Thread 82878240

whats your biggest self-ick? mine is that i unironically like daddy-daughter roleplay

>>82878240 (OP)
me too and i also hate it

>>82878240 (OP)
That is my biggest self ick too. tfw no daughter gf etc etc

>>82878240 (OP)
I saw some porn and jacked off, then I felt ick

>>82878253
many such cases orickynally

>>82878240 (OP)
I unironically prefer fat chicks /:

>>82878248
ive never tried it before and i dont rly know how u would go about it but the concept is sweet. sweet but socially degenerate

>>82878249
>>82878248
>>82878240 (OP)
It is the most based fetish. Daughters belong to their daddies and should be trained as soon as they hit the appropriate age

>>82878270
If you're a girl just start calling a guy daddy and then going into little space. It's not complicated and they'll figure it out.

>>82878270
Just date a Zoomer girl lol they fucking love it

>>82878240 (OP)
honestly idk what my biggest self-ick is, i sorta have a bunch of small insecurities but none give me a huge ick

>>82878277
>doesn't tell anyone her fetishes
>doesn't tell anyone her insecurities
Tsk tsk

>>82878240 (OP)
do you have father-issues

>>82878270
It's really sweet but there are also caveats. And I'm weird about it as well because I don't want her to call me daddy like her father figure, but as a gentle leader because I don't really like rough sex. I want it soft, sweet, and warm, and I want it to touch my core and feel like I'm really connected to someone. A girl speaking to you that way is an extreme vulnerability and it's the last thing any man with any good in his heart left would want to take advantage of.

>>82878282
i'm gonna develop schizophrenia the way i'm being followed!!!!!!

>>82878240 (OP)
Boutta nuke the thread
>biggest self-ick?
Little girls.

>>82878294
Schizoid to schizophrenia pipeline is not real, it can't hurt you
You're the one posting in threads that I'm already in though so from my perspective you're the one following me

>>82878286
you sound like a good lover. have girls called you daddy before? :p

>>82878304
>following me
peel off your skin peel off your skin peel off your skin peel off your skin peel off your skin peel off your skin peel off your skin
also idk, i think my insecurities and kinks are boring topics. who the fuck wants to know or cares

>>82878308
I am but I'm a terrible partner. And yes.

>>82878240 (OP)
I am straight but I have watched so much BBC porn that I jerk off to fantasies of being raped by a nigger. Some times I go on dating apps and cocktease niggers while edging, imagining them getting so frustrated that they come over somehow and I get BLACKEDRAW. Then I cum and deletee the app

>>82878318
>peel off your skin
Are you reading my diary? Knock it off stalker-kun
>who the fuck wants to know or cares
Me but mostly just because you refuse to say what they are. I like knowing things. I used to talk to a lot of people from here I'd just add them on skype and interview them and then we'd stop talking. It's so interesting to me how other people are and how they think and what they do. Unfortunately I have no interest in the person so I rarely manage to actually make a friend. Oh well.

I'm a gooner who browses 4chan I think that's a ick for most people

>>82878322
daddy is an easy signifier that women let u kno that they want u to lead i guess, honestly you should be proud to be called daddy. it is repulsive when u think about it too much tho. im scared the first time i have sex im going to immediately go into baby voice and ask the guy to push me around and shit. many suchh cases amongst us foids

>>82878333
>333
oh fuck......
>you refuse to say what they are. I like knowing things.
is it interesting because i keep it to myself? i'm just some random so i suppose i don't get the appeal
yes yes i'm a tripfoid but those are a dime a dozen so who cares
>>82878353
ditto, this is my new answer

I have been into extreme rough 90s style porn my entire life and now that I'm older and dealing with my mental health issues or doesn't turn me in much anymore. I'm fact the healthier I get the more I feel like I don't have a sex drive at all I just wanted to humiliate women

>>82878366
>oh fuck......
trips > dubs but checked nonetheless
>is it interesting because i keep it to myself?
It's interesting because it's a secret. I like knowing secrets. And yes, you are a random but randoms still have secrets. Also you're recognizable because of the trip so it just makes it easier for me to post at you. I recognize anons sometimes too and try to pump their little secrets out of them as well. It's just good clean fun.

>>82878240 (OP)
mine would probably be an incest fetish. specifically siblingcest. i find myself wishing i had a cute sister to fuck fairly often.
i also find blood arousing in certain situations, but that one doesnt ick me out as much, since its not an all the time thing like the siblingcest.

