Thread 82852210

When did you guys realize you weren't "normal"?

Probably when I was about 10 years old and I fingered my own butthole and tasted it

>>82852210 (OP)
What did you expect, lady? YOU PUT HIM IN A N OVEN

>>82852210 (OP)
Became really self conscious about my stuttering when puberty started, funny how the brain works

>>82852210 (OP)
about 7, I thought myself to be crazy
turns out I'm just weird, traumatized and lightly autistic lmao

atom smashing with john wayne most likely

>>82852210 (OP)
when i got diagnosed with autism in my mid-twenties. before then i was convinced i was normal, despite me walking on the tip of my feet, despite me being completely socially disabled, despite me having no self-drive whatsoever, etc. god i'm retarded, but to be fair my parents are more retarded for not getting me diagnosed sooner. the fuckers knew i was autistic since day one and didn't bother to get me the life-changing diagnosis early. they must've been like "lol let's let this fucker roll in his autistic shit it'll be funny"

>>82852259
In a way, I think autistic dudes who learn that they're autistic later in life are better suited for the real world
They're not coddled, they're thrown in a sea of normies and learn vital masking skills. They had no excuses to fall back on.
Now imagine you get diagnosed early, they think you're basically retarded, you get special education and are treated differently from your peers, you have a label of "autistic" that you can use as an excuse for your eccentric behavior in public.

>>82852281
>you have a label of "autistic" that you can use as an excuse for your eccentric behavior in public
that's what i do now, fuck masking it's so fucking exhausting it made me want to kms for the longest time. i quit my job the moment i learned that i have indefinite government aid thanks to my diagnosis. yes i live in poverty now, i have to go to the food bank and i can't afford any luxuries, but it's still miles MILES better than bothering with the clown circus that is society.
but yeah in a way i am glad that i was diagnosed later, because if i was diagnosed early then i wouldn't have been as disillusioned with society as a whole. they would have made me believe that i can integrate somehow, but i now know better, you can't. the only way i can make money or find happiness is through my own doing, no one else's, otherwise it feels forced and it's exhausting. that's why nowadays whenever someone bothers me for any reason whatsoever, i just tell them "i'm autistic, fuck off, and i have the receipts to prove it". works every time, even my family leaves me alone now and aren't harassing me to get a better job and have kids. fucking piece of shit drones i swear to god. i'm getting closer and closer to unlocking the secret to true intrinsic motivation, and once i do then i'll enter the perpetual flow loop of action that i'm craving.

>>82852210 (OP)
oh fuck off
all kids do weird things, doesnt mean youre a special snowflake
boomers were right, you did get too many participation awards

>>82852345
based, sounds very similar to what I've gone through but I don't want a formal diagnosis, I just kind of figured it out after decades spent reading up on psychology material trying to figure out what the fuck my deal was
I remember in high school I got pulled into the principal's office and he interrogated me as to why I wasn't doing homework yet passing all the tests. Asked if I was an "idiot savant" to my face. I had no fuckin clue what he meant at the time lmao

>cookie on the left: character a woman likes
>cookie on the right: the woman cosplaying the character

>>82852259
>pic
Genuinely thinking of getting that

>>82852281
Makes sense, yeah
I mean I'm not good at life but I do my best, but sometimes my best isn't good enough for some folks so I'm considered a fuck up by a lot of folks

>>82852378
>diggin in yo butt as a kid is normal, twin
I know your uncle said it was just a fun little game but I don't think it's normal, anon

>>82852401
i've been wearing it in public, it's great. the few times i go to the bar for karaoke, sometimes people ask me if i'm really autistic, and i sperg out on them about whatever interests me and they love it. it's like they're watching an animal in real life that they only used to see on tv. i couldn't care less if they think less of me, if it means they don't force their retarded social mental gymnastics on me then i'm good. better yet if it somehow leads me to having sex, i heard girls like some kinds of autists

>>82852424
BPD girls eat autists for breakfast
Be careful of who you attract with that hat anon

>>82852436
Oh fuck, now I DEFINITELY need that hat!

>>82852210 (OP)
That cookie is what happens to men as they age.

>>82852469
Everyone should have at least one BPD girlfriend just so they can see what the deal is and learn to avoid them forever
Worked for me at least, just go no contact with her after she has wrecked your mental state

>>82852436
yeah i know, i had two bpd fwb's in the past lmao. thankfully they were easy to handle for the most part, i dumped both of them once they got a little too crazy. i'm insanely patient, mostly because i genuinely don't care about all the rude or random shit they do. but i know exactly why bpd girls go for autists: 1. because bpd girls are usually extremely extroverted and talk to everyone, and 2. they latch onto anyone who doesn't see their red flags. the fortunate part is that although i don't see their red flags, i'm pretty much immune to the ill-effects of their red flags. but still, it's never worth it to be in a long-term relationship with a bpd girl, unless maybe if she's diagnosed and actively seeking help and therapy. but yeah i'm gonna let my autism hard-carry me in social situations. if a bpd (or normie) girl approaches me and isn't interested in my hyper-fixations, she's a fwb and nothing more. the only time i'll EVER approach a girl is if she's deeply interested in the things that i'm deeply interested in.

>>82852491
>wrecked your mental state
I don't think she can do anymore damage to me compared to what I've done to myself, anon

My mental state is *gone*
It's not good or bad anymore, there's just nothing up there

>>82852210 (OP)
>I fingered my own butthole and tasted it
what did it taste like?

the high iq korean guy already killed korean visual media

>>82852210 (OP)
Being a slutty diaper maid is a normal part of the process of existing.

I started to feel like an outsider around the sixth grade when the boys and girls began to hang out together but I was still afraid to talk to girls

In high school I began having more severe social anxiety and depression issues, went on meds for it but they didn't really help

Around 20 I began to realize I'm probably autistic, which explains almost my entire life trajectory

>>82852210 (OP)
When I was 5 in kindergarten. Everyone was working in groups and I didn't know anyone's name yet. "How did this happen? It feels like yesterday we were all on the same page. Should I join a group? No, that would be weird. Oh well." And I went back to whatever I was doing.

Then in 1st grade some kids from last year's class invited me to work with them, but they were distracting me from my thoughts, so I went back to working on my own. When they started singing along with the tv it annoyed me.

Later I learned these are signs of trauma. No doubt from my raging dad. Dude would start swearing if the door was locked when he got home. He would smack my bed inches from my face with his belt if he heard me talking to my brother at night saying "GO TO SLEEP! NO TALKING!" I later learned it's because he wanted to watch porn. Later I told my mom and she said "so that's how he went so long without sex." I told him and instead of feeling sorry about how he treated us all, he got mad and said "tell her not to talk about that shit."

Yeah. Nobody likes him. Even his kids from his first wife cut him off. Then he threw away a chest full of their childhood stuff all butt hurt and over dramatic because he kept it for like 30 years.

when i was a young kid during rainy lunches we'd watch old looney toons stuff in the hall
i remember all the other kids were laughing their assess off and I was just thinking 'its not that funny... wtf'
i was a schizoid fuck from birth desu

>>82852240
If she chilled the dough and used less butter the cookie wouldn't have done that.

>>82853745
what were your mental issues in highschool anon? and what were the reasons?

>>82852210 (OP)
I've been cognizant of it pretty much my whole life. I remember a kid in elementary telling me about friends he had at another school and that was just unfathomable to me.