Thread 82893059

Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual support

weekend almost heree :DD

Hello
>How are you doing today?
>Any plans for today?
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
>Why did you hurt yourself?
>Is there anything bothering you right now?

hii
Here's a bunch of helpful links

> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):
https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7

> first aid post cuting:
https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/

>a wound care guide:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic

>a bpd workbook:
https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read

> bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)
https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c

> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)
workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:
https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdf

Please don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them

vine boom
hope you guys in this gen r well

>>82893124
hello anon
I'm okay
hope you are well too ^^

Done for today. Have a few hours before meeting my brother. Just taking it easy in the meantime

>>82884985
>what about turkey day? do you get a off for that?
yes! I'm using at the milestone for I made it through the year. I think people are in holiday mode so things are slow and bad things are less likely to happen after that
>cool you guys could put your differences and disagreements aside to have a nice evening.
I couldn't resist the urge to doing something that will make him uncomfortable though as a prank but should be fine lol
>i can't see you do that
i can since i definitely had times i worried so much over something i made life way harder than it needed to be

>>82885222
>maybe lay down or have a nap fren
i crashed pretty early last night and took a nap today
>start throwing just enough and not any more than necessary?
i'm just gonna make more of a real effort to get away. Not the best time to but I can't take it anymore

>>82886221
didn't reply to this yesterday before i crashed but hope you had a nice day!

>>82885274
>doesn't seem that bad.
not too bad in theory, but it depends on how bad people in charge make things out to be. See people make a big deal of nothing quite often

>>82887129
>what exactly happened mate?
tech problems. Ones I had no control over, but it's stressful when it happens. Never know when things will get blamed on you when stuff is falling apart, especially by less technical people who don't understand why things aren't working

>>82893662
and this was me. Forgot to post the name but might be obvious

sup, still clean, 100 days now...
but i have few questions for yall. how do you cope, with the fact that someone just wins, and he does not even need to try, and i fail, even tho i do so fucking much.
i have a brother. hes better at every single thing he does. he does not even fucking need to try, but i?
i work my ass off, and guess what... im still a disappointment for my fahter. idk anyways, hope you all have the strength to respond, and not cut xdxd
btw sup officeanon and cat :)

hello everyone
i'm tired :/ mentally and physically

>>82893059 (OP)
hru cat? how was your day?

>>82893662
>especially by less technical people who don't understand why things aren't working
oh so you had to fix everything by yourself? that sure is tiring
glad you made it mate :)
so what are you doing now before meeting your brother?


>>82893820
yo!
>still clean, 100 days now...
that's so nice pal! good job!

>he does not even fucking need to try, but i?
first of all i know that it hurts, i'm having a similar problem with my studying, but my way of "coping" might not be what you're seeking
it's just that i got used to it over a lot of years (yet it still annoys me but not as bad as before) but maybe at your case we need to know what exactly is the thing that your brother is getting better at?
>better at every single thing he doe
yeah like what?
cuz of it was something that's actually difficult, it's either he is trying above his power but he doesn't show how tired he is, or he's just lucky
>disappointment
did your father literally say that you disappointed him? cuz if he didn't then you don't really know what's he's thinking of! which means the disappointment thing is only in your mind which isn't really surprising, i think almost everyone had felt like that one day. :)

Missing white gator really bad rn. Hope hes okay out there

hello everyone
i'm tired :/ mentally and physically

>>82893059 (OP) (OP)
hru cat? how was your day?

>>82893662
>especially by less technical people who don't understand why things aren't working
oh so you had to fix everything by yourself? that sure is tiring
glad you made it mate :)
so what are you doing now before meeting your brother?


>>82893820
yo!
>still clean, 100 days now...
that's so nice pal! good job!

>he does not even fucking need to try, but i?
first of all i know that it hurts, i'm having a similar problem with my studying, but my way of "coping" might not be what you're seeking
it's just that i got used to it over a lot of years (yet it still annoys me) but maybe at your case we need to know what exactly is the thing that your brother is getting better at?
>better at every single thing he doe
yeah like what?
cuz of it was something that's actually difficult, it's either he is trying above his power but he doesn't show how tired he is, or he's just lucky
>disappointment
did your father literally say that you disappointed him? cuz if he didn't then you don't really know what's he's thinking of! which means the disappointment thing is only in your mind which isn't really surprising, i think almost everyone had felt like that one day. :)

>>82894212
we didn't get anything new about him ever since his last respond right?
i hope everything is okay

>>82894232
Yeah nothing new on my end

>>82894212
I think someone here talks to him on discord if anyone's concerned. He sounded busy but decent last time

>>82894232
hey rm
>mentally and physically
i hear you, especially mentally. More of the same for you?
> fix everything by yourself?
not even that, since it was major issues with amazon that effected most people in tech everywhere. Lots of sites were down and just really shitty. I couldn't do anything, but I'm always on edge about getting in trouble over stuff that's out of my control
>so what are you doing now before meeting your brother?
mostly browsing here and looking up a few things. I'm gonna go early since I can hang around a few shops and maybe get a bite before movie time

hey guys

>>82893662
hey
sounds like a busy day
hope you have fun though
>gonna make more of a real effort to get away.
best of luck !!!!
they don't deserve you

>>82893820
Hello :>
>still clean, 100 days now
nicee :0
>do you cope, with the fact that someone just wins,
I just get angry about it sometimes and most of the time I just sorta accept it, there's how life has always been because life is unfair and it sucks
But if you want to you can also vent about it here
oh and know that you are working hard and it counts, even if some annoying people might blame you and say that you clearly weren't working hard enough if you haven't reached your goal
They just don't know how easy they have it and take it for granted and don't listen to those ppl
>hope you all have the strength to respond, and not cut
thank you
responding and not cutting, check! :3

>>82894212
same I been wondering about him but maybe he just need some time alone
If he doesn't show up today I might ask him on discord what's up

>>82894232
Heya o/
>i'm tired :/
sorry to hear that
how are you gonna relax? and can you even relax or do you have to deal with more annoying things?
>how was your day?
just stayed at home and worked on a project a little and attended some classes :3
it was a very warm day today but unfortunately too busy for a bikeride :<

>>82894388
>More of the same for you?
sometimes numb but it actually isn't the biggest problem this time

well, i need to ask people who went to therapy about something, i just wanna know how did it feel at the beginning?
currently i feel strange, like, i feel like my problems aren't even worth mentioning in front of a therapist. this makes me think twice about going to therapy but i must go, i've been waiting for a long time already

can i talk quickly about my problems and you guys tell me if they sound silly?