>>82878387
>I like knowing secrets.
okay i will give you one question to get a secret out of me GO

It involves toilet paper

>>82878357
I'm going to be honest the baby voice, I don't like. That would probably bother me.

>>82878240 (OP)
I don't have any anymore. I coomed the guilt away long ago. Now I jerk off 3 times a night just so I can sleep without waking up and having to jerk off again

>>82878404
Social security num- just kidding
You post here a lot, what is it that you're looking for here?

sometimes when I'm really really horny I get rape fantasies. Usually I jerk off to vanilla thoughts and after I cum I feel good but when it's one of these abusive scenarios I feel ashamed of myself immediately after cumming to the point that I keep whispering "i'm sorry I'm sorry" to my imaginary gf.

>>82878271
>as soon as they hit the appropriate age
which is...?

>>82878448
i've been here nearly 10 years and it's my comfy board where i get a chunk of my social needs met
also i think robots are very endearing (usually)

>>82878466
You are just a babby, I've been on 4chan 20 years. r9k is the only place I socialize. Do you ever talk to people off board? I'm not offering, I'm just curious.

>>82878475
>20 years
holy moly how old are you!!!!! grandpa!!!
>Do you ever talk to people off board?
yes but i'm fairly elusive (and they rarely talk to me also)

>>82878240 (OP)
The fact that I can't ground myself and commit to one thing and one thing only
I know a little bit of everything but I genuinely want to like, delve deeper into one thing
>mfw my hyperfixation is the humanities
FUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKK

>>82878486
>how old are you!!!!! grandpa!!!
Too old. 30s. Time flies when you're incurably mentally ill.
>yes but i'm fairly elusive
I rarely talk to anyone off board anymore and when I do it usually ends after a few weeks at most. I keep hoping I'll enjoy talking to someone privately but of course it never happens. All I really want to do is pump information out of a person and then stop talking to them. That is understandably not something anyone else wants to participate in.

>>82878509
Yeah I've been here since 04. It's still funny and it's a great social outlet when you're insane

>>82878541
It's been feeling boring the last few years but without 4chan I'd never talk to anyone. I get really weird when I stop talking to people entirely.

>>82878240 (OP)
Exhibitionism fetish

Today for example i had a dream that i was watching movies with friends and i had nothing bellow my blanket, the blanket was thin and all the curves were showing, with everyone taking a peek. I woke up drenched, and not in sweat.

Another one is how i fumble every single long term relationship, i start avoiding people if i know them for more than 20 days, i have lots of friends, but nobody who would die for me.

No boobs, im so flat its unreal, never wore a bra, mother and family has all the boobs and no im not taking estrogen, i dislike drugs and surgeries even more

>>82878741
>Exhibitionism fetish
I'm a voyeur want to show off for me?

>>82878752
talking about icks not an get together

>>82878741
>Another one is how i fumble every single long term relationship,
because you secretly want to be an exhibitionist!

>>82878240 (OP)
unironically when she has discord nitro

>>82878772
You said you were into it, I'm just trying to help you out. Your poor grammar ruined it though. Offer retracted.

>>82878776
Made friends with the entire class in high school, and still ended up in 4chan. I need this exhibitionist desire gone by yesterday

>>82878886
Just embrace it, who gives a shit? Everyone is into something weird.

>>82878890
it is illegal, as in jail.

Also, i am a believer of consent and this is an very inconvenient fetish. I do not exactly expect people on r9k to understand, as we are all social deviants

>>82878932
Anon, are you stupid? Exhibitionism can be done in a consensual way. Go cam or post pictures of yourself on soc. That's exhibitionism minus the illegal parts. Don't act like you're the only person here who believes in consent.

>>82878932
there are exhibitionists all over the place, several women cover their exhibitionism under protest or art

>>82878240 (OP)
sexually: rape fetishes, guro (would do irl if no consequences), inflation, hyper, macro/micro
socially: can't make eye contact, extremely frugal, horrible at making conversation
personally: developing alcoholism, poor hygiene on some things and too obsessed with other hygiene habits

>>82878997
Doing the rape or being raped?

>>82878997
>cont
also turning 21 soon, there might be time to get myself fixed.

>>82879004
doing the rape, i am EXTREMELY repulsed by the concept of being penetrated to the degree that even getting asked to get fucked is a turnoff

>>82879013
Can I fuck you buddy? My dick is small you'll barely feel it penetrating your tight little ass. You will feel my hot breath on the back of your neck and smell my rotting teeth as I pant and moan while thrusting without rhythm for the two minutes it takes me to cum.

