Thread 82856089

I regret ever using r9k. I hate how much this website fucked up my life. I've become so obsessed with a guy that's almost twice my age and i cant get over him. Everything about him should make me wanna stay away but i cant stay away from him. using this website made me even worse than i am, i hate going out and leaving my room already. But ever since i started doomscrolling this website it's become worse. I never understood why incels were always so angry but it's like now i finally understand. I feel so much anger and resentment and sadness. I cant get a real relationship, i cant find friends, i cant do anything but sulk and hate my life because im some loser bum retard. I wish i never used r9k because then i wouldn't have met this jeet.

>>82856089 (OP)
Did you get groomed? what's the story

>>82856089 (OP)
How about you go to sleep and tomorrow you don't follow things other than your ambition and destiny

>>82856089 (OP)
>I never understood why incels

if I'm understanding your post right, you're a sex haver, and I should feel bad for you why?

>>82856089 (OP)
>I wish i never used r9k because then i wouldn't have met this jeet.
SARRRRRR THE POO HAS REDEEMED THE WHITE PUSSY SAR!

>>82856089 (OP)
look at this cool bird

>>82856089 (OP)
Fuck he do to you, man?

dont forget: you couldve avoided all this by choosing a nice guy and settling down at age 18
>but what if i regret it
so regret it, its the right thing to do, and the reason we have cars and trains and houses and stuff, working hard used to mean having children, and women threw that away

>>82856101
hmmm i was never groomed. i seeked them out i guess.
>>82856111
sex haver kek u wish, and im not asking u to feel bad. I just wanna rant and not have some normie screaming in my ear to just go out and make friends
>>82856114
who tf is sar

>>82856089 (OP)
>i cant do anything but sulk and hate my life because im some loser bum retard.
can you not or do you not want to?
big difference between being unable to do it and being unwilling to do it, procrastination does not count as being unable to

also, work on getting obsessed over someone else, if the current guy is so terrible for you
what's stopping you?

>>82856089 (OP)
How did you get obsessed with a JEET of all things.

>>82856126
pretty cute.
>>82856128
be obsessed with his ewhore r9k ex and play with my feelings and invalidate how i feel nigga
>>82856133
i thought he was a nice guy. I would've settled down with any man who was nice to me.
>>82856151
Dont want to. and idk i guess its because he was so nice to me despite how i look? cant really find another guy who'll wanna willingly be with me without being like show tits. Plus i dont think i could pursue the life i wanna pursue

>>82856144
What's special about this guy? do you think it's really anything at all, or did you fall for bullshit meme about "giving" your body to someone being special, so your obsessing over him because you showed him your tits?

Post tits, cure yourself.

>>82856186
if i post tits i dont want to be made fun of because im brown lol. He was so special because i loved him and he loved me

>>82856089 (OP)
>obsessed with a guy that's almost twice my age
... that's my fetish.

>>82856184
>Dont want to.
then you have no right to complain about it, lol

>because he was so nice to me despite how i look?
is that all it takes for you to obsess over someone?
that's dangerous and worrisome, anon...

>i dont think i could pursue the life i wanna pursue
and what kinda life is that?

>>82856214
i wanna become a neurologist but idr wanna be in debt and i doubt id have enough motivation to plus i dont think im smart enough.

>>82856203
if he loved you why'd he leave?
Post brown tits, fuck him.

>>82856289
yeah im seconding this anon's opinion, you need to go through a whore phase and help randoms cum, then you'll stop caring about this guy. post titties

>>82856203
>because im brown lol
phew, op is not about me because id never compliment a brown girl or anything like that

>>82856236
a neurologist, huh? very nice
are there no scholarship programs you can apply to that can help you with that? maybe with some research into it, you could start to see a path to it
maybe you won't graduate debt-free but at least your debt will be much smaller

as for being smart enough, well, don't worry about it much
so long as you put in effort, you can make up for a lot of it
then again i'm not sure how smart you are so i can't say if that really applies, but i do know you'll need to put in a lot of effort
medicine in general is complicated as fuck to me, plus specializing in something like neurology is quite ambitious

but i think you can pull it off, anon
do your research, even if you don't expect to succeed

>>82856089 (OP)
What even happened between you and him?

