely goes over my head. ive never seen someone who thinks or interacts like me. i feel like an alien.

>>82835485 (OP)
Me especially with other women. I feel a lot of identification with your posts here and sadness that you are experiencing this also.

>>82835902
>i can never quite figured out how human connections work.
took me a while to understand them, it's hard. every single person is different, and connections are different for everyone. it's something you can figure out, anon.
>theres my unwillingness to open up properly
connections are a compromise. it should always try to be something where both parties are contributing, and opening up is something that builds up confidence. maybe your relationships die after some days because you're scared of the other person seeing the real you. in general, would you say you hate yourself?
>it's been like this from the beginning as far back as i can tell.
how old are you?

>>82835948
what are your interests? The weird thing for me is it's not even like my interests are very niche, they are actually super common like anime or games for example but I still somehow can't relate to people or bond over them. and yeah I get the alien feeling I feel like I perceive life and the world differently from everyone so i dont really know how to act normal

i think there are a lot of anons on here in similar boats. it's funny it would make sense for all of us to be friends but I don't think we could be lol

>>82835813
Nah, it's literally 0%, no chance. You literally can't be friends with someone online. Like, it's a nonsense concept, like a square circle.

>>82835992
This is cope, dude. Plenty of people have online friends. Not to be arrogant or anything, but of course you're never going to make a friend if you don't even try.

>>82835986
truth is i have very low self esteem and even though i try to hide it, it makes me act very insecure in relitionships, to where it always feel like im trying to chase after the other person to please them, or make them desire me. but eventually it just doesn't work perpetually and things fall apart.

(((sigh))) also im 18

>>82835987
i like anime, technology in general and sometimes i like engaging in philosophical discussions with what attention span i have. but yes i don't feel like normies whereas it feels like they're always eager to learn and explore and showcase their knowledge of their interests, even things that do interest me, i have a hard time finding the same excitement or interest for. it just doesn't hit the same as it does for them, and i can't always pretend it does

>>82835485 (OP)
do u wanna try being friends anon? i cant guarantee itll work obviously but maybe it will. i understand if no tho

>>82836072
u could try but im pretty fickle and can be odder than first impressions suggest

>>82836088
i am an odd creature as well so no worries!! if you wanna add me then you can send a req to jerasosakii on disc. no pressure tho!

>>82836057
>(((sigh))) also im 18
you're definitely too young to give up like this. i don't want to imply you haven't suffered, but you're still in time to change. i myself got to see changes when i was well in my twenties.
>it always feel like im trying to chase after the other person to please them
this is a big no. i'd like to ask, is there something about yourself you'd say is really bad? like, maybe being mean, or overly critical, inconsiderate...
if you can't think of any, then people pleasing is the worst thing you can do. imagine the hypothetical case where you actually made a friend and they stayed with you. are you going to be pleasing them forever? in the end, this whole thing is just going to tire you out. and even if it doesn't tire you, you'll find yourself in friendships where the other person is going to actively take advantage of this situation.
even if it takes longer, try to find a person you don't necessarily have to please, one that will not hesitate to be there for you even if you are not actively jestermaxxing for them. they're harder to find, but they won't evaporate after 3 days. and even then, you have to open up for them to see the person behind the mask. and, opening up shouldn't be hard if there aren't things that are inherently bad about you.

>>82836122
sure b ill probs sleep now

>>82836143
ok anon, sleep well :)

>>82836134
it's funny because at times i can be both hugely people pleasing when i view someone as above me and hugely inconsiderate to people who i view below me. im pretty inconsistent with a lot of double standards. also id say that i tend to project my own emotions and how i feel on others too much and can easily get defensive when i feel like someone is making me feel emotionally vulnerable which i have an incredible fear of

there's honestly so much to say i could go on
idk tho, im 18 but i can't say ive had a single serious long lastijg friendship irl or online, i don't see how i can see it getting better when it never even begun

>>82836179
okay. i know ur eepy so maybe you can post a thread and we can keep talking tomorrow? i'm not a huge discord fan nowadays but i'll try to lurk more so i can talk to you

>>82836187
sure, just look out for a kaguya and a lot of yapping