Thread 82878214

I was. My worthless dysgenic bitch of a mother is the only "person" I hate with all my heart in this world. That thing fucked me up in numerous ways, physically, emotionally, psychologically, and sexually abused me, along with wearing a mask in public to make normalfags think everything was okay.

What about you anons? There's no way you would end up on this shithole basket weaving website without you making some bad choices or someone making bad choices that negatively impacted you.

>>82878214 (OP)
Neglected and emotionally abused, not much physical abuse and no sexual abuse. Now I'm a stunted loser but it's whatever, life is a lovely grey all the time and that's very bearable.

Does helicopter parenting and a light case muchenhausen by proxy count? Mom never let me out of her sight, home schooled me until 8th grade, kept me sheltered isolated and alone all the while claiming I had a ton of 'disorders' of which the only one I actually tested for was adhd.

physically abused, physically neglected, financially neglected. there were also moments where i was groped/molested by family members, but none of them were committed my primary abuser (my mother), so i don't count the acts of sexual assault as abuse (it happened ~3-4 times, each by a different person), but the neglect from my mother that led to the assaults definitely was.
my mother had my oldest brother when she was sixteen so i can't be surprised that she was emotionally stunted to that age forever, still though, it's hard for me to look at photos of myself as a child and not feel a little hurt and horrified. because why was she throwing me down the stairs at 3 years old? i was a cute kid!

>>82878287
Some people just fucking suck as parents anon. It's not anything you did.

>>82878214 (OP)
Do I really even have to say it?

>>82878214 (OP)
when i was little i got in trouble and my dad backhanded the fuck out of me and i remember stumbling into the next room, and then being drug back to my room by my hair and then the memory goes black. i remember shortly after not being able to stand and vomiting a bunch so they took me to the doctors and my parents said i had some kind of flu. but i was out of school for a couple weeks and spent the whole time puking and dry heaving. im pretty sure i got a brain bleed from my dad and they just were covering it up. it was a one time thing and i dont think my dads intentions were to UFC me. I think he just went a little to hard. He didn't do stuff like that afterwards. But ever since then I remember I started struggling in classes and my parents put an absurd amount of pressure and stress on me to do good in school. I think they knew I was retarded after that and they were in denial. i was skipping grades beforehand

>>82878301
>parents abuse you and make you retarded
>blame you and destroy your life

Do we even have to say any of this? I refrain, is the continued datamining really necessary?

>>82878214 (OP)
Yeah both parents of mine used to beat the living shit out of me until I couldn't breathe when I was little, that and other things had some impact and all made me grow into quite a coward. obviously, now i'm patiently waiting for my little crumb of internet attention, waiting right now...

>>82878214 (OP)
Yes. she pretends it never happened these days

>>82878327
You have to say "foid here" to get attention nonny

I'm such a fucking retard I really hate being alive.

>Parents are millionaire pedophiles
>Cant have sex due to trauma and flashbacks
>I probably could if women didnt get the ick from my ptsd
>Normies treat me like their scapegoat because being racist and hating jews isnt so fresh anymore so now neurodivergents are the only socially acceptable scapegoats left

>>82878301
genuinely the most infuriating shit I've ever read in my life, im sorry you had to go through that anon. you say you're retarded but your dad is even moreso desu.

>>82878214 (OP)
Dad was an alcoholic and i assume drug user, never really hit me or me my mom but would yell and break stuff so i was scared of him as a kid, this continued until he started threatening to kill me or her with knifes and stuff, wich resulted into me body blocking and getting ready to kill him during a particularly bad fight where he wanted to get to my mom so my mom divorced him after realizing we'd eventually kill each other, mom is emotionally unavailable and i have no friends so never really talked about it with anyone, just a small bit of my life, unironically not even the worst part of it i'd say

>>82878312
say what? datamining? I'm really confused

I was never beaten or sexually abused. But I was raised by alcoholic, meth smoking, autistic, personality disordered adults in a cloud of cigarette smoke, screaming, fall-down drunk, hyper authoritarian, schizo levels of insanity in private and fake normality in public. Drug manufacturing, neglect, emotional and psychological abuse.

I failed to break the chain completely but managed to quit drinking in my 20s and got diagnosed with autism and BPD in my 30s. I've messed up the lives of many people and my life is dedicated to making up for it and ending the multi generations of dysfunction. I have never been normal and I have never not been suicidal. But I'm an adult now and people depend on me. God help us

>>82878398
thanks they had some really bad families and they did their best to change. it took them forever to realize it but i dont think they knew how much their parents had impacted their personalities and choices. theyre pretty supportive now and have done a 180 but I still keep my distance as they can be frustrating. But being completely independent with the mental shit is tough but hey I'm doing ok financially. My main goal now is to just focus on being happy and find a job I that doesn't make me miserable

i was a witness to my parents violent relationship growing up, the both of them were drug addicts who were not physically or emotionally present 95% of the time , ive been in and out of foster care, my brother used to physically abuse me alot, i have one memory of him attempting to drown me and another where he was choking me to the point my grandma had to get involved and pull him off me, i experienced SA from 8 years old till i was 11, i was bullied and humiliated during my school days and a few weeks before my 16th birthday my mom overdosed on drugs.

i struggle with dissociation and depersonalisation, im diagnosed with autism however I do not think i am autistic, i struggle to open up to people both emotionally and socially so I have no friends as a result, it just makes me happy knowing im not the only one who was burnt

Can posters please specify gender so I know who to hit on?

>>82878580
oh i forgot to add on, after my mom died my dad started shifting the abuse onto me, i am grateful he does not hit me but he gets close to hitting me sometimes, i am tired desu

>>82878607
Do you still live with your dad? That seems unpleasant.

>>82878615
i do yes, it is what it is and if god wanted a better path for me i think he wouldve put me on it long ago maybe , a pro atleast is i get free drugs off him

>>82878623
>if god wanted a better path for me
God helps those who help themselves anon, you need to work towards things.

>>82878634
i have worked and i have failed, i have prayed and felt nothing, no love, no hope, everytime i tried getting help or asking for help i had backs turned on me, god might be real and loving and peaceful but he is not loving nor peaceful towards me and maybe thats just how it is for some people.

>>82878655
I feel oddly similar to you even though i'm catholic, i'm just like, not really sure what to do with my life right now, it sucks being alone, sucks so much

>>82878676
i understand anon, i dont think we will ever know what to truly do with ourselves, i know ive never known what i want in life,

>>82878714
I know i wanted to be a husband and a dad, i'm still taking steps to what i think will improve my odds at that like college and stuff, but i just feel so mentally fucked up, have so many limitations and bad circumstances to try and deal with i'm not sure i have a good shot at that, maybe some people just get dealt a shitty hand and that's it, maybe not, i hope not i guess