>>82890476 (OP)
>I'm 30, I still got time
time to lay down and rot. time to let it go. time to learn how to cope.
if you didn't make it by the time you were 25 you are not making it period.
>I have to do it for my mother, I can't let her down.
borderline cuck mentality combined with gynocentrism and unhealthy submissiveness.
had she been there for you, had she prepared you for life, you wouldn't be in this situation, posting about turning your life around at 30 on a dying imageboard to your fellow losers.
let it go man, we are part of that gray matter that just disappear into the ether of time.