>Lots of sites were down and just really shitty.
>but I'm always on edge about getting in trouble over stuff that's out of my control
ouch dude that's so annoying
how did things get better? are you still in trouble?

>browsing here and looking up a few things
>I can hang around a few shops and maybe get a bite before movie time
mhm i see, have fun mate! enjoy everything

>>82894484
>how are you gonna relax? and can you even relax
i can :)
i'm drinking tea and talking to yall, gonna eat something while drinking tea too

>just stayed at home and worked on a project a little and attended some classes :3
woah productivity :>
good job!!
>it was a very warm day today but unfortunately too busy for a bikeride :<
it's okay go tomorrow, how about that :?

>>82894484
Has he been replying to in the past couple of days? Like since the 21st?

>>82894484
hey cat! How are you?
>sounds like a busy day
not too bad! little bit of work I did was all right. And now it's all fun from here on out.
>hope you have fun though
thanks! Hope you have a good evening too!
>they don't deserve you
feel most places don't deserve most their employees, but that's how the world works. People need money

>>82894528
>isn't the biggest problem this time
hm what would you say is?
> i just wanna know how did it feel at the beginning?
always a bit uncomfortable. I've been in and out of therapy. Most recent time I wasn't really why I was there. Usually it takes time for a therapist to get to know you too is part of the problem. Once they do they start asking questions that will get where they need to
>can i talk quickly about my problems
of course! Always! I and everyone here are usually happy to listen and give advice and thoughts. Sometimes I randomly disappear, but will get back if it's important and need help
>how did things get better? are you still in trouble?
things are fine technically, but i have a harder and harder time figuring out if i'm in trouble or safe these days
>enjoy everything
thanks!

>>82894566
>>82894566
>i can :)
woo :D
glad you can chill
if tomorrow and the weekend are going to be like that too?
>i'm drinking tea and talking to yall, gonna eat something while drinking tea too
sounds like a comfy autumn evening ^^
what are you going to eat?
>woah productivity :>
sorta, it was hard to force myself to care but I luckily did
>good job!!
thank you :D
>okay go tomorrow, how about that :?
nope because it's supposed to rain but maybe I'll go on in sunday
the weather's supposed to be nice and sunny that day

>>82894583
hm nope not really
he does disappear for a few days sometimes though
ur worried?

>>82894664
>How are you?
stayed at home and worked on a project a little and attended some classes, it was hard to force myself to care about it but I managed
>And now it's all fun from here on out.
phewww
that's great I'm happy for you
hope it says like that for a while
>Hope you have a good evening too!
ty
I'll be chill for sure
>People need money
yep but companies need employees too
though not they can try replacing them with ai

>>82893059 (OP)
hi catbro! :> what's up?

>>82893662
>Have a few hours before meeting my brother. Just taking it easy in the meantime
nice. have fun watching that csm movie! man, for the past twenty years csm meant chaos space marine to me. that chainsaw man uses the short form really messes with my brain... ^^'[\spoiler]

>the milestone for I made it through the year.
that makes a lot of sense. we don't really have anything similar here. a few people try to make halloween a thing, but it's just not a real tradition here. just something that people saw in american media and companies saw something they could use to sell more stuff. i think there was a sort of thanksgiving in nazi-germany, but we don't really do stuff from that time period any more for obvious reasons. (^-^;) there's still a few holidays as in free days, but nothing where the whole family gathers to celebrate something.

>the urge to doing something that will make him uncomfortable though as a prank but should be fine
what did you do?

>i worried so much over something i made life way harder than it needed to be
let's hope times changed for the better, then.

>>82893671
:0

>>82893820
>still clean, 100 days now...
good job! :D

>hes better at every single thing he does. he does not even fucking need to try
as hard as it is, i think the best thing you can do is to stop comparing yourself to him. there'll always be people who are better in whatever you're trying to do, but it's your own journey and growth that should matter to you.

>im still a disappointment for my fahter.
it sucks, but he has probably made up his mind about you and that's hard to change and probably not worth a conscious effort at this point. the thing with stuff like approval and respect is, the more you chase it, the less likely it is that you'll get it.

>hope you all have the strength to respond, and not cut xdxd
thanks, fren. same to you.

>>82894232
>>82894232
hey rem!

>i'm tired :/ mentally and physically
can you at least take it easy today?

>>82895183
dang, messed up the spoiler on that one...

>>82894664
>hm what would you say is?
i think i'll mention it while talking about all of the problems overall. thanks for asking, really

>always a bit uncomfortable. I've been in and out of therapy.
yup that's obvious. also, glad you're better now!

>Once they do they start asking questions that will get where they need to
i see, i understand, this will obviously take more than 1 session which i'm not planning for

>but i have a harder and harder time figuring out if i'm in trouble or safe these days
so what's going to happen now? i suppose it isn't the weekend yet there no? what are you going to do about the trouble?

>>82894664
>of course! Always! I and everyone here are usually happy to listen and give advice and thoughts. Sometimes I randomly disappear, but will get back if it's important and need help
thank you so much :)
talking about every single thing felt strange, so i'll make it simple:

had poor social connection for a long time
probably have ocd
overthinking ever since i was kid
had an emotional shock, maybe 2 or 3 and still hurt cuz of some of them
big fights broke out between me and some of my family, it hurt me alot back then but now it's fixed, but things -for me- got escalated probably, it was in the beginning of my teenage era so you can imagine what would a teenager do
i started cutting at some point (not going to tell the therapist about that)
i'm melancholic as fuck, i'm melancholic to the point where i just can't get rid of my feelings towards my sadness
also i miss a friend, i mentioned that here before. i remember having something like a breakdown at some point where our friendship was going to an end

getting stressed alot recently
and at the end, i don't remember having a day that i could call "happy" in a long time

>>82895131
>glad you can chill
thanks :>
>tomorrow and the weekend are going to be like that too?
kinda, i have 6 exams next week D:
yesterday i said they were 4, but things are different now D:

>sounds like a comfy autumn evening
yup :D
>what are you going to eat?
a croissant filled with chocolate, i'll eat it while drinking tea later

>sorta, it was hard to force myself to care but I luckily did
>but I luckily did
that's what matters! :D
will you do more tomorrow?

