Thread 82853195

You know what? It's a pretty chill day today. How are you guys doing? Having a good day too? Having a rough day and wanna talk about it?

>>82853195 (OP)
aye it's pretty chill here too i guess
today i made some pressure cooked shank with watercress, potatoes, and rice
made enough to last the week, and it tasted pretty good, first time using my new pressure cooker too so that was great
was supposed to go out cycling today but i skipped, my throat feels sore all of a sudden so tomorrow i'm stopping by a grocery store to fetch a lime and some ginger root

how's your day been, anon?

>>82853195 (OP)
yeah just what's the deep part that isn't just the girl is cute?

>>82853195 (OP)
shit day, spent most of it on 4chan
coming back here was fun but a mistake as usual, i guess i really am here forever

>>82853195 (OP)
Had a fucking meltdown out of nowhere and I cancelled an out-of-state trip I was supposed to go to in a couple of hours
Cancelled my booking and everything, wasted my money on gas, snacks, etc.

I can't fucking function as a human being
And that trip? I was supposed to visit my dying meemaw

>>82853346
Wtf? No go. You only get one meemaw

>>82853215
Sounds killer. I made fried chicken last night and I'm pretty damn happy with how it turned out. I also skipped the gym, but I ain't sick I'm just lazy.

Been good so far. Weather is finally cooling down and I'm just killing time at work.

>>82853219
Wut?

>>82853247
>guess i really am here forever
We all are. The ride never ends.

>>82853346
Sorry to hear, anon. Was there anything in particular that led up to it? Just a lot of bottled emotions about the situation maybe?

>can't fucking function as a human being
It just takes time. I had to do a lot of work to get where I am now and I'm still not 100% stable.

>>82853195 (OP)
well my low iq is going to get me fired from my job. I give it a week until I'm cut. This is an entry level position at a food store so if I can't be competant here then there isn't realyl anywhere left to turn. I'm ready to kill myself, not really bummed out since the outcome was and has been expecting for a while. It'd be nice if I could have been a stemcel instead. Oh well, better luck next time around, so never. Even though I've admitted that I am worthless skillless dipshit who can't even function even when the expectations are on the floor, I feel fine. I don't see myself living to see what comes around next year, but this feels fine.

>>82853356
It's too late now, I'll try again next week
I just hope my uncle takes good care of her

>>82853405
Mental illness probably, I don't know
The mood swings I get are pretty extreme, like I'm in a manic episode and I do impulsive things

But it's not Bipolar or anything because I "calm down" a few hours after that, shit never lasts a day but you can do so much damage in a day...

>>82853525
I used to get really bad mood swings because my living situation was shit and I felt horrible all the time. How are your circumstances?

>>82853478
Well you seem to type fine, can't be that stupid. What exactly problems have you had thus far?

>>82853612
>How are your circumstances?
Haha yeah they're equally shit and horrible
My job isn't as stable as I expected, my family is fucking neurotic, my "friends" only like me for my money, and my house is a mess

I took like 3-days off for the trip and with it cancelled, I feel like I'm just gonna do a bit of spring cleaning

>>82853664
Might be time to make some changes. Sometimes you gotta cut people out. Sucks in the moment but things really do get better after they're gone a lot of the time.

>>82853612
Simply a lack of common sense and a terrible short term memort (and not a decent long term either).n I've only been able to make it this far because of my parents, but even then not all in one piece. I've been getting various pains, sometimes hospital worthy pains, for half a decade It's all from shame I suppose, shame, guilt, humiliation, and whatever else has really done a number. I'm a fraud, maybe I was suppose to die quitely when I was 12, but that didn't occur and here are the results.
Sorry for not answering directly, but I really can't pin down what exactly the problems are since they are so widespread that its impossible to pin it down. I'll see if I can turn whats left of the day around. I don't think I can change anything, but being miserable doesn't help

>>82853873
I don't know. I've seen a lot of real dumb asses in my time, but sometimes they find something that just works. Have you tried working in other fields before?

And I get it. Sometimes it really is difficult to narrow down one issue when it feels so broad.