>>82856428
thread's dead because neurologist fag took her too seriously and she cant reply to anything else without admitting to him that she never cared.

>>82856492
what a faggot, we could've have some nice brown titties.

>>82856236

however smart you are has very little to do with if you can do it or not. successful people aren't the smartest people in the room, they're the people who work the hardest. they're the people who decide to manifest things for themselves and get things done. if you want to be a neurologist, congratulations. there's already a timeline where you are one. are you going to make it this one?

you strike me as really young, and that's okay. you're going to go through shitty encounters with men for a lot of your life. this might seem bad now, and that's because it is, but one day it'll seem far away. it's not a bad thing to feel like you should hate this place, but can't. there's nowhere else like it. we are anonymous, and we accept you. i accept you. you will come back. this too shall pass

also, post tits

>>82856236
you strike as really tits, post tits the most succesful smartest people are the people who post tits

>>82856492
nigger alert
>>82856368
thank you for being so nice anon.
>>82856528
u all are so nice...if i post tits will i get banned?

>>82856089 (OP)
i relate to an extent. i met some loser on here a year ago but he recently broke up with me and ghosted. i was always obsessed but now i've become a yandere level stalker who is sending messages and pics to him every hour of every day. i'm sorry i have no advice, just know you're not alone. i wish you luck and hopefully we can both recover from these useless moids

>>82856599
thank you nona it makes me feel better that im not alone, i hope things get better for you as well <3 hopefully we can stop obsessing over these losers soon c: i wish the best for u!

>>82856598
in practice no, but you can use catbox.moe if you want to be sure, just post the link it gives you instead of directly uploading here. Please, I can't nut without fembot tits.

>>82856598

i'll knock the jannie out 4 u

>>82856598
>being so nice
not sure how you see that as "being nice" but uh... you're welcome? lol
anyway best of luck, i'm sure you'll ignore everything i just said either way but in the off chance you go through with it, best of luck
and keep an eye out for opportunities, they'll appear for anyone willing

on an unrelated note, watch out for the coomers around here, they'll berate you for not posting tits but when you do, they start calling you a whore, kek
thanks for talking to me today, stay safe out there

>>82856599
as for you, someone who has the gall to ghost you isn't worthy of your attention
have some more self-respect and find someone else to obsess over, anon

>>82856599
>i've become a yandere level stalker who is sending messages and pics to him every hour of every day
>hopefully we can both recover from these useless moids
nonny your actions arent really the kind that says you wanna recover
stop stalking the retard u retard

>>82856657

the only person ima berate is you mfer let the damn girl post titties if shes feeling grateful

>>82856657
>someone who has the gall to ghost you isn't worthy of your attention
i know, but he's all i'll ever care about. it's weirdly thrilling spamming him with messages, he's got to reply some day, right? even though he doesn't say anything back, i know he's reading the messages, which means he's still thinking about me. i don't know what i'm planning for the future, but for now, obsessing over him is comforting. it's safe, familiar, and it gives me a bit of hope, even if it's not true.

>>82856660
>stop stalking the retard u retard
i don't want to recover. well, maybe i do, but i think that's impossible for me. i'm simply not the type of person who can let go of stuff like this. i'll stalk him till the day i die

>>82856089 (OP)
Just be obsessed with me I'm young but hispanic and a manlet

>>82856184
>I would've settled down with any man who was nice to me.
me! me pick me!