>sunday the weather's supposed to be nice and sunny that day
i see, well, enjoy the rain tomorrow! i love the rain :D

>>82895240
hey yuanon!
>can you at least take it easy today?
yup gladly.
btw did you watch the csm movie? i saw you talking about it but didn't wanna see the spoilers, not sure what is it going to spoil

>>82895183
hey hey hey hey :3
really for friday and the weekend???
>what's up
not much
just forced myself to attend some classes and work on teh project
bow I'm chilling and I'll probably read about ww1 bikes
or and I nearly forgot, I had pizza today ^^
How are you?

woa so much redacted text, yuanon spilling government secrets

>>82895540
>thanks :>
ur welcome!
>have 6 exams next week D:
whaaaaatttt?
that's murder!
are you prepared for them?
>croissant filled with chocolate, i'll eat it while drinking tea later
mm sounds tasty
>will you do more tomorrow?
maybe I will
but I'm pretty unpredictable and pretty lazy so who knows
>enjoy the rain tomorrow!
thank you
>love the rain :D
will you get some soon?

>>82895540
>yup gladly.
that's good. what are you gonna do? watch something?

>did you watch the csm movie? i saw you talking about it but didn't wanna see the spoilers, not sure what is it going to spoil
i didn't and no worries. i just wanted to disconnect the things said before and after, but messed up the spoiler and it spoilered the whole post, including replies to other people. don't drink and try to implement spoilers, i guess.

>>82895591
>really for friday and the weekend???
i definitely am. it's gonna be a rough one, though. i'll visit and stay with my friends on saturday after doing my work out and then we'll all go to a big board game convention on sunday. fun, but exhausting.

>forced myself to attend some classes and work on teh project
may the force be with you.

>I'm chilling and I'll probably read about ww1 bikes
chill evening ahead of you. :> what got you interested in those bikes?

>I had pizza today ^^
nice. could go for one right now, but i've already eaten more than enough today.

>How are you?
i'm good. work went alright, but i don't really know what to do with the evening. just listening to some stream and staring at the screen.

>woa so much redacted text, yuanon spilling government secrets
no... just fucked up... (T~T)

>>82895591
who put the cat on the pizza
>that's murder!
i know right?
>are you prepared for them?
most of them are okay but the one on wednesday is just so difficult, glad i have enough time to study for it, but i crave for a comfy sleep currently. *_*
>mm sounds tasty
it is indeed
>but I'm pretty unpredictable and pretty lazy so who knows
there will always be virtual motivation when needed! :D
>thank you
o7
>will you get some soon?
yup :)

>that's good. what are you gonna do? watch something?
i think i'll eat smthn again and watch youtube
what about you?
> including replies to other people
yup i noticed later lol, happens

>>82895909

>>82895909
forgot to "reply" in the second part of my post yuanon

>>82895909

>>82895719
forgot to tag your reply in the second part of my post yuanon

>>82895909
>i think i'll eat smthn again and watch youtube
that should do it. :>

>what about you?
had a glass of whisky, listening to some guys talking about media and playing the dawn of war definitive editon campaign. just a mission or two.

>>82895719
>it's gonna be a rough one,
on no! socializing!! 3x
hope you still have some fun
maybe get an emergency energy drink?
btw anybdays off some time soon?
>>82895719
>the force be with you.
m(-_- )m
>chill evening ahead of you. :>
yep :3
>what got you interested in those bikes?
not much just thought it's an interesting subject
>but i've already eaten more than enough today.
tomorrow then ;3
or during that con
>don't really know what to do with the evening
bladerunner??
>just fucked up... (T~T)
ooh it's okayyy

>>82895909
>put the cat on the pizza
the cat!
I had pizza today :3
>know right?
fortunately ur smart
>on wednesday is just so difficult,
nooo D,:
wishing you luck
what's it gonna be? like math or literature kind?
>crave for a comfy sleep currently. *_*
can you sleep well and not have to study a lot today?
>always be virtual motivation when needed! :D
ty ^^
but leave some for yourself pls

>>82895131
Yes I was in a group chat with him and on discord and he removed or left on all of those platforms and then he posted that the other day that sounded like a permanent goodbye

>>82896300
>on no! socializing!! 3x hope you still have some fun
i'm looking forward to it, but i'm not going to pretend in won't be exhausting. ^^

>maybe get an emergency energy drink?
don't have anything at hand rn. just some sparkling water.

>anybdays off some time soon?
luckily i don't have to go to work tomorrow, so i can chill a bit before the weekend.

>just thought it's an interesting subject
fair enough. where are you reading about them?

>tomorrow then ;3 or during that con
still got some leftovers from yesterday, so i should eat those before i get anything else and on saturday we'll go to an indonesian place. maybe on sunday. fingers crossed.

>bladerunner??
you really are relentless when it comes to that movie. ^^ i don't think i want to start it today, but i don't have any plans for tomorrow, so i should be able to put it on then.

>>82896086
>just a mission or two.
i see i see, what're you gonna do now? sleep?

>>82896300
>I had pizza today
woah did it taste good?

>fortunately ur smart
:D thanks (speechless as usual)
>wishing you luck
thanks!
>like math or literature kind?
physics D:

>can you sleep well and not have to study a lot today?
yup i'll sleep well :) hopefully

>ty
np!

>but leave some for yourself
dw about me :D


>>82896406
wasn't there someone that was able to text him on discord? what happened after?

>>82896473
>what're you gonna do now? sleep?
just started the second mission. i have a hard time playing and typing at the same time. ^^

>>82896560
oh alright! have fun :D
don't worry about typing!

>>82896406
hm maybe he just needs a break from people ?
how did you know he posts here?