>>82879020
that's not how it works anon please brush your teeth

>>82879033
I will never brush and you can not make me

There seems to be a misunderstanding

If im showing myself to people who expect me naked, then its boring, doenst bring the soul of exhibition. Im talking about removing my bikini in a full beach, masturbating on the balcony. Selling my body in 2025 is like selling balloons at the park. It is overall something that genuinely disgusts me but im unable to change.

I believe it started during my maturing years (11-17), i used to play sports, including soccer where i was the only girl for example, i think growing surrounded with pubescent boys while my body gained its curves (except on the chest, god knows why), does make a number on you.

>>82878240 (OP)
>>82878248
don't worry, most of the people who like it are women so you're in good company. and a lot of men at least like that women like it.

>>82878240 (OP)
I don't like being old

>>82879061
>If im showing myself to people who expect me naked,
nobody expects a woman naked on the street

>>82879061
post bobs

I haven't worn underwear for a year. I shower daily, but for some reason my crotch smells like mustard. It's not a pungent odor, but when I run my cockpit, ball pit, and where my balls meet my thigh and smell my fingers it smells like fresh yellow mustard. Why? Not going back to wearing underwear, it's too uncomfortable.

>>82878456
>which is...?
I don't know what he's talking about, ideally I start from birth and raise her as my perfect daughter wife.

>>82878240 (OP)
My bigget self ick is I'm actually a bad person and I read stories of people being raped and killed wishing I was the perpetrator and my life as a good man is a lie.

>>82878240 (OP)
>whats your biggest self-ick?
That I'm willing to use fags/troons sexually, because I am too incel for cunny. It's depressing.

>>82878240 (OP)
That isn't an ick though.

>>82878240 (OP)
same but it's not an ick for me
I just wanna date a petite nubile 20-something year old and have her call me daddy

>>82880547
>i am too incel for cunny
I assume you mean mentally because physically many convicted offenders have an incel phenotype.

>>82878240 (OP)
I am a pick me sometimes. Most of the time i do it without thinking, sometiems i stop and cringe so hard

>>82878240 (OP)
My hair. It makes me look autistic because it's sort of a bowl cut that I have my mom do because I hate interacting with barbers or going to salons at all. Outside of my hair im muscular, good face, really the hair is my only ick looking in the mirror in the morning. I'm also 30.

I love older women, like 20-30 years older than me, I want to be in a relationship with one but the aging looks difference messes me up too much. I have been with a few women 10-20 years older than me.
I have mommy-issues obv, but not in the "I want to be a baby/submissive" type. I don't want a "mommy" to take care of me.
Older women in general are more stress free than younger women or women my age (30s). They also tend to be more secure in themselves from what I have found out.

>self-ick
>unironically saying ick
cringe/ick/pass

>>82878240 (OP)
Same and I also like more rough stuff like pet play, manhandling her and being a bit mean with dirty talk. I am usualy a nice guy but doing this stuff to a woman just sounds hot but I know it is a bit wrong.

>>82880789
Bro just start cutting your own hair
Even if you fuck it up, you can simply shave it all off and regrow it
And being bald/having short hair is way less autistic than a bowl cut from mom
I also hate barbers and shit, but I started experimenting with cutting my own hair when I was in my 20's

>>82880776
Same. My toxic trait is that I'm either a kiss-ass pickme totally googoo eyes over my boyfriend or a criticizing harpy that'd start a fight over chicken tenders, I really struggle to find a middle ground. If I was dating me I'd smother me with a pillow.

>>82878240 (OP)
Wanting to be stalked.Like i want someone to be OBSESSED with me. I have such a low self esteem, and the thought is appealing. This, unfortuantely, has lead me to fetishize rape.
>I am miserable and a shit person, this is nothing aspirational.

>>82878240 (OP)
I realized that I am the gender swapped version of the daughter getting with ghetto black men to piss off their parents out of sheer spite from how controlling they are. I don't even have a desire to start a family or have long term relationship with these women I just want to make my family seethe

>>82882092
I volunteer give me some breadcrumbs and I'll e-stalk you

>>82882092
where did you go anon I'm obsessed with you I want you I need you respond to me we're meant to be together anon don't ignore me you're making me mad

>>82878240 (OP)
Im attracted to p3d0phil1a
I just wanna be normal .

>>82883013
>>82882895
>this is nothing aspirational.

Can you fauckasses read? It's a fantasy. I don't want it to be real. I want to be cured from my fucking illness. I want a healthy relationship. I want him to have a good life and i want him to be independent and strong. It's selfish to want a stalker. If i truly love him, i wouldn't want him to stalk me.