>>82856089 (OP)
Yeah I'm pretty much obsessed with this whorish 4chan girl I fell in love with, and was also big friends with
We havent talked for months now, I feel terrible about it all the time and feel an internal struggle on whether or not I should reach out, what it would achieve, and wishing she would reach back out
I think I just realize I'm not worth fighting for

>>82856777
you and OP share the same problem, and it has the same solution. Post your tits, no one man owns your body

>>82856777
>he's all i'll ever care about
but why tho
>i'm simply not the type of person who can let go of stuff like this
sure you are. youre venting on fucken r9k. if theres one thing youre good at its being a whiny quitter who fails at everything
just unleash your inner failure potential. fail at just this one other thing. youve failed at so much in life already. why not fail when it really matters and go back to being a bored neet instead of a stalker? go do whatever useless crap you did before him or go add some other fag on whatever gayass messaging app you use

my neurologist showed me her tits and told me it gives her power, i dunno maybe you guys try it

>>82856839
>my neurologist showed me her tits and told me it gives her power

>>82856795
you people need to grow the fuck up and enter the real world honestly you are obsessed with the internet its replacing reality for you.

>>82856898
how would you recommend me doing that
i kind of self sabotage myself and feel like only a weirdo online could understand me cuz ive been so terminally online

>>82856930
>feel like only a weirdo online could understand me cuz ive been so terminally online
even thats fine just find a different weirdo instead of obsessing over one thats gone

>>82856823
>but why tho
i could list all the tiny little charming things about him, but that would go on forever, so i'll just say that he's very intelligent, kind, funny, handsome, and pretty. we had good chemistry, i think. he didn't treat me the best, but i enjoyed almost every moment spent with him.
>if theres one thing youre good at its being a whiny quitter who fails at everything
that is true, but that doesn't mean that i can just give up the best thing to ever happen to me. he's my life, i can't just leave him alone. he's my entire world. i'm not giving up on him, he's too addicting

>>82856945
did you two meet or how did you get this obsessed over some random r9k loser

>>82856945
>he's very intelligent, kind, funny, handsome, and pretty
translation: hes an autistic retard who probably showers regularly enough to not stink as much as the rest of the fags in here
>he didn't treat me the best
are you just baiting me to call you an abusechadsexual whore
>the best thing to ever happen to me
imagine the best thing that ever happened to you being some cringe fat 4chan neet lol
get a grip bitch either your deluding yourself or your life is so shit that youve got bigger problems to worry about which you gotta go fix

>>82856977
we actually met on soc, i apologize for not being very clear. we did not meet irl, but i got the money to go visit him, a passport, and was going to book the flights to him in a couple of months, before he broke up with me. i wish i could meet him still. i've thought about flying there anyway and actually irl stalking him, but that would have to be far in the future when i'm more financially stable and have a solid plan

>>82857002
are you really old, Im getting hag vibes

>>82857002
Lmao this bitch almost got murdered

>>82856089 (OP)
Just go outside wtf. Join some sportsclub find a job or go to uni whatever.
If you can't take some vitamins eat more healthy or take some anxiety meds(not ssri) and go out.
You are a foid so all people will chase after you and welcome you with open arms.

>>82856945
>he's my life, i can't just leave him alone. he's my entire world. i'm not giving up on him, he's too addicting
I bet my ex(female) mogs desu

>>82856089 (OP)
What's so special about this jeet, and why aren't you crushing on me instead?

>>82857002
>goes to the "pls show bobs" board
>adds some tard
>shows bobs
>gets ghosted (probably because your bobs are hideous)
"whoa this is totally worth ruining my life over"

>>82857023
>just take some vitamins bro lmao

>>82856089 (OP)
been using this site for a decade and it never made me sad or angry, 4chan is my internet happy place and the only media i use to talk to people. so basically what you're dealing with here is a skill issue

this whole thread is hilarious a buncha dudes faking interest in whatever the fuck this retard wants to say just to see some tits. honestly i finally get women now, male kindness is often two faced

where the hell is my half-my-age (shup it would be legal I'm old) /r9k/ gf

women would rather be obsessed with a pajeet for years instead of trying to look for another guy
>>82857054
also this

>>82857054
it's one face, and one dick retard. We can like girls, but also our dicks get hard around them and thats normal.

is it the maybe the same jeet that fucked that other ewhore and leaked the video?

so do i post tits or not
>>82857023
not if ur ugly hurrdurr and im not very extroverted
>>82857029
hes so handsome and interesting and nice..
>>82857045
kek

>>82857064
do you ever show kindness to women without expecting to fuck them? Like I'm not judging you I'm a guy too, just pointing the hypocrisy in our behavior that I noticed.