>>82896436
>looking forward to it,
I'm glad then
>don't have anything at hand rn
maybe you could buy it on the way or get some tomorrow to prepare
>don't have to go to work
yeaaaa! B3
i may be happier about it than you are lol
I good you can have some more rest
>where are you reading about them?
mainly I'm trying to look for pictures of old books or newspaper articles from the time talking about them
and also found this https://bsamuseum.wordpress.com/beginnings-of-war-machines/
>got some leftovers from yesterday
that's okay too
what did you eat yesterday?
>indonesian place
woa
>you really are relentless when it comes to that movie. ^^
it's pretty good ^w^
and you WILL watch it muehehe

>>82896473
>did it taste good?
oh yeah B3
it was a ham and cheese pizza just the way I like it
>thanks
ue welcom ^^
>physics D:
oh my goodness
so it's worse than i though DD;
>yup i'll sleep well
great maybe you could listen to something nice and calming in bed to fall asleep easier?
>dw about me :D
I'll try not to

>>82896658
He told me

I was trying to get a feel for what his social life was like so I knew how to help him. It was our friend group that gave him the courage to ask to go back to school

>>82886242
hi yu
>how's that going?
Almost done coughing
>odd. did you get it to work?
No I just requested for the test to be enabled on IOS.
>that stings, but maybe he's just waiting for his old one to finally croak so he can completely move to the new one
maybe, idk. Maybe he just likes what he's used to.
>>82893059 (OP)
>>Any plans for today?
Just played alien isolation all day.
>video of today
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0y7RlspODPM
>>82896658
hi cat
it was a ham and cheese pizza just the way I like it
Sounds pretty good. What about pineapple?
>>82896560
i have a hard time playing and typing at the same time. ^^
I always just pause. I gave up. I feel ya

in da bed
dreaming time
gn

>>82896805
hey
have fun gaming

>>82896658
>cheese pizza
i guess you did enjoy your meal!

>worse than i thought
:(
hope it goes well

>listen to something nice and calming
yup yup maybe i'll do that

>i'll try not to
:]

hey, if anyone is still up

>>82897216
I am here. Thought I might namefag for a bit im a friend of white gator. (Also I love this story

Hello everyone, how're you all doing?

>How are you doing today
I'm feeling alright now, maybe even a little good? I honestly can't really tell, but I'm not too anxious or depressed at the moment, though I was earlier.

>any plans?
To hit the hay! It's not very late at night, but I really ought to start improving my sleep habits.

>when and why did you hurt yourself?
I plead the fifth! x3

>is there anything bothering you?
A bit of anxiety towards some stuff relating to some personal business, and toward my relative unproductiveness today. Although, I tell myself there wasn't much of anything to do but wait.

>>82897216
Hello, my good friend. What a fine night it is! Why the heck am I writing in this voice? I have too much energy right now x3

>>82897355
Hello and welcome! Do you have any info on how White Gator is doing? I really hope he's just doing a social media detox! ;-;
Also, did you know that the Scarlet Ibis is the national bird of Trinidad and Tobago?

>>82896595
thanks, i did. time for bed, though. (~.~)

>>82896658
>maybe you could buy it on the way or get some tomorrow to prepare
maybe i should. i even got a big bottle for water so i won't run out or have to buy super expensive stuff at the con.

>i may be happier about it than you are lol
i'm happy about it alright, but i think i'm too tired to show it sometimes. ^^

>I'm trying to look for pictures of old books or newspaper articles from the time talking about them and also found this
that's really interesting. i suppose military always is an early adopter of new tech when it could prove useful.

>what did you eat yesterday?
stuffed bellpepper with rice.

>you WILL watch it muehehe
pinky promise.

>>82896805
>Almost done coughing
yay! \o/

>I just requested for the test to be enabled on IOS.
did they do it?

>Maybe he just likes what he's used to.
it can be really hard to kick old habits and getting uses to a new system is way more daunting and depressing than it has any right to be. give him some time. he'll come around eventually.

>Just played alien isolation all day.
how is it?

>I always just pause. I gave up. I feel ya
i'm way past my gaming prime anyway, so no wonder i can only do one thing at a time. and this post took me forever to write. i should just go to bed.

>>82896842
good night!

good night, everyone!

>>82897587
No unfortunately hes gone silent on me and my friends too. I didnt know that I knew a guy from there a maintenance guy at my old work he was a big black guy but he was one of the coolest people there. Anyways yeah im worried sick about white gator.

>>82897355
hey, hope you're okay.
>friend of white gator
hope he's okay, you heard from him recently? he hasn't been here lately.

>>82897666
No I haven't around the 21st he ghosted a of my friends and removed me on discord. My friend is also worried about him. I sent a message to someone I believe is close to him via cash app (which he gave me so I could give him money for a game). Beyond that ive heard nothing. My friend thinks and i do too he tried to take his own life and more than likely didnt succeed. Hopefully hes just recovering at the moment and will be back shortly

>>82897700
>>82897618
>failed and is recovering
I really hope so. He gave an ominous goodbye in the last general as well: "goodbye, love you all. stay safe and happy"
Judging by how he sounded in the last general, he seemed to be in decent spirits on the 21st until his last message at >>82876141

>>82897910
Yeah those messages where he seemed in good spirits, 5:45am were just before school, but also after he left all our group chats

Can one of you tell me the appeal? I've almost caved 2 mens skulls across the asphalt, but she swares it wasn't there fault. How can I fix her? How do I stop her from doing this?

>>82899052
*their
original post

it's the page ten aaaa noo

morning fellas

>>82901040
Hi good morning. Whats going on for you this morning?

CSM movie was good and lived up to expectations I'd hoped for. Glad I went to see in theater since it was fun experience overall. Didn't feel that uncomfortable despite originally having reservations about seeing an anime film in public, went all and wore an anime shirt(if even to say my shirt sucks lol) and people stopped to talk to me. Probably makes me look easier approach since i usually intimidate people.

