I ruined my chances with my crush
Recently-ish i met this girl i really liked, 6 months ago we couldn't really talk because she was in her own friend group in Uni but her friends left and i invited her into my group and goddamn it all, for some fucking reason when we speak irl we always get along super well but when we speak through whatsapp we ALWAYS end up arguing and getting upset at each other.
She is on meds for stress (clonazepam) and her father had a cerebral stroke leaving him with trouble speaking and her mom has sclerosis. She talks alot and sometimes she seems to really like me and other times goes cold on me.
A couple days ago i made an absoute ass out of myself and told her that i am a male prostitute because women use me and then leave me, she then gave me a pretty long conversation about how women have "physical" needs too and that love and physical needs can be satisfied by different people and that having sex is no big deal, its just normal. I told her that was disgusting and that i didn't agree with her because i needed to be loved and she then said i am desperate to be loved (true) and that i won't find a relationship if i am desperate.
What now? Should i even keep talking to her? Should i be her friend? It really does seem we are completely incompatible which is terrible, i fell really hard for her, i even dreamed of her a couple days ago after our argument.
She is tall for a woman, slightly shorter than me (i am 181)
She said she is a lesbian but when i said it wans't true she admitted she liked cocks and tits, and then said she was Bi.
What do i even do? I am genuinely asking, i actually like her a lot and i want to save her and protect her but at the same time my gut is telling me this is a dead end and it will be a disaster, my gut tell me i should fuck off and stay away and that even if i get to have sex with her she will end up leaving me or cheating on me.
I need help, i need someone to tell me the truth straight up, tell me what to do.
She is on meds for stress (clonazepam) and her father had a cerebral stroke leaving him with trouble speaking and her mom has sclerosis. She talks alot and sometimes she seems to really like me and other times goes cold on me.
A couple days ago i made an absoute ass out of myself and told her that i am a male prostitute because women use me and then leave me, she then gave me a pretty long conversation about how women have "physical" needs too and that love and physical needs can be satisfied by different people and that having sex is no big deal, its just normal. I told her that was disgusting and that i didn't agree with her because i needed to be loved and she then said i am desperate to be loved (true) and that i won't find a relationship if i am desperate.
What now? Should i even keep talking to her? Should i be her friend? It really does seem we are completely incompatible which is terrible, i fell really hard for her, i even dreamed of her a couple days ago after our argument.
She is tall for a woman, slightly shorter than me (i am 181)
She said she is a lesbian but when i said it wans't true she admitted she liked cocks and tits, and then said she was Bi.
What do i even do? I am genuinely asking, i actually like her a lot and i want to save her and protect her but at the same time my gut is telling me this is a dead end and it will be a disaster, my gut tell me i should fuck off and stay away and that even if i get to have sex with her she will end up leaving me or cheating on me.
I need help, i need someone to tell me the truth straight up, tell me what to do.