>>82857082
ihhhhuljn

>>82857082
>so do i post tits or not
well jeets like to ask for boob and vegana so if you're that low of a woman that you'd 1. post tits online 2. do it for people who r basically jeets, then maybe?

>>82856989
>translation: hes an autistic retard who probably showers regularly enough to not stink as much as the rest of the fags in here
you may have got me with that one. oops.
>are you just baiting me to call you an abusechadsexual whore
no, he never abused me, he was just emotionally distant quite often. i handmade him a birthday present, and for my birthday, he was an hour late to call, and got me nothing. it hurt my feelings a lot, but maybe it was unfair to expect him to get me something. i didn't even care if he bought me something (which was one of his excuses since he's poor), i just wanted something to show that he cared. i even hinted several times that he could record himself reading a story for me or write me something (both things that he's very good at), yet i was still left with nothing. he also complained about me asking for validation and compliments. i did it like once a month or so, but he pretended like i was constantly begging for his attention. idk, maybe i'm in the wrong on that one though. like i said, he wasn't a great boyfriend, but he never abused me.
>imagine the best thing that ever happened to you being some cringe fat 4chan neet lol
he's actually quite skinny and attractive. has a job too. i've been looking at his pictures nonstop since i met him, and he truly is a work of art. he's exactly my type. i literally can't masturbate anymore unless i'm thinking of him

>>82857085
Yes but I would also like to fuck them, if I don't that's fine.

>>82857082
post tits post tits post tits

>>82857012
nope, believe it or not i'm actually 18. we started dating when i was 17

>>82857026
maybe, but i'm certainly above average. since getting out of our relationship, i've had lots of guys throwing themselves at me and trying to meet up. i've talked to other losers on soc before and the ones i showed my face to all reacted in a positive manner. usually calling me cute, hot, or pretty. i don't think i'm a 10/10, but i seem to be desirable to a lot of men

>>82857156
just post brown tits you dumb whore!!!

>>82856941
do you realize girls like that don't exist in any near quantity you can just find a new one?

>>82857156
Sure sure but my ex still mogs your ex idk why you're so obsessed o algo with him

>>82857106
>you may have got me with that one
>he's actually quite skinny and attractive
yeah see you just found a chad or chadlite, probably full of mental illnesses since he adds foids here instead of getting real puss
>i handmade him a birthday present, and for my birthday, he was an hour late to call, and got me nothing. it hurt my feelings a lot
he probably got bored of your tits. or didnt get enough tits.
>i've been looking at his pictures nonstop since i met him, and he truly is a work of art. he's exactly my type. i literally can't masturbate anymore unless i'm thinking of him
youre just in love dumbass thats how we feel when we fall for someone
heres a tip, take all his pics, put them in an external drive and then stash it away somewhere thats hard to get. you dont even have to delete them, theyll still be there, so it wont feel hard to do, you wont be getting rid of them youll just make it too inconvenient to get them

>>82857156
>we started dating when I was 17

damn, and he left you? I don't think he had honest intentions with you, which likely means alot of what he chose to show you was misleading or straight lies. You're better off just trying to forget this happened

how old was he?

>>82857106
LMAO at nonas still chasing guys who dumped them. The second-hand embarrassment is killing me. Have some self-respect.
>he was an hour late to call, and got me nothing
>he pretended like i was constantly begging for his attention
Good Lord girl, if you keep picking broken men, maybe the problem is your picker. Some girls just love a project they can't fix so they can cry about it later. You're not in love, you're just terminally online and desperate for any validation at all.

Listen to yourself babe:
>>82857156
>i'm certainly above average. since getting out of our relationship, i've had lots of guys throwing themselves at me and trying to meet up. i've talked to other losers on soc before and the ones i showed my face to all reacted in a positive manner. usually calling me cute, hot, or pretty. i don't think i'm a 10/10, but i seem to be desirable to a lot of men
Moidniggers can smell your insecurity from across the Mississippi, doll. Everything about you screams "INSECURE YOUNG WOMAN" with a neon sign. You just got exploited because of that, and worse, by a fag who wasn't EVEN TRYING from your description. Get the fuck over it. Or transition and get the fuck out of my gender so you'll quit embarrassing me.