>>82895131
>hope it says like that for a while
back to normal now, but it's the weekend tomorrow, so I will survive
>though not they can try replacing them with ai
this may happen on a small scale, but gets exaggerated. Companies are really replacing people with cheaper people 9 times out of 10

>>82895183
>have fun watching that csm movie!
thanks! I liked it and was fun being at the theater(funny thing with CSM is people cosplaying just look like they are going to an office job lol). A lot of style changes that I enjoyed after reading the manga and comparing art against the S1 anime. Direction was very good overall and emotional. Have a deeper appreciation for how adaptions can extend single panels into full scenes
> csm meant chaos space marine
acronyms I guess lol Safe to assume if I say CSM it's probably not that, but I'll be clear if I somehow get into warhammer lol
> not a real tradition here
not much of one here unless you're a child or college kid going to parties
>but nothing where the whole family gathers to celebrate something
a lot of people would like not having to do this here since thanksgiving is synonymous with awkward family fights on politics
>what did you do?
walked in wearing hoodie and unzipped to show I was wearing an anime shirt. Definitely gave off a "this is my waifu" vibe(wasn't anything inappropriate since there are some out there that are VERY awkward) but I think he thought it was more funny than anything and just shook his head and said he doesn't want to sit next to me. Honestly, just joking and running gags about weebs

>>82895540
I didn't get to reply till now since I left for movies, but here now
> felt strange, so i'll make it simple
no worries and no judgement here. Can definitely relate to some things.
>had poor social connection for a long time
i'd say it's a lot of us. We're all quite different, but feel a lot of people who came to this board one point or another probably had a troublesome youth. I didn't have friends at all growing up and turned online to get by. You can grow out of this, but it's hard
>overthinking
same. That's a common symptom of OCD and a lot of anxiety oriented disorders (which I have the later). Usually manifests as a kid and can get worse as you age
>emotional shock
think we all have things like those, some of us deal better than others. I think the best you can do is try to get to a point you don't think nonstop, even if it still hurts. Though may take time to get to the point you can ignore.
>big fights
>i miss a friend
and the problem is when you are very socially isolated, I feel you're willing to try to do anything to keep people around, which is also a recipe for trouble and can strain relationsips
>getting stressed alot recently
overall, I can say I hear you. I don't think it's abnormal to feel bad given how rough things are. Really hard to dig your way out of those things, but am sure you can, just might not be easy. Hope the therapy can help, if even to clear your thoughts and start thinking in the right direction

>>82897700
>>82897910
That is a bit concerning. Agreed, hope he's okay. Knew he was out of school for a few weeks but due back soon. Due tell if you hear something, if even over discord.

>>82901040
Holy moly it's /cat/! Hello how are you doing :3

I am kinda surprised to see the general still going so early

>>82901150
The CSM movie sounds like a good time! I remember reading volume 1 or season 1 or something of the manga back when I was a weeb. That must've been pretty cool :3

little bump, i'll reply shortly

>>82901302
just wanna say, the mind blow warthog is my favorite reaction sticker lol
>sounds like a good time!
I haven't been to the cinema in a long time. Just nothing coming out I really felt interested in. Great experience though
>remember reading
I slept on for a long time. I remember when S1 anime came out, I thought it sounded stupid and had zero interest, but it wasn't what I expected and enjoyed it, all the characters, and overall tone of the story.
>back when I was a weeb
I was a weeb as a kid, "grew out" at college for being insecure, and then went full weeb again after also going full gym bro/bodybuilder since I realize no one will say shit to me. To each his own. Life is hard enough with worrying about what you like or don't like being accepted.

why the fuck are niggas on shtwt so much like what's good about that community bruh you're gonna get aids from a bad razor or something

>>82901196
I'll read the rest and reply later, I'm feeling so strange rn, not numb but idk,.l something really strange and bad :/

>>82901196
I'll read the rest and reply later, I'm feeling so strange rn, not numb but idk, something really strange and bad :/

>>82901088
hello
>Whats going on for you this morning?
not much
I just been watching yt videos and went to the store to get some snacks
what about you?

>>82901150
Heya
>movie was good and lived up to expectations
aw I'm glad you enjoy it and had a fun day
>people stopped to talk to me.
woa that's nice
what did they say?
>back to normal
>>>:c
>this may happen on a small scale, but gets exaggerated
maybe
I wonder if there any data about it
>people with cheaper people 9 times out of 10
true true

>>82901302
hey hey
>how are you doing :3
I'm okay, I'm watching stuff on youtube and sooner or later I'll go work a little on my uni project
how are you doing?
>kinda surprised to see the general still going so early
they do that sometimes :3

>>82901479
helloo o/
>>82901951
hope you feel better soon friend
>strange and bad :/
maybe like an anxiety attack?

>>82902195
>hope you feel better soon
thanks pal :]
>anxiety attack
i dont know, maybe
i feel like my brain is braining a bit too much xd
i think i need to sleep but im visiting my relatives rn

>>82902380
>dont know, maybe
damn ://
>brain is braining a bit too much xd
how much have you been sleeping lately? maybe you're not getting enough
Youshould sit down, breathe deeply and tell me 3 things you can smell, things you can hear, feel and 3 things you can see
Take it slow and it might help u feel a bit calmer

>>82902796
cute pic :)

>how much have you been sleeping lately
not really well iirc

>breathe deeply and tell me 3 things you can smell
would've done that but the room is full of people and i got a bit better now, still feeling bad tho, idk it feels like i can barely feel anything

thank you so much for everything cat

>>82902929
>cute pic :)
(>^^)><(^^<)
>not really wel
that's not great :/
but it's not ur fault
>but the room is full of people
I see
when are you going to get back home?
can you maybe leave for a little walk?
>thank you so much for everything cat
no problemo :>

>>82902968
>not great
sadly

>when are you going back home
idk, maybe 2 hours later or more

>a little walk
sadly i can't walk alone, i don't know the streets here
so walking together with someone isn't gonna really help

>>82901951
no worries. Take your time. No need to talk or reply when you're not feeling it. Take care and hope it passes. Can always talk too if needed, but sometimes sometimes just need time on your own.

>>82902195
>glad you enjoy it and had a fun day
i ate way too much popcorn though. I got a lot and was shoveling it down. Made myself kinda sick that night and didn't sleep well as a result.
>what did they say?
eh not much, just passing comments about my shirt and saying stuff about the movie/manga. It's just kind of nice because I'm not used to running into people with similar interests in things irl, so it feels weird to see people who like stuff you like that everyone else around doesn't
>I wonder if there any data about it
probably hard to get, at least here. Companies don't have to tell why they fire people. And what they say is the reason is often a publicity stunt. Many places saying AI replaces people were struggling before coming out with this and needed a way out.