>>82883641
but I love you and I want you and I need you and I'll be only happy if I have you. who needs healthy when you can have terrifying codependency and violent sex it's not selfish it's selfless of you to give yourself to me

>>82883641
why are you ignoring me do you hate me now? this is what you wanted this is what you said you wanted and you're throwing me away? you're evil I hate you I love you why are you hurting me?

>>82878240 (OP)
i like dynamics where the guy is not as interested in me as i am interested in him, especially if he's a loser/nerd/weirdo. I think i have some form of low self worth that turns into degradation. It's not extreme tho since I haven't had sex with any of them and sometimes i snap out of it and end it

>>82883726
What if he was completely disinterested in you to the point of rejecting your sexual advances or only begrudgingly going along with them?

>>82878240 (OP)
Probably the fact that I'm an extremely timid male. I have met only one (1) person who was in to that.

>>82883715
>>82883664
This made me actualy think about shit.
>Is this what i truly want?
I dont want to be assaulted, verbaly abused, raped or anything like that. wtf is wrong with me? wtf. I dont want som fuckass that is abusechud or abuse chad or whatever you fucking call it. I just want peace.
Thank you anonas for giving me a mid life crisis. I will now go to the woods and meditate

>>82883830
>wtf is wrong with me?
Good on you anon. I was just pretending to be like that. I've been around a lot of untreated BPDs so it's pretty easy to channel. Go be safe now.

>>82883855
I dont think i got bpd. I do have incredibly shitty self esteem tho. Never recieved male validation. Never been asked out. Never hugged or had intimacy or anything like that. Granted it was because i didn't want to, but i still feel like i am just not as desirable as other women. My whole life i have been gaslit into thinking that dudes will approach you if you are "pretty" enough. Maybe Im not that. And so my life continued and i felt extremenly shitty. Started reading smut and what not. Playing derranged games where the player is stalked and raped. I gooned to that shit too. I am so ashamed. It's over for me. Its so over for me. Its so fucking over

>>82883740
>rejecting my sexual advances
that would hurt my feelings too much. I would rather he have no reaction/let me initiate and touch him all over which would be ideal actually

>>82884050
>I dont think i got bpd
No no, I was pretending to be bpd. I think you have low self esteem and not a lot of experience with male attention but you're not bpd. It's not over for you, you just sound like a normalish girl who hasn't had an easy time with men. It's not about being pretty anyway, it's about putting out the right signals. Men IRL don't want to get rejected so if you seem hard to approach it doesn't matter how pretty you you won't be approached. Online is different because the cost of rejection is near zero so if you made a dating profile you'd probably do alright.

>>82884060
>I would rather he have no reaction/let me initiate and touch him all over which would be ideal actually
I like that, I'd prefer to reject the advances and eventually give in though, make them work for it. Used to talk to a girl who didn't want me to acknowledge what she was doing at all and it was great but we never met. Would have been way better IRL.

>>82884050
Every foid in 2025 does that shit, haven't you been paying attention? A book about jerking off a bull (the animal) is on the shelves and women goon to rape in public in trains and everywhere with their smut books

>>82884102
Been doing it since i was 13. Im 19 now. Im fried

>>82884102
To elaborate. I have been playing games where The player is gaslit. Drugged. mutilated. Raped. Killed. And i offed to that shit since i was 13. For 6 years. I am beyond fucked. I am a femcel because i am beyond fucked and i should approach men with my current state of mind.

>>82883788
Make that two, anon
timid men are cute

>>82884145
>>82884122
You're fine and just overreacting because you're 19 and retarded, I get off to worse shit and I'd be fine in a relationship

>>82884145
Should not*

>>82884145
People get off to worse on a regular basis. I've dated way worse women and it was completely fine. Stop being so weird about it.

>>82884153
My biggest fear is that my desperation will cause me to get into the wrong crowd. I used to be sexting with pedos at 13 for attention. If it wasn't for me being sheltered, i would be in a horible place. Its over

>>82884122
nta, but that's actually tragic
I think parents need to keep an eye on what their kids do online, but even with that kids are smart and will find workarounds.
How many kids have been corrupted like this I wonder, fuck man. I have worries about my own niece as well.
Don't get me wrong, I was jerking off to early Pokemon hentai at 11 or so, but 4chan wasn't a thing and there weren't dedicated groups to the most fucked up shit you can imagine a click away on Discord.
The youth today is uniquely vulnerable to this shit, and we do nothing to protect them

>>82884175
Just the kind of girl I seem to attract, stay away

>>82884175
Are you being serious? Just don't talk to shitty people. This can't be a real problem someone actually has.

