>>82858889
like i said, i'm autistic, as in legitimately diagnosed with it. would it be healthier to make my fantasies a reality? probably yeah, but i suffer from executive dysfunction, so i probably won't get around to doing that any time soon. i couldn't work on my dreams even if my life depended on it. it's like the idea and the fantasy of working on my dreams will always be better than doing it for real. that's probably maladaptive daydreaming or something. also i'd like to find someone like me out there, but me being socially handicapped makes it so much harder if not impossible. i'm on a waitlist to see a therapist specialized in autism, i don't see any other option. i can help myself in many ways but not these ones. it's easy for other people to be self-driven and be social, so it'd cost them literally nothing to help me in those regards. why should i bother wanting to kill myself over doing things that are easy as pie for the average person?
pic rel is another fantasy of mine, i want a mtf gf that doesn't even try to pass, goon with her and worship her girlcock. it's dumb and stupid and the dumber and stupider it is the comfier i feel, because i'm a dumb and stupid autist who has an iq that ranges from 80 to 140