>>82903007
>maybe 2 hours later or more
goodness me that's a while :\
what kind of stuff are you going to do there?
>sadly i can't walk alone
too bad :s

>>82903141
>Take care and hope it passes
thanks for everything mate :>
few hours i'll reply to everything

>need time on your own
yup, exactly

>>82903158
>a while
yeah :/
>to do there?
I'll be using my phone and eat, they're nice but i don't have a lot to do in their house

>>82903158
>a while
yeah :/
>to do there?
I'll be using my phone and eat dinner, they're nice but i don't have a lot to do in their house

>>82903300
>using my phone and eat dinner
at least you can yse your phone
what's for dinner btw?
>don't have a lot to do in their house
happens to me too
do you think maybe you could hang out in some empty room?

>>82903735
>atleast you can yse your phone
yup
>what's for dinner
a dish made of seasoned rice and chicken, that's just the description :]

>happens to me too
boring so much

>empty room
sadly no :/

>>82903936
>yup
do you have headphones with you too?
maybe you could watch something
>seasoned rice and chicken,
always a good combo :]
do you like it?
>sadly no :/
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>Any plans for today?
Just writing.
>>82896842
>have fun gaming
thx cat, i did
>>82897613
did they do it?
yeah he did.
>he'll come around eventually.
maybe. I switched him to bazzite and it appears to run as good as his old laptop despite using the whole gpu. I wonder if it would be any different on dgpu. maybe I'm just making problems for myself.
>>82899052
hi mars
>How can I fix her? How do I stop her from doing this?
I would just shit down and talk with her. Sometimes people just wanna talk things out but don't and it leaves them with pent up anger.

>>82901150
>CSM movie was good and lived up to expectations
yay! \o/

>went all and wore an anime shirt(if even to say my shirt sucks lol) and people stopped to talk to me. Probably makes me look easier approach since i usually intimidate people.
that's cool. what did you guys talk about? and what shirt did you wear?

>people cosplaying just look like they are going to an office job lol
guess it's a good way of getting into that part of the hobby. not so obvious to outsiders and probably fairly cheap, too. ^^

>Direction was very good overall and emotional. Have a deeper appreciation for how adaptions can extend single panels into full scenes
hard to believe they didn't fuck up, but a welcome change of pace.

>I'll be clear if I somehow get into warhammer lol
thanks. 20 years of conditioning are hard to get over.

>unless you're a child or college kid going to parties
i suppose we got a holiday like that here as well. st. martin's day. it's basically a holiday for children here like halloween is in the u.s.

>thanksgiving is synonymous with awkward family fights on politics
good to get it out of the system before christmas, i suppose. a lot of people have similar stories, just a bit later down the year.

>I was wearing an anime shirt. Definitely gave off a "this is my waifu" vibe
just gotta establish some things right out of the gate.

>Honestly, just joking and running gags about weebs
as long as you two know how to take it, that's fine.

hey everyone!

ello people, not doing too good desu.

>>82904417
hey o/
>i did
that's good
and I hope that today is a fun days for you and that nothing unexpected will interrupt ur writing!

>>82904499
Heya
how's it goin??

>>82904526
ello ello
>not doing too good
what's up?

>>82904526
hey chev! sorry you're having a rough time again. :/

>>82904597
hi catbro!

>how's it goin?
didn't have that good of a day. slept bad, woke up worse. kinda just wasted today. you?

I have no blade which is upsetting using a staple it is better than nothing
Maybe study as I am in uni
I am kind of a repper so thats my source of misery

>>82904783
>>82904783
>slept bad, woke up worse.
oh my oh my
sorry to hear that, you do have a couple hours left today you can dedicate to relaxing
What are you gonna do with them?
need any recommendations?
>kinda just wasted today. you?
I wouldn't say you wasted it, you don't choose to feel like that
>you?
I went to the store and that's about it I thought about working on the project but couldn't be bothered
now I read a little about old bikes and now I'll look on yt to find something nice to watch

>>82904940
Hello anon
>staple it is better than nothing
youch
>Maybe study as I am in uni
best of luck
how's uni going btw?
>kind of a repper
what's a repper ?

>>82904417
hey cynic!
>Just writing.
have fun

>>82904499
hey yuanon! how's it going?
>yay
I'm so damn tired today though. I made myself sick eating way too much popcorn and a burger and some beers before that. Probably shouldn't have done this Thursday night
>what did you guys talk about?
just manga/movie etc. Real quick casual, but like I told cat, it feels really weird talking irl to people about this stuff. I never really met anyone who like anime or any of this type of stuff (and am more used to getting made fun of for it in the past) so it was quite nice
>what shirt did you wear?
just a graphic of Makima from one of the scenes of S1 CSM.
>hard to believe they didn't fuck up,
it's hard to speak objectively since i like this series more than the other big ones that got movies, but I thought it was the best of the anime films I've seen. Demon Slayer films were decent and JJK0 I kinda didn't like at all and thought was kinda mediocre.
>st. martin's day
had to look this up but yeah, seems like the non commercial equivalent lol
> 20 years of conditioning are hard to get over.
me constantly having to say "I went to a Catholic school growing up"
>good to get it out of the system before christmas
optimistic to think it's possible and it just won't be two consecutive holidays of it!
>as long as you two know how to take it
Only person I have a decent relationship with in my family for a reason. I feel like my sisters get/offended outraged no matter what I do so it is what is

>>82904526
hey chev, you doing okay over there?

>>82904597
>what's up?
just don't feel like doing anything at all.

>>82904783
it's whatever desu, not much i can do about it.

>>82905209
>you doing okay over there?
not really, but i'm not sure how to fix it either. gonna pray for a heart attack or smthn

>>82902968
Those cats are so cute! :>

>>82902195
>how are you doing?
To be honest, I made a huge mistake today. Not something that'll upend my life, but an important one. I will not elaborate on what it was. It will take long, but I'll try my best to undo it as best I can. Other than that though, I'm chilling :3 (or trying to at least).

>>82901499
>mind blow warthog is my favorite reaction sticker
I think you mentioned that in this general at some point. I had only recalled once you mentioned it, though.

>went full weeb again after also going full gym bro/bodybuilder
That's kinda "gap moe" x3

>Life is hard enough with worrying about what you like or don't like being accepted
Ain't that the truth!

>>82905251
>gonna pray for a heart attack
That's way too relatable. Hope things get better. It sucks when there's a big problem or mistake you can't do much about.