>>82884186
I am. I was raised in a conservative houshold. If it wasn't for that i would 100% have fucked older men at 13. I am not even fucking with you. This is the first time i am admitting this. Fuck me
>>82884179
Because of what i have seen, my kids will have flip phones until like idk 14

>>82884213
>I am not even fucking with you
Anon, I'm not saying that you weren't serious about your problems as a kid. I'm saying that your fear of falling into the wrong crowd is insane because you can just not talk to bad people. Find someone who is nice to you, stick with them for as long as they continue to be nice. It's very easy. And you're not unique, every other fembot here has the exact same story except half of those actually did fuck older men. It's sad but it's not rare and you're not "cooked" or whatever you people say.

>>82884149
Wow, cute in a teasing kind of way or cute in a controlling way? There is a difference you know

>>82884238
Damn. I wish we never saw the advent of the interactive internet before mid teens. I know i just need to fix myself. Just steer away fro people that might cause trouble.

Thanks fatherly anon. thank you

>>82884299
Yes, just work on yourself and try to get a more stable place. You're very young and have a lot of time to find someone nice to settle down with.
I've been on the internet from before you even born though and I don't think the internet is the main issue, life's just hard and we cope with that in weird ways. If it weren't this it'd be something else for you. Figure out what your issues are and deal with them in a healthy manner.

>>82884328
I will anon. I'll make you proud

>>82884242
A little bit of both, but primarily the first. Depends on the kind of controlling too, I'm into soft femdom but I wouldn't want to force anything on anyone. I just like it when a guy is awkward and shy and gets flustered easily when I tease him, makes my heart flutter

>>82884419
Good girl, stay safe. And don't trust anons here, they're all psychopaths. If you want to meet a guy find one in real life.

>>82884101
That's always the problem. If I hit it off with someone they live way too far.. What part of the world are you in? It's worth asking because you never know

>>82884457
midwest USA or thereabouts

>>82884442
>Good girl, stay safe
Wholesome anon daddy

>>82884478
It's not close but it's not super far either. I visited the Midwest last year.

>>82884442
Ok father anon. I will, i'll find a good one too. <3

>>82884490
It's one of the few things I'm good at being
>>82884506
Best of luck to you miss, hope you find a great one

>>82884428
Damn, that sounds really nice. If you can tolerate or enjoy the presence of a cynical person then it might be your lucky day.

>>82884500
I don't think it'd work desu I'm kind of a shut in probably shouldn't be dating atm

>>82878240 (OP)
Imagine hating yourself for enjoying things
Couldn't be me

>>82884586
Only if you can do the same, anon

>>82884810
Huh. Is this the start of something? Drop a contact and we may find out

>>82884938
You wanna hang out with me even if I'm a volcel? I swore loyalty to my dead bf 2.5 years ago. I'm rarely on social media, but I can give you my reddit if you can deal with a depressed celibate workaholic kek

>>82884213
that's fucking HOT you sound like my gf who was flashing guys online before puberty

>>82885690
Gtfo pedo

>>82884598
Understandable, I'm in the same boat kek. When the time is right we'll find what we're looking for

>>82885622
I need a friend anon. Don't tell me you got my hopes up for nothing

I want to be fucked by a man so bad it hurts.

I legitimately want a woman to give me permission to have sex with her. I'm scared of rejection and women's authority.

>>82886785
>Don't tell me you got my hopes up for nothing
This creeps me out. We are anonymous strangers on the internet who have exchanged about 6 messages, don't hold me accountable for anything or feel entitled because I was nice to you, that is creepy guy behaviour. I offered you to give you my reddit despite not liking social commitments at all, exactly because of stuff like this: getting guilttripped for not living up to expectations of others. I hope you find a friend, but I have been manipulated too many times to be willing to take the risk of getting in a toxic friendship again.

>>82883641
I wonder if its the same guy being annoying or unbelievably retard, as in, physically visible retardation

This dude doenst seem to understand that an ick is something you dislike, and has the audacity to pull an comeback when rejected, like hes being inconvenienced.>>82878783
for example

>>82878240 (OP)
I cant stop listening to boyfriend asmr
Im about to go to sleep and i WILL be listening to boyfriend asmr on youtube

>>82886966
Forgive a robot for being socially inept geez. How would I have known that was a no no?