Thread 82905558

Have you ever had a sudden change of heart, for lack of a better phrase.
Like, you're a smoker for years but suddenly you see something or have a thought and go "...wtf am I doing? // This is disgusting" and so you stop. Maybe it's drinking, or maybe it's fapping to a certain genre or whatever.
webm kind of related; animals getting it, humans not getting it


>please correct me if a phrase already exists for this, closest I know of is "come to jesus moment" but that's a different nuance

Yes, after drinking enough booze that it almost killed me and then I went to the doctor who informed me after an ultrasound that I had stage four liver disease
I wasn't an alcoholic or anything but that did snap me out of it and I stopped drinking, that was years ago now
Fortunately my liver completely recovered since it hadn't yet become cirrhosis

yes. i saw how anons were acting during george floyd and needed to take a break from this site.

Quit weed this year cause it made my empathy too strong, started being hyper aware of my physical and mental status out of choice and realized being an empath + weed made me lose sight of my own values and I put everyone else's emotions on the pedestal and even took their POV as actual reality. I miss getting high and still get urges to get high again but I value my own inner voice and needs more now. Never heard anyone say anything similar about weed.

>>82905628
>being an empath
genuinely what the hell do you mean by this

>>82905657
Above average empathy, often to the point of distress. I hate using the term but I dont wanna over explain. I dont like feeling what other ppl feel all the time let alone to the point where its horrible things I empathize with like murderers and shit

>>82905657
99.9% of the time it means "I have a cluster B personality disorder and think I'm downright saintly and totally not the selfish monster most people who know me think I am."
I am being very generous by saying that's only 99.9% of the time.

>>82905735
Empathy is not inherently good or bad, it's just the capacity to feel what others can and for me at least its involuntary unlike sympathy, where I can choose to sympathize with you or not. I dont like empathizing with bad people but it happens anyways. Im not saintly or whatever the fuck... white women have ruined the term which is why I stated I hate using it. I should've just said this instead.

It doesn't happen suddenly. Most people who say it happen suddenly are just manipulating to make someone think they changed

>>82905657
If someone is super embarrassed, you can empathize with them too hard to the point where you feel uncomfortable as if it was you being in the spotlight.
A bad example would be having to pause a scene in a show because you can't handle it despite it being obviously fiction. You're placing yourself in their shoes, even though it's all in your head because it's fiction.
It's basically an overly vicarious experience.

>>82905785
>didn't read the thread award
See the first reply as an example of someone who gets it. How the fuck is "oh shit, I'm killing myself, I should stop" manipulating someone.

>>82905735
You're a mouth breathing moron. Empathy is not sympathy and has nothing to do with savior complex. Empathy is basically being able to feel and put yourself in the shoes of another human being and imagine their experiences and emotions. You can almost transport your consciousness in a way to understand their feelings in the moment through your own past experiences. You obviously lack empathy and are low IQ.

>>82905558 (OP)
kinda
>local stacy started staring at me long enough to trick my incel brain into thinking she was interested in me
>she went out of her way to talk to me a few times
>started compairing my life to hers
>she lifemogged me in every god damn aspect
>have a mental breakdown one night and decide to do a complete 180 with my life or die trying
>i stop smoking, i quit my caffeine addiction, i start working out, i start studying etc etc
I'm still a 4chan incel freak but life is less shit now, I'm still not fully where I want to be but I'll get there one day. Also i think she was staring at me because I looked like a schizo and her woman hormones made her want to take pity on the dude thats always sitting alone but oh well, "don't look a gifted horse in the mouth" or whatever. No, i didnt bang her and probably never will.

>>82905818
When I see what's the manipulative intent of a thread is I'll call it out, just as much as you're going to be butt hurt that you didn't get away with it I know it reflects badly on you because it's recognized by her

>>82905869
>When I see what's the manipulative intent of a thread is I'll call it out
Listen Mike, I'm going to level with you here for once. I will occasionally shit on you (primarily because I feel you ruined the letter threads) and post random shit when I see you reply meant only to troll you. I'll admit to that freely.
But what you are doing right now is literally a paranoid delusion.

Earlier today I was fapping and browsing some random genre of porn, when it clicked for me "what the fuck am I even doing", and I stopped and lost all arousal, and now said genre just... doesn't do anything for me, and decided to make the thread wondering if that kind of a thing (minus the porn aspect) happened to other people.
It has nothing to do with manipulation, you, or anything remotely related to either of those two subjects.

Sincerely, please get help. I know you will ignore this because anyone whose posted as much as you is nigh incapable of stopping until they have their own come to jesus moment, but holy shit man. Not everything is about you or whoever the fuck maria is (still don't even know who she is, be it an ex or an object of obsession or even a fictional being / tulpa).

>>82906051
Not listening to narc put downs and character assassination when you get called out for your shit. Your writing style is unique and it's easy to see when you make a LARP

>be me
>do no exercise
>wake up sore for no reason
I'm going to have to start exercising...

>>82905609
>I wasn't an alcoholic or anything
>drinks enough to almost kill himself
bro, c'mon. no one's going to judge you about that here.
If you really don't think that's alcoholism, that's wild.