>>82857172
i'm not OP. my tits aren't brown

>>82857196
>yeah see you just found a chad or chadlite, probably full of mental illnesses since he adds foids here instead of getting real puss
he's pretty autistic and weird. has a lot of issues that most people wouldn't be accepting of, but i'm very patient with him. he is very physically attractive to me, but i think most other people would say he's good looking, but nothing special.
>he probably got bored of your tits. or didnt get enough tits.
he basically had a nonexistent libido, so i don't think mattered to him.
>heres a tip, take all his pics, put them in an external drive and then stash it away somewhere thats hard to get.
that doesn't sound like a bad idea, but i can't go more than a couple of hours without needing to admire his beauty, so no.

>>82857259
non existent libido? but you met him on soc? can you explain that some more? you two never had esex at least? you never sent him anything?

>>82857259
>my tits arn't brown

post them i'll be the judge of that. your perspective on things are obviously distorted.

>>82857259
>he's pretty autistic and weird. has a lot of issues that most people wouldn't be accepting of, but i'm very patient with him
you said he has a job and is skinny and attractive lol to most people hes at least normie passing
>he basically had a nonexistent libido
oh mb, so youre an uggo and he lost interest after seeing you probably
>that doesn't sound like a bad idea, but i can't go more than a couple of hours without needing to admire his beauty, so no.
nigga thats exactly what you gotta do so that you get over that need
or if youre so hot like youre saying go whore yourself out on /soc/ and browse through the anons until you find one whos hotter with a bigger dick or w/e

>>82857200
>how old was he?
32 when we met

>>82857291
>non existent libido? but you met him on soc? can you explain that some more? you two never had esex at least? you never sent him anything?
it was slightly below average at first, but it dwindled over time, possibly due to medication and stress. we did have esex probably around 6 or 7 times, but mostly earlier on in our relationship. he told me he's the type who prefers to jack off to a woman's face, so i sent him a lot of selfies. some explicit photos too, but mostly sfw cute ones.

>>82857336
is he by chance Indian?

>>82857336
I guess he probably groomed a lot of underaged girls before and the thrill was wearing off, especially after you turned 18. Anyways yeah he never wanted anything real with you.

>>82857336
>doesn't want to fuck you
>doesn't care about your birthday
>doesn't like giving you attention
>ghosts you
"Best thing that ever happened to me 10/10." <<< this is how you sound kek
Are you just used to everyone beating you up or something so that a guy who does literally nothing seems amazing?

>>82857301
>you said he has a job and is skinny and attractive lol to most people hes at least normie passing
i guess so. to me, he clearly acts like an autistic weirdo, but i don't know how much of that he shows to people irl.
> if youre so hot like youre saying go whore yourself out on /soc/ and browse through the anons
i can't bring myself to have any attraction to anyone but him. even if i magically met someone who was exactly my type again, i don't think i'd be interested at all. plus, why would i go back to soc? it's all troons and people like my ex, so why would i torture myself by possibly going through another situation like this?

op you're like the female equivalent of the saddest cuckold you can think of please pull yourself together and stop obsessing over this jeet

>>82857389
>plus, why would i go back to soc? it's all troons and people like my ex, so why would i torture myself by possibly going through another situation like this?
and yet you torture yourself by pining over him and stalking his autistic ass. curious
youre not the first person in the world to have oneitis you know

>>82857389
>i can't bring myself to have any attraction to anyone but him

yeah I've seen this before, you're going to suck and fuck some random guy this month.

>>82857346
no

>>82857349
>I guess he probably groomed a lot of underaged girls before and the thrill was wearing off, especially after you turned 18
i don't think so. he had two long term relationships before me (both 2 years long) and they were both with people a bit closer in age to him.