>>82905125
I difficult ig
A repper is someone who is trans but chooses not to transition and so they repress and are consequently miserable

going back home i had enough time to think a lot
and i got a feeling i kinda forgot about
i remembered how helpless i am :\
when i used to get that feeling i remember how it felt like there's fire inside of my chest, now i get that helplessness feeling while trying my best to feel anything, i think the numbness is growing inside of me day by day i just wanna feel atleast sad or any actual feeling
i was just distracted lately, i just forgot how hopeless my feelings are

i will isolate myself irl again, i did that last year but stopped when i eventually got better. i need a lot of time alone again.
sadly i won't be able to fully isolate myself, i still have to talk to some people but i can partially isolate myself

>>82901196
>I didn't get to reply till now since I left for movies
don't worry mate

>no worries and no judgement here.
thank you

>You can grow out of this, but it's hard
yep, i don't have a lot to say about this but it's true

>and a lot of anxiety oriented disorders (which I have the later)
hope it's not that bad for you these days

>to a point you don't think nonstop, even if it still hurts.
yup, that's what kinda happened

>when you are very socially isolated, I feel you're willing to try to do anything to keep people around
thank you, i felt like it described something important about a problem i have

>but am sure you can, just might not be easy. Hope the therapy can help
thank you so much mate
i have a question tho, do you think my feelings are valid? would the therapist think like my feelings aren't real?

>>82904108
cute pic
>do you have headphones with you too? maybe you could watch something
i had them but didn't watch anything, i'm home now tho
>always a good combo :] do you like it?
lol yup, i like it

>>82904499
hello yuanon
how you doing?

>>82904526
chev!
>not doing too good
why? what's the matter?

>>82905125
>you do have a couple hours left today you can dedicate to relaxing
true. that reminds me, i need to check the laundry.

>What are you gonna do with them? need any recommendations?
i think i'll just play some brotato until it's time for bed or until i beat the character i'm playing rn. whatever comes first. i don't think i have the mental capacity for a movie rn. ^^ do you have anything else in mind, though?

>you don't choose to feel like that
true, but eating like crap and going to bed way too late doesn't really help, either.

>now I read a little about old bikes and now I'll look on yt to find something nice to watch
glad you had a chill friday at least. find something interesting?

>>82905209
>how's it going?
could be better. i just feel like crap today.

>I'm so damn tired today though. I made myself sick eating way too much popcorn and a burger and some beers before that. Probably shouldn't have done this Thursday night
i know what you mean. haven't been eating well recently either and it shows. at least you had a good time with your brother.

>it feels really weird talking irl to people about this stuff
i usually don't have anything to say about it that lends itself to conservation. i either like some for some reason or i go on rants why i don't. best to keep that stuff in my head most of the time.

>it was quite nice
glad you had a good time talking to those nerds :p

>just a graphic
i always feel weird in tshirts with anything on them even just a logo is too much. don't know why. i always buy stuff like that, but i never realy feel comfortable in them. i wonder why.

>I thought it was the best of the anime films I've seen.
being interested/invested in what's shown helps a lot, but there's still a lot og stuff that can ruin the experience. but hey, that didn't happen. hope they can keep that up.

>>82905209
>Demon Slayer films were decent and JJK0 I kinda didn't like at all and thought was kinda mediocre.
i can't really comment on those. i think i saw a demon slayer movie and i'm sure it was ok, but i can't remember anything about it.

>"I went to a Catholic school growing up"
i did as well, but it's not as bad here. there's catholic, protestant and state owned schools here, but that usually just means different religious education classes once a week. nothing too drastic.

>optimistic to think it's possible and it just won't be two consecutive holidays of it!
hope dies last. ^^

>I feel like my sisters get/offended outraged no matter what I do so it is what is
can't help some people, no matter how hard you try to get on their good side. at some point you just have to let go and move on.

>>82905251
>not much i can do about it.
let's try to take it easy and catch sleep a bit earlier today. maybe that helps.

>>82905400
>not much i can do about it.
not great. didn't sleep well and it kinda ruined the whole day. just can't make myself do anything today, but i see you're not doing that well yourself. take it easy, friend.

got a headache :<
sorry frens for not replying but I'll probably go sleep it off

>>82905420
>do you have anything else in mind, though?
this
https://youtu.be/SQkyfYk3QvU?si=JJYN7KI3fVPT6TFu
or bladerunner ig ;3

>>82905507
>not great. didn't sleep well and it kinda ruined the whole day.
ohh i hear you
will you sleep now? a comfy sleep is probably gonna make it no?
have a good night anyways pal

>take it easy
i wish i could, thanks tho

>>82905529
>got a headache
noo, why?
>for not replying but I'll probably go sleep
don't worry pal, have a good night. i hope sleep fixes your headache

>>82905559
>noo, why?
honestly I think I haven't been drinking enough water
a little while ago I noticed that my glass is in the kitchen and realized it was there because I didn't use it today
but thank you I'm sure it'll get better
and you have a nice time at home

>>82905629
>because I didn't use it today
take care buddy, don't let that cross your mind
>sure it'll get better
glad to hear that
>have a nice time at home
thanks, have a good night

>>82905251
> but i'm not sure how to fix it either.
if there's something bothering you, can always talk about it. If just a feeling, sometimes just gotta pass. Hang in there

>>82905338
>mentioned that in this general at some point
do tend to repeat myself. I spam that thing like crazy texting people
>gap moe
I forgot this term exists and look up the explanation and it's actually scary how applicable this is in this case lol

>>82905400
Know you're feeling a bit overwhelmed right now, but try not to deliberately burn bridges avoiding people. Having alone time is good and healthy, but too much isolation isn't a good thing. Just take the night off at least and try to relax some
>not that bad
it isn't. Know it's there in some ways that I know are abnormal, but can push back a little better than before
> felt like it described something important about a problem i have
problem I still have to a degree as well. Led me to putting up with a lot from people i shouldn't have and knew were bad to me, but couldn't say no. Sometimes you have to draw a line, but i'm not one to talk on this considering I can't very well
> do you think my feelings are valid?
of course. You've been through a lot and what you described I think it makes sense how you're feeling these days and understand why you're struggling to get out of it.
> would the therapist think like my feelings aren't real?
i don't think they should. If they disregard how you feel they would be a bad therapist for one thing. Other than that, what conclusion they come to can vary a bit. I feel some deal with certain people more than others and opinions can differ between different therapists as a result They're just people too after all

>>82905529
damn. get well soon!