>>82906156
>anon makes thread about thing
>THIS IS CLEARLY A PLOT AGAINST ME
heh

ngl Mike is based and all other paragraphniggers need to die(I did not read any of that)

>>82905558 (OP)
When got too fat for my underwear and started on a diet.

>>82905619
1/10
Honesty, wasn't even really worth replying to.

>>82905558 (OP)
Stopped drinking a year ago. Typical night, shitfaced bent over and just fell over and smashed my head on a cabinet. Sat on the floor for a minute coming to the realization that I had a wife and kids who depended on someone who spent every night drunk. Poured the rest of the bottle of whiskey down the drain and never looked back.

>>82906484
Actual alcoholic here, alcohol poisoning has nothing to do with physical addiction.
You're only an alcoholic if you're actually addicted to alcohol.

>>82905558 (OP)
I had a withdrawal seizure from alcohol and smashed my head open on the curb outside target. The decision was made for me but that was it.

>>82906557
Appreciate you friend

>>82906685
Sure. I accept that a single occasion of over drinking leading to alcohol poisoning != alcoholic.
But drinking enough to cause long term damage?

I get what you're saying, but that sounds like "I'm not an addict, I can quit anytime I want to, I just don't want to".

>>82906836
It's an alcoholic making excuses to try to make someone think something different of them. Just ignore the manipulative post

>>82905558 (OP)
Yeah in my late 20s I had a massive mental breakdown and decided I would either kms or get a gf but I wouldn't live another year as a khhv. I got a gf.

>>82905785
It does when you reach a breaking point. Little by little then all at once kind of deal.

>>82906484
You're "wild". Think of a higher iq word than "wild".

>>82906909
pic related, I'm trying to connect with the youth.
First step is to integrate their language.

What the fuck is triggering the spam filter?
How the fuck does the system think my post is spam?
Reformat what?

>>82907206
man fuck this shit.

Must be some normal word or phrase that is triggering the system's spam fillter and I am tired of trying to guess what it is.
I have tried 6 dozen times editing the post. I am done.

Shit is fucking broken.

drank myself to the point it was no longer working. switching to liquor was a huge mistake, cus when i came off it beer didn't do shit anymore, and i've most likely seriously damaged my liver.

dont have insurance tho and no one will give me a job so i guess i just die now
thanks obama

>>82907261
that nigger really ruined everything

>>82907206
The things I know that do it are:
>saying nigger more than 5 times in a post
Only 4 niggers allowed per post, sad.
>linking certain medical journals
4chan hates science
>non-ascii text
Also usually from medical journals
>linking 5+ posts

>humans not getting it
what do you mean? I'm confused about the webm

>>82907269
None of that applies to the post I tried to make.

I honestly have no clue what was so triggering about my post.
No links, no profanity, all hand typed with a normal keyboard with no special characters.

Maybe references to certain drugs aren't allowed anymore?

>>82905558 (OP)
this is a really minor thing compared to being addicted to hard drugs or the like. But in my early 20s I got two traffic tickets in quick succession and thought "Why the fuck am I in such a hurry?" Ever since then I'm the guy in the right lane that you pass as quick as you can since he's driving like a grandmother.

>>82907355
If all else fails, write it up in notepad, screenshot it, and post that.

>Maybe references to certain drugs aren't allowed anymore?
Nah, it's not that.
You can commit federal espionage crimes here that the system doesn't bother detecting (though of course if someone reports you you're screwed lol).
There are also a few certain keywords, usually board specific, that are banned because people spam them too much. I don't know of any for /r9k/.
But yeah tl:dr; notepad + screenshot solves the issue if it's just text to read.

>>82905558 (OP)
During a stimulant addition. I realize I was gradually killing myself, snorted another bump for some willpower and then started flushing away half of what I had left. Every time I took another hit I made myself flush away more and more until I was done with it. I've had a few relapses but they kept getting shorter and I threw away most of what I bought. I'll never be free from the addiction but I won't let myself die from it.

>>82905558 (OP)
On several occassions in recent years I paused drinking and started eating healthy. I got in shape and felt good and then I realized I love drinking and eating slop more than I care about being in shape. Grown men who watch their figure are fucking cringe. My femboy days are way behind me.

>>82905628
anybody who claims to be an empath is not an empath nor is empathetic in anyway shape or form as you can never truly know what another person is feeling unless they tell you. remind yourselves of this anons

>>82905849
empathy isnt no, but the concept of empaths has everything to do with a saviour complex

yes but it usually only lasts around a day or two

I believe that things always return to the mean. If I am naturally a degenerate I didn't choose to be this way. The universe aligned patterns in a way I had no choice in to create my degenerate autistic ass.

To spend my entire life beating myself up over every degenerate impulsive behaviour I partake in would do nothing but generate an entire life of self flagellation for no reason at all.

>>82909104
it's a meme but it's all about balance. I've been in ridiculously good shape and spent long periods being stone cold sober and I have to say it's really no worth it.

Being moderately fit and healthy and not beating yourself up for drinking on weekends or eating shit is the way to go.

>>82905558 (OP)
never in my fucking life will I suddenly change. I"m built on logic and facts and self preserverence none of this flacid