>>82857379
>Are you just used to everyone beating you up or something so that a guy who does literally nothing seems amazing?
maybe? i have been through a lot of trauma from my family and first boyfriend, so i think it has affected my self worth a lot.

>>82857389
>and yet you torture yourself by pining over him and stalking his autistic ass
it's a way better kind of torture. it's painful, but it's comforting. if i pretend like i'm still dating him forever, i'll never have to get over our breakup. i have a lot of things planned related to him, i want him to see how much i care.

>>82857481
meant to reply to >>82857422
sorry im retarded

>>82857481
>i have been through a lot of trauma from my family and first boyfriend, so i think it has affected my self worth a lot
so you already had another bf, youve proven that you CAN be with another guy ffs
>it's a way better kind of torture. it's painful, but it's comforting
nigger this just means its worse, people describe heroin as warm and 'comforting', go look up how they end up later

>>82857396
cuckqueans are cute and need love too

>>82857521
stop enabling her faggot

>>82857082
>>82857082
>hes so handsome and interesting and nice..

So he's Chad..... got it

>>82857510
>so you already had another bf, youve proven that you CAN be with another guy ffs
maybe you're confused. i'm not OP, i'm the other girl who said she's gone through something similar. i never said i couldn't get another boyfriend, i actually have lots of guys interested in me right now, i'm just not interested in them.
>nigger this just means its worse, people describe heroin as warm and 'comforting', go look up how they end up later
i don't care. i will stalk him and obsess over him forever. i'm sorry

>>82857556
>i actually have lots of guys interested in me right now, i'm just not interested in them
thats cuz you have to stop being in love with him first dummy
>i don't care. i will stalk him and obsess over him forever. i'm sorry
cool welcome to the club of schizos wasting their lives on pointless bullshit on this board, why dont you pick up on some gayass extremist politics too or go shoot up a school to fit in
youre choosing to chase after someone you apparently never even met and who by your own posts gave no fucks plus ghost you hes probably either chadding it up with other hoes or doing whatever autistic special interest hes into without even remembering your ugly face

>>82857527
cuckqueans.
are.
CUTE.

>>82857481
>i don't think so. he had two long term relationships before me (both 2 years long) and they were both with people a bit closer in age to him.

so what at 32 years old he suddenly decided he wanted underaged pussy? No, he lied to you and you were one of many. Possibly concurrent with those relationships even. He may have been late for your birthday because of his wife. Would also explain the libido

>>82857602
>thats cuz you have to stop being in love with him first dummy
i can't. he's all i can think about. when he stopped talking to me, i had a breakdown and freaked out for the first few days, but after that i completely stopped talking to him and did everything i could to avoid reminding myself of him. i couldn't do it though, he's the only person i care about and ever will care about.
>youre choosing to chase after someone you apparently never even met and who by your own posts gave no fucks plus ghost you hes probably either chadding it up with other hoes or doing whatever autistic special interest hes into without even remembering your ugly face
we've never met irl, but that doesn't mean we didn't have something special. i know he wasn't super caring, but i don't blame him for it. i think it's just his personality. i really hope he isn't talking to other girls now but i have no way of knowing...

>>82857715
>so what at 32 years old he suddenly decided he wanted underaged pussy? No, he lied to you and you were one of many. Possibly concurrent with those relationships even. He may have been late for your birthday because of his wife
he didn't know my age right off the bat, i think he would've given me a chance even if i was older. i don't think he had another relationship while with me, he's too much of a quiet introvert, and we called for two hours every single night. he never missed a call.

>>82857834
>i completely stopped talking to him and did everything i could to avoid reminding myself of him. i couldn't do it though
dummy, no one gets over being in love in one take, of course you relapsed, it happens to everyone, just keep redoing it until it passes rather than making it worse on yourself
he doesnt care and lives a separate life in some other part of the world, he probably also cried n and a bitch out after you two broke up but hes less retarded than you so he cut contact to get over it

>>82857045
I have improved my mental and physical health by quite a big margin with taking vitamins and supplements yes.

youre just like me op... we'd be perfect together... forget this person and love me