>this
thanks. i'll put it on while i wait for the laundry. chose another setting today and it's taking ages.

>>82905559
>will you sleep now? a comfy sleep is probably gonna make it no?
i have to wait for some laundry, but i'll go to bed when it's done, but this is probably my last post for the day. it's getting difficult to think.

>have a good night anyways pal
thanks. you too, buddy.

>>82905724
>but too much isolation isn't a good thing
i know but
you're right maybe i'm overwhelmed now
but if i felt like i need to connect with people again, i think i'll do it. might not tho.
>Just take the night off at least and try to relax some
i hope i can feel better tomorrow

>problem I still have to a degree as well.
i think it makes sense that people might have it for a long time
>but couldn't say no.
i understand you very well
>but i'm not one to talk on this considering I can't very well
i believe anyone can advise anyone even when the advisor himself can't apply the advise on his actions. hope you can get over everything bad

>of course.
>and understand why you're struggling to get out of it.
thank you. really.

>They're just people too after all
yup. we'll see what's gonna happen

thanks for everything mate, have a good night

>>82905529
gn cat! hope you feel better! Have a bit of one too i hope is gone soon

>>82905420
>i just feel like crap today.
you and me both. Should call it quits early and hope tomorrow is a bit better
>that lends itself to conservation.
how i feel as well, but realizing most conversation people have is sort of superficial babble a lot of time. Don't mean that in an overly negative way, since think even that has a time in place especially with strangers
> feel weird in tshirts with anything on them even just a logo is too much.
most of what I own is logoless t shirts or button shirts and polos for work. I don't like logos or anything attention grabbing normally, but this was a special case so I ended up walking around an urban area with an anime chick on my shirt without a care in the world.
>>82905507
>i saw a demon slayer movie and i'm sure it was ok, but i can't remember anything about it.
probably the train one where a good chunk is them in a dream sequence and they introduce the stupid zentisu is overpowered and fights in his sleep bullshit. Not bad, but I didn't feel like it really benefited from even being a movie so much, whereas this I felt did
> nothing too drastic.
here religious education equates to trying very hard to be drastically different the others, so it comes across with fundamentally different values. Which, I know public school where I live is garbage at least. but my education wasn't much better overall
>at some point you just have to let go and move on.
not losing any sleep over them

>>82905760
>it's getting difficult to think.
have some rest pal, cya!

>>82905368
If you don't mind me asking, why do you choose not to? Likewise, what makes you so sure that you are, yet you choose not to?
Sorry if I'm being disrespectful or something, I don't really know much about this stuff.

youtube.com/watch?v=ZmZMMSDx3Yg

>>82905338
>Hope things get better.
maybe, sometimes i wish things would get worse for me so i might finally have that last push i need.
>you can't do much about.
it's less of that and more about not knowing what to do, still sucks tho!

>>82905400
heya rem it's good to see ya
>why? what's the matter?
just feeling like i'm a bad person and need to destroy myself cus i don't know how to fix it instead.

>>82905724
>if there's something bothering you
rn it's just my weight and eating habits. I have really low weight and probably an eating disorder. i can't really gain weight but i also can't make myself eat.

>>82905529
Hey, I watch this guys videos! I was going to recommend the channel to you in one of the previous generals.

>>82905724
I was kinda using the term in an ironic way, because it's kinda silly sounding.

>>82906165
>cus i don't know how to fix it instead
there there, how about we talk about the problems and try to find a solution? rest easy mate, you can fix it, relax :)

>>82904597
>nothing unexpected will interrupt ur writing!
oh it will. I already started changing my toolbar.
>>82904526
hi chev
> not doing too good desu.
hope you feel better. do you wanna talk about it?
>just don't feel like doing anything at all.
Yeah that's an easy hole to fall into. Sometimes I just force myself to do something so it doesn't keep happening.
>>82905760
goodnight yu

>>82905760
gn yuanon, see you later

>>82905813
> i'm overwhelmed now
just trying to caution you to be careful. Easy enough to make more space, but at same time don't want to try so hard to do that it creates issue that are harder to walk back from
>might have it for a long time
My biggest problem right now is probably one of the longer relationships is with someone who i know is a bit manipulative and I think is making my life worse and a lot of ways, but can't shake it off despite of that no matter what I do. Just because I feel someone's doing something bad now, kinda hard to overlook the good memories.
>e advisor himself can't apply the advise on his actions.
fair point
>have a good night
you too. Probably crashing after this

>>82906165
>rn it's just my weight and eating habits.
>can't make myself eat.
you just don't feel like it, or is it bothering you? I don't know if i talked about it to you, but I used to be really skinny. Like BMI of 14, looked like a skeleton. It's really hard to get out of on your own, but it's important to fight against that sort of thing, since really unhealthy way to live

>>82906178
> it's kinda silly sounding.
as are most anime terms hence why few use them irl unless extremely confident or unwell

>>82906253
>about we talk about the problems
nothing really to say anymore, i'd sound like a broken record at this point. mainly just inactivity and failure to stay happy the little things i still enjoy.
>you can fix it
i'm not sure.

>>82906300
>hope you feel better.
not really but whatever
>do you wanna talk about it?
eh nothing to say desu. i'd like to hear more from other people now.
>force myself to do something
that's good if you can. lately i cannot even force myself to do anything.

>>82906335
>or is it bothering you?
idk i feel ill when i eat and that i just need to puke it out. if i eat i feel contaminated if that makes sense.
>Like BMI of 14
i'm getting fairly close to that now, i went from 15.5 last time to around 14.9 now. ig it makes me feel happy in a way, like that i'm able to "improve" something at last.
>hard to get out of on your own
i had counseling during the time i first started posting on these threads, so about a year ago now i think. (funnily enough i think you were the first people i talked to then). they didn't really help me much tho, they just told me to eat like it was simple.
>fight against that sort of thing
i tried but rn i'm in a mentality of "if you can't beat them, join em"

It's going to be one of those fucking days again, I can tell. Is severe alcohol abuse considered self harm? Because if it is, I have a first place ribbon. Good luck today, anons.

Well White gator is for sure alive. He blocked me on discord and rejected my friend's message request on another platform. If youre our there all I did was care about you like a brother